I been messing around with changa lately which seems more gentle than Pure DMT and a slower come up but i haven't messed around with high doses yet because i am not really looking for a breakthrough just micro doses to get into a meditative state and medium doses for deep meditation.
I keep coming to this point where i feel the hallucinations are somewhat guiding me or showing me a helping hand like its telling me its "right there" or "right here" "your so close" as if its talking to me in some way and i notice the more i just let go and surrender the more pure white light and higher frequency and warm blissful colors and sensations i experience and the more it becomes ULTRA HD while when i think more the colors/patterns become more dull and less enjoyable sensations and it becomes more of a hallucination with any meaning or insight.
When i Had Pure DMT years ago it was quite a different experience. It felt like i was loaded in a rocketship to space as i hit lightspeed and time completely stopped and become one with the entire universe, i understood and saw everything and all life made perfect sense and i could read geometry and colors and understand everything in every way and past/present/future became one so i was everywhere all at once. The first 15 seconds was the most intense and scariest thing i ever experienced but after that was the best experience ever as i was elsewhere communicating with higher intelligence and directly experiencing the magnificence of creation itself.
Changa has a more wavy/tentacle like trip while pure DMT is more direct and sharp geometry but i never notice anything like stated above on changa.
My changa is around 30% DMT i believe and last hit was 80mg changa and it was great i was coming down of LSD and it seemed so much easier with minimal resistance compared to when i am sober i guess cause the LSD already opens me up and calms everything down where i am more in the moment thus less thinking involved?
Anyways i keep noticing this experience of sensation as if I'm "almost there" "Just a little more" I am not sure if this means i am not surrendering completely or i need to take a bigger dose. Is this saying i'm almost at breakthrough or something?
Might try 100-120mg next time see how it goes. Any ideas or similar experiences?
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