I have experienced pretty much all my breakthroughs with a looping, stuck and can't go back now feeling. I didn't know what it was and didn't do much to figure out what and why it was happening. Well, I believe now that I have discovered the reasoning for it. They were warning about my life and my future.

I have been living an unhealthy lifestyle fueled with going to clubs with my stupid friends and getting drunk and not doing anything I am ambitious about. Smoking weed all day when it hasn't brought a single positive aspect to my life.

Now I made a drunk mistake, my third mistake. In this one I am facing SERIOUS charges with the law. It was a giant drunk mistake that I had made. I now know what it all meant. I believe I was seeing the future and that if I didn't do anything about it (like quit drinking and stop hanging out with the people I did) that I would experience a living nightmare similar to my experiences.

I am feeling the feeling of how there is no going back now. I am scared. I don't know what to do anymore. I am going to try to turn my life around and grow up as I need to but I am worried this was the mistake I was seeing every time I broke though.

I still have hope that god might give me one more chance, that this truly was the most serious wake up call I could ever experience. I am praying for another chance because I didn't listen my last 2 times.

Please guys, if you are experiencing DMT like I did, be truly careful and look hard at what might be causing them before you doom yourself.

That's terrible to hear, and a hell of an introduction. It sounds like the self destructive path you were heading down influenced your entire life, it is no wonder it influenced your trips.

It is apparent you are unsettled and struggling. I can offer you a piece of advice that i received during a situation where circumstance piled up in such a way to make me feel similar to the way that you describe.

Surrender.

Let go.

Let go of everything.

Everything.

It's all you can do now. It is not ironic that is the same advice that serves one well during a difficult trip. It's good advice.

I hope you find peace. And welcome to the nexus, friend.

Thanks bud. It is hard to surrender at the moment but I have been trying to just live in the moment and allow everything to happen without my mind putting fear in my head.

btw, I have been here for a while and posted numerous topics about my trips. I should listen to peoples advice more.

I can say from personal experience that stopping drinking on a daily basis has been one of the best decisions I have ever made, you will see the positive effects flow into all aspects of your life. Once you get past the habit of drinking itself, for me it was a great way to finish the working day, you should find it all very easy.
You learn the most from your mistakes, and this by the sound of it has been a huge one, hopefully this will have a real vicissitude on your life friend.

Sorry to hear that anonsurfer. I hope you'll find a way to get back on track.

Something that really struck me from your post is how much your are victimizing yourself.
God will do nothing for you, you put yourself in this situation. And you chose to be part of that group you call "stupid friends", part of that lifestyle, you were one of them.
I realize it might be hard to acknowledge, but the sooner you do the sooner you'll be able to make the right choices.
Your facing your karma right now, your own doing.
You are part of the experience, you made it happen to you.

That said, stay strong, no doubt you'll be more than challenged along the way. But always remember that your own doing manifests in the experience you have.
You want to change the experience ? Then change your doing !

I'm sorry to hear your going through a rough time right now, I've been there, Been through it all, And i'm lucky to still be here and alive, If you can just hold out and stick it through, You'll live to see another brighter day. These are all lessons, that come with life. That only make you stronger in the end, And smarter.

I'm really sorry about your troubles. I'm sure the reality of your situation makes those hyperspace loops seem like nothing. It seems to me though, that those loops are built into the experience. It is not clear why or when they show up, but I don't think they are necessarily warning signs either. I believe in messages from hyperspace, but I'm not sure that was one they were meaning to send.

I think that I was more warned of how I'm living my life rather than what is going to happen. It was showing me my deep psychological feelings of un-accomplishment even though I have a good job and go to school I know I am here for a much greater purpose.

Thanks for your guys feedback. I think I will be ok, it is all part of my journey.

At least I rest assured that I am not seeing what my afterlife consists of which I have been worried about because it doesn't seem like a fun after life..

Man, your story resonates with me quite a bit. For a while, my drinking was getting out of control and DMT started warning me about it pretty severely over the past summer. It was telling me over and over to stop poisoning myself, and I finally started listening the past couple months after a few good hyperslaps. My trips turned from dark/depressed/terrifying into astoundingly beautiful and positive once I really started cutting it out of my life. The DMT actually gave me the push to really try and quit (I've been "cutting back" for years and was down to 3 times a week compared to nearly everyday. But it has now been 9 days completely sober and going strong)...

I have a stupid arrest on my record for one time getting so blackout drunk that I was running around the neighborhood, banging on random people's doors. I lost my hat and my belt, and when I came to in the Police station, my shorts were on backwards...I have no idea what happened besides what the police told me...not a fun time. That was about 4-5 years ago if I remember correctly.

Everyone makes mistakes and everyone has to face the consequences in one way or another. I sincerely hope that your situation resolves itself in a positive way. Our thoughts are with you! Stay strong man!

Congratulations The Grateful One! I am very pleased to hear this, and I wish you all the luck for your future endeavours.

Thank you, I appreciate the support!

You are welcome

^ Words of wisdom here.

Good stuff, funkyleggs. Brings to mind a quote by one of my favorite authors:

"Never dwell on past events except in reference. To emphasize them would mean to take away from the importance of what's taking place now. A warrior cannot possibly afford to do that.

Only as a warrior can one withstand the path of knowledge. A warrior cannot complain about, or regret, anything. His life is an endless challenge, and challenges cannot possibly be good or bad. Challenges are simply challenges. As is always the case in the doings and not-doings of warriors, personal power is the only thing that matters. The basic difference between an ordinary man and a warrior is that a warrior takes everything as a challenge, while an ordinary man takes everything either as a blessing or as a curse."

- Don Juan to Carlos Castaneda, Tales of Power