As has been said, you tell a powerful story.
I have many thoughts, but I will note only this part:
Quote:"After this experience I have never in my life been more happy and grateful and thankful to be here. To be alive. I feel as if everything I see and experience should be embraced and loved as the most precious of gifts. I am so thankful for everything and everyone... I learned how much I love everyone and everything... I feel the desire to live my life to the fullest. To explore. To do all the things I thought I had lost the chance to do... My family.. My friends.. Create a family of my own.. Explore this beautiful world I was born into...
I do not know the meaning. I do not have any answers.
Explore. Love others. Love life. Enjoy what has been offered to you. I am thankful you are here. I am thankful I am here. Accept things as they are, accept things as they come. Breath, relax, and laugh, endlessly...."
Perhaps you can lean most heavily on your very own words and what you learned, as you integrate. I have a feeling the teachers were more successful than you might yet realize.
Love.
Love life.
Love yourself.
Love each other.
If nothing else, you left me with a smile as I finished reading.
With all respect and gratitude for telling us what happened.
" Enjoy every sandwich." - Warren Zevon
"No, they never did turn me into a toad." - Pete (O Brother, Where Art Thou?)
"Are you a time traveller?" "No, I think I'm more of a time prisoner." - Nadia Vulvokov (Russian Doll)