Update summary:
200mg harmala hcl in capsule.
1 hour later (whoops) 50mg spice in capsule.
Nothing for about an hour. It took twenty minutes when diluted in tea so no more capsules. After an hour sleepy and somewhat (sadish?), mopey, just gonna lay down and think. It wasn’t until afterward I realized, it hit me pretty well but it was all body and thought, no sparks and fireworks. Thought about my dad and what an absolute blessing it is to have the family I do. At one part I couldn’t understand how people hold it together day to day knowing this “flaw” that is death is hanging over us no matter what.
Then got thoughts about the different transfers between prebirth, birth and finally bodily death take place. How the reason babies scream is because coming here was a sad day, we had to become physical and therefore susceptible to a death as a result of needing to “clearing up” our spiritual death.
Essentially the default headspace whe have serves a purpose but not beyond this world. Don’t fret, after our next leap, well be running a different program than the primate human.
All in all a good reminder. I don’t see how I’ll ever “breakthrough” because I seem to get a good reminder with a small dose but the load is too much. Even last night I was thinking “this is just not enjoyable” even though those reminders are like ice water in the desert. Vaped is much worse than oral, changa reminds me of salvia in it’s beginning effects and my body knows a massive dump of adrenaline is on the way when it smells that. I think and hope over time I’ll be able to get in there with the oral roa and then maybe it’ll be where the changa shines brightest.