Jesus christ the dudes back...
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Memories flash thorugh me my head. I see myself I see them... No. I see no self. No self at all. I just see. A state, of dislocation around everyone my whole life. And now. Now as an atheist, marxist, critical rational person, how could I ever embrace or love them again. As that, or like that. I am A Skeptic. "He doesn't believe he's real normally I joke when high."

Whatever. Splitsy bitsy spider is what I call this. I could still like act normal around family too. But why would I want to. Our family is like a Schizophrenic circus and let me tell you I have the most absurd dreams...

Insane, but hey, what can I do about it. I sak for it. Or I wouldn't want to get high.
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-NS

definably ego work, or part disintegration of it , or in worst case yep your are going insane, but , hey don't worry join the club

yeah it always wears off but at the time I think it's the most profound shit.

Hello, NewShaman!
Wellcome on board of this insane ship! Paradox, but the team could appear to be the most resonable people of all
Defenitely I think it's an ago struggling for what is familiar
Just be patient, don't worry too much about it. Find what makes you strong, you will need it to go YOUR OWN way. And no matter what's happening, please don't forget, it's only YOU who create and manage all this Why should you spend your ending life not as YOU need or just feel to?

thank you for your kind words!