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drown
#1 Posted : 3/21/2016 11:54:52 PM

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So, via request i offer you all my latest journey to the void, I hope it helps or and least entertains you all Big grin


Two people, one a friend, the other a very close friend of my friend whom I've met before came over for a little while yesterday evening. Lets call them J and B

So during the random guy b.s session that ensued J saw my new VG classic....it looks weird because i customized the paint.. well sharpy. I explained how much better i think it is than a standard pipe or dab ring...

I'm partial to the vg i didnt want glass just fyi lol

After this explanation he started complaining about how everyone he knows that uses DMT can breakthrough without issue and no matter what he does it just doesn't happen for him. He said he gets hazy and the buzzing body vibration but that it. I told him its a letting go thing and he swears He has, he really really wants the breakthrough. I think hes barred personally or just wont let go. J once said "how can these other people breakthrough when i'm way more intelligent and deserving" Do long story short he asked to use the VG and of course i obliged what kind of friend would i be to decline.

The chamber is loaded with a bit of tobacco and peppermint, (he gets bad congestion) and approximately 100mg of dmt I made myself so i know that it's not a purity issue.
He keeps inhaling and holding for 10-30 seconds.... took him a while to get it, he cant hold his breath well. Anyway, he exhausted the bloody chamber and was still talking to me. After this he became frustrated and loaded an UNKNOWN amount into the chamber... If i had to guess between 250mg and 750mg im just going off the size of what i saw him put in there. White crystalline btw.

So long story short no breakthrough for him after what would have put me into a coma. Yes i know it was childish, and yes i told him it was a bad idea and not too but i rather him do that while supervised than in private...

B then skeptical about the VG and DMT decided to take 2 inhalations... Instant breakthrough

After those two are baseline and decide to head home, i relax for a bit and decide to go watch t.v in bed.

Yes now my actual experience Big grin

So i had been having some integration problems recently and was a little timid about dosing again... after some thought i figured a sub-breakthrough dose might allow me to work some things out.

I undid the screw top to see what remained in the bowl.... NONE of the plant material had been burned The plant matter was a darker color green, brown, extra shiny and glistening like someone had poured vegetable oil on it and let it try kinda reminded me of changa in a way.

After watching j Earlier it had me thinking about letting go and that i never really let go entirely i always had a bit of panic or something like that while taking a journey or always went in with questions or seeking something and only ever once really left my body behind, well on some sort of chemical at least.

I decided to do some meditation on this about his and calm myself. Thought it would help with fixing the integration. And i sat there eyes closed in the dark with a fan going breathing and thinking about letting go. The phrase releasing you burden kept coming to mind.. and i did just That. I let go of my connections remembered what an entity told me once, there is no bad or good there only is, we just are. I let go of everything individually that i could think of, my attachment to my job, my house, my cars, my lover, and eventually to live my corporial form everything... I had never been that calm... the notion hit me that there was not point to taking a sub-breakthrough dose if i was going to do this at all, I might as well go forward.

Once i opened my eyes i picked up the VG and took one long slow inhalation... I felt absolutely nothing no harshness at all i assumed it was just air but held it in for around ten-fifteen seconds just because. As i was inhaling the second time i noticed the world was already shifting i finished taking the second inhalation and placed the vg and lighter down and laid back on the bed.

I held this in as long as i could or until i realized i felt odd which i finally realized was i needed air.. i inhaled a little more air without exhaling and held for an indeterminate amount of time sec-hour-minute i have no idea. no sense of time.. My body, hands, arms everything was vibrating, then i couldn't feel my heartbeat anymore or my body for that part.... was i breathing? rapid thoughts a stroke of fear this is normal it happens ever time... then i remembered i had let go... what did it matter if i was breathing surely i was my body is programmed to do so on its own. but if not i had let go of that connection it didn't matter just be...

During those thoughts. I started to hear music coming from above me or in the front of my head. I saw no tunnel i glimpsed the mandala for only a moment a fraction of a second even in hyper space. with my eyes closed (although i forgot i had eyes at this point) i was in hyper-space a 4th-5th and 6th dimensional void that stretched for eternity and and yet was finite, the image before me was like 3-4 3d cubes the kind you sketch out of boredom in high school, rotating and meeting at the center of my vision with infinite depth and color to this place red, blue, green everything.

Normally i'm questioning things now asking for help or guidance this time i only existed in quite silence communicating nothing... the the dimension became pixalated... still the same dimensions and place, but blocky like the old nes games... the cubes at cubes and were made of cubes each with a reflection no the question came but not asking anything or any outside source but a calm pondering of ideas. What are we, what is existence, what is the purpose to our lives on this plane or planet. In an almost comedic fashion as i would ponder a question the second the idea of the question had formed in my head all the cubes (thousands apon thousands btw) would morph or change.. its hard to describe into what the answer was the one that sticks out the most was children images and reflections of infants. As all these questions were being answered and stopped pondering new ones, i noticed an image in the cubes.. not the millions of answers or images reflected in them, but they all made one.

The cubes never stopped rotating and the image and color of the deep background which when on for forever never changed hues of red and yellow and orange, The the image in the center, the cubes all of them made one while still rotating... it was a entity. The entire thing was one being The only way i can describe it was Kali but she was a blue in color adorned whit jewels and little else. She laughed at me and i got the sense or communicated that it was because of all my question, like how dare i seek answers to trivial things... oddly enough i didn't care trivial or not what did it matter, i had let go, what did her perception of me matter? After that she actually flipped me off.
But the feel from her changed like she acknowledged that i had really understood, i laughed at least in some sense. i still had no body, it was a very playful feeling, that feeling you get when your smiling while having a playful argument with a lover "ie playful banter not a real argument" she smiled... still flipping me off mind you.. the focal point of the cubes was her hand....

Then she was gone and i was now in a room/space/dimension best described as an inter-dimensional dance club, filled with creatures akin to jellyfish with tendrils that expanded to forever... they were celebrating and were extremely happy, I didn't understand why, it wasn't because of me or my presence, Again as i thought why, it was answered before i directed it.. because we exist, is there any other reason, is there any other need for one? We exist in all this, infinite and finite existence is the reason, we are all, all are us, we are the point and that is the point..

it's hard to describe the concept which was conveyed in words, But i understood, and happily still do. I felt a kind of JOY,ELATION,HAPPY, i had never experience before in life... it was a tangible feeling in my head and my mind, like an orgasm on steroids but made of joy and bliss. I rejoiced as they did in existence itself and have never NEVER been... words just cant do it justice.. well call it ecstatic for a place holder. As i joined them i saw the move and the tendrils part as they were meshed together and realized the jellyfish things were actually hyperspace itself... that dimension as a whole is what i was conversing with i accepted it fully with all the "love" i had just learned. As i did this it expanded it hood "jellyfish dome" to show it was the expanse of all this dimension and enveloped me completely as if holding or coddling a child... I stayed this way until i realized i had a body again i rolled to one side but felt very funny.

I was light and still had many visuals and could still hear music... I remembered an epiphany i had on ketamine before that i lost the meaning to when i came down... A tornado of everything in existance compressed to a focal point like a black whole... everything is everything that was the point we are the point joy in the simple fact of all of that... As i remembered it i saw the tornado again but blue this time instead of red like ketamine... this tornado turned into a tunnel or vortex and i saw all my old connections melt off me and fall through this wormhole like they had been stripped away, all my guilt, all my pain, all the lose and heartache, rage and anger, fear, and malice... i felt whole connected and pure... i was smiling and laughing and could finally open my eyes.... the world was still shifting, but was normal... everything was better and all i just learned remained.... i hadn't lost it this time... to ask me to truly describe the concept is impossible i do apologize for that. I went to sleep easily and awoke earlier than normal and more contented with life than i ever before had been.

~D(k)

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#2 Posted : 3/24/2016 7:19:38 PM

Music is alive and in your soul. It can move you. It can carry you. It can make you cry! Make you laugh. Most importantly, it makes you feel! What is more important than that?

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Nice report, thanks for sharing!

It sounds like your friend is either a psychedelic hardhead or he is vaporizing it wrong. Having such a large amount of DMT in the pipe and have nothing happen is probably a good thing, as that would be more than enough to traumatize someone. Perhaps it could be his attitude towards it as well, having a feeling of entitlement seems a bit snobish, no offense to your friend, but thinking he is better and smarter than others and "deserves" to breakthrough is off putting. I would suggest changa for this friend. If he can't breakthrough on a proper dose of changa, he may just be one of those rare cases where DMT doesn't affect them. Sometimes certain medications can interact with the process too, for the record.

As for your experience, it sounds like you had a good time. Entities giving the finger always gives me a good laugh, especially when it is in a playful manner. I can also relate to the feelings of pure joy and happiness, it is a lovely feeling, indeed.

I love the idea of hearing music in hyperspace. I haven't really heard any tunes myself but I always hear bleeps and bloops, clicks and clacks, which reminds me of electronic noises being played backwards underwater or something of that nature. Anyway, thanks again for sharing! Have a good one!

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drown
#3 Posted : 3/29/2016 6:20:56 PM

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The Grateful One wrote:
Perhaps it could be his attitude towards it as well, having a feeling of entitlement seems a bit snobish, no offense to your friend, but thinking he is better and smarter than others and "deserves" to breakthrough is off putting.


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I love the idea of hearing music in hyperspace. I haven't really heard any tunes myself but I always hear bleeps and bloops, clicks and clacks, which reminds me of electronic noises being played backwards underwater or something of that nature. Anyway, thanks again for sharing! Have a good one!
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None taken that is actually my thoughts as well i brought this up to him but he doesnt agree with me about it, his issue i guess.

As to the music part, i never did either in the beginning, but recently i end up with a sort of constant ever changing soundtrack in the background on every journey now and the have all become very meaningful since the trip i described above Smile

Thank you for the feedback
Humans are the only beings to change their entire universe in a heartbeat simply by changing their outlook on it...


I am prone to write fictional short stories as a release from the daily stressor's of life. Anything written here on these pages, is either the start of a new story, or a continuation and collaboration of stories i have already shared with ,You, my loyal readers Pleased If you either enjoyed or managed to learn something from my fictions please remember they are fictions and may not be the best things to emulate...So please practice caution and know that i take no responsibility for your actions, but wish you all the best. Peace and love ^_^
 
 
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