Hi folks, first i want to thank you all for sharing your experiences and points of view. I found it a great support in my own experience, and also apologize for my english is not my native language in case you find any error in this report.
I want to share with you the experience with smoked changa from A.Confusa i had a few days ago. I have experimented with high extracts of salvia and dmt a several of times before but i have found this experience, possibly enhanced by previous experiences and previous work, as the most intense, powerful and transformative.
I smoked 3 times, the first two, the consciousness feel like entering another dimension, sensations throughout the body and visual typical from medium-low doses, but this time i want to go deeper.
I loaded the pipe more and take a 3rd hit that leads me deeper, from the beginning i feel a light in the navel area that accompanies me, i see a spiral and without giving me time i go deeper, to a space full of gears driven by a unique rhythm, a pulsation, i feel a terrible boredom and solitude, here there is nothing but this pulsation that moves all the gears, is like the rhythm of the cosmos, the primigeneous counciousness, the cosmic machinery, the rhythm that underlies all manifestations of consciousness, all projections of this awareness.
I feel like i break, and during the experience i feel beings, as if they made on my energy field some kind of surgery, i also feel it's not time yet to merge with that energy or primal consciousness.
Upon leaving this space where all these gears are, i feel that it's offered to me something and the needed to open my mouth to receive it, and when i open the mouth and take a deep breath i feel like an etheric liquid that invades my whole being, i feel purity, something like primal energy.
From this experience i feel i have become somewhat in a different way, recognizing this reality as an illusion and everything that before i perceived as separate, now i feel like a projection of a same consciousness, of this primigeneous consciousness, but also i continue feeling the mind, the illusory "I" that feel separate and opaque that feeling of oneness.
The feeling that i can not hold onto anything because this "reality" is just a projection that does not exist by itself, that i can not hold onto the idea of "I" because this "I" is another projection, and that i am here to experience by the own desire to experience separation definitely it's most pronounced.
Also i found this is hard to bring to words because you can't really describe what has been experienced, just point to it.
Also share with you that before this experience i was fan to kratom, taking 2 or 3 times a week for several months, and now that routine, that "need" is gone, there is really no need to alter consciousness, only to remain as consciousness, deep awareness that underlies the idea of "I" we think we are. This is what we have to focus on.
I also believe that taking an MAOI before the experience would have helped better to integration, changa is not the way, taking an MAOI becomes almost essential to absorb as much as possible from the experience with smoked dmt.
This is what comes out me to share with you right now, i find the integration of the experience in everyday life, just as important if not more than the experience by itself and any comments or advice would be welcome.
Thank you all folks, be safe, enjoy life
