I took a deep journey via high(er) dose ayahuasca analogue (ACRB + Syrian rue) with a close friend. We drank 2/3 of the target dose, waited an hour to get through the takeoff, then drank the rest. If I have a brave friend with me, we are able to share energy and both go deeper than if we drank alone.

On this occasion my intention was to fully let go and to face my deepest existential fears. The first cup and first hour passed relatively easy for me, and more difficult for my friend. After the second cup the takeoff felt harder for me, but I was able to stay with the experience with a blindfold on by breath work and focusing on trancing to music.

The music and darkness-induced trance carried me far. I passed through artwork never yet painted, through fractal tunnels and thunderstorms and met a predatory, shape shifting black jaguar/wolf/shadow entity who greeted me as a friend and ally. It knew I had been studying Buddhist philosophy and wanted to find the source of all creation. I can't say exactly what the predatory creature's message was, but then things went dark as this ally vanished into smoke.

I found myself trapped in a house of mirrors. Now I call it The House of Mirrors, and I realized this WAS the source. It is The Source. Everything I could see, all the reflections of myself, were images with the veil of life removed. I was seeing everything as I am. Only, the choice was clear. Do I want to be afraid of never escaping this House of Mirrors, or can I accept this reality, and perhaps even find a way out?

I began feeling my way through this labyrinth of mirrors. I was feeling hopeless and trapped when I realized that in this place language was visual. Out of the maze appeared before me a riddle in the guise of a floating leprechaun/gnome creature. It was the visual language of a riddle. It wasn't the word riddle, nor was it a leprechaun. It was the true memetic meaning to be a riddle. And in the moment I saw it and tried to understand it I understood that these riddles held the clues to escaping The House of Mirrors.

I could take my blindfold off, sit up, lay back down, put the blindfold back on, and I was still trapped in The House of Mirrors...

My voyager friend had to take a break from the blindfold before I felt like I was done trying to understand, and the experience eventually came to an end.

What made this experience unique to me was that once inside The Source, inside The House of Mirrors, the geometric patterns vanished, and time began passing by very fast (I had my blindfold on in a trance state for over 2 hours without break). It was just me, and a clear reflection of myself, illuminated by blue light against a black contrasted background. And then there was the riddle-leprechaun that jumped out in the mirror as if trying to wave cheerfully with glee "hey hey, look here!", leaving it up to me to decide what to do with the riddle. It was very much like a lucid dream. It felt less like a psychedelic journey, and much more like a lucid dream. Yet this was a relatively high dose...

I can't get over how radically unpredictable these experiences can be. This experience felt like it was overall very good, (left me with a wonderful afterglow, feeling great, etc), but it also felt like another of these "hard lessons" that Aya/DMT likes to teach. It's hard to interpret this readily. I've had plenty of dreams of feeling trapped, and I've had hyperslap experiences in which I've felt trapped in a difficult emotional space, but this was... Different.

This was very different.



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Has anyone experienced anything quite like this? It felt particularly strange because the static pattern overlay (SPO) seemed to vanish when I went into the house of mirrors. Normally I experience fractal SPO even during a lockout experience. It doesn't just turn into another reality altogether. Normally there is always the SPO.

Or do I just need to write this off--yet again--as DMT/Aya being the kind of beastly experience you can never predict?

You know better, since you were in the specific trip, but by your description, this looks like a representation of reality/source, rather than the Source itself. Basically, I feel that you were shown that the reality is made out of reflections of the Source, looking at itself from different points of view. But the appearance of the gnome and your trapped feeling makes me think that this was a (honest) show put up for you to realize the nature of reality, rather than meeting and melding with the actual Source. Just my interpretation, of course. Very good report!

I like your input because it's relatively synonymous with my own thinking about it. I just like to think about life in layers of unknown depth. Those layers could be reality, dreams, hyperspace, and whatever comes after that. Maybe the next level above hyperspace is another dream state? It would make it the dream state of what would then be a singular origin, a singular source or creator.

A leprauchan? Interesting. Like Terence. I was just theorizing earlier in another thread about Ganesha and really just proposing to myself that Leprauchans is an initiate program evolving from hyperspace. I don't know if that's true but I do for one notice a linear progression of experiences that ultimately result to the intergration of memes, really. From that i deduce that it's purpose is to deconstruct communication barriers.

While SPO is an interesting effect, a dream state is significantly deeper and more engaging. As for the source you guys are talking about. E=Mc2

Yeah... I know. Weird.

I've had to stop and think hard about these things lately, especially after hearing Dennis McKenna mention in an interview that he has never ever had entity contact of any kind--even after having his mind "smeared across the cosmos" for over a week straight.

I just have to begin to believe that either
a) it happens to some people, not all, or
b) visions come to people that are open to experiencing them.




I've been working on an idea related to karma and working memory, both individual and group/societal. I then was directed to the wild fox koan by an unnamed source. It's given me a lot to think about because I believe the riddle/leprechaun represents a way to step outside the boundaries of cause and effect by playing memory games to all of the observers present (including your own working memory). The idea is still in an early phase of development, but it has to do with simple memes to override memory traces with what are essentially emotional impulse experiences.




I don't know what to make of this exactly. Is one deeper than the other? I'm not sure. It feels weird when you dive into the abyss and have an experience that feels like it could have been an everyday dream... It was deep, I know that. But I have lucid dreams often, so... What's the difference exactly, (besides being mildly more lucid than dreaming in experience)?

I believe the source is love + intention in the eye of the beholder, whoever or whatever that beholder may be. Intention is a common theme among shamans and spiritual practitioners of all walks. I guess there is probably more than that at the source, but that is what can be felt/experienced from our vantage point, IMHO.

I posted that I could go deeper with a friend.

This is no longer true. I believe it's because most friends breakdown at some point, so part of me anticipates becoming a counselor to their needs. I can't help but feel what they feel. It's just what happens.

Now I have to correct myself by saying my best experiences are completely solo, without interruptions by any humans at all.