As if I suddenly tuned into the right frequency on a radio, the static became voice. I felt a very strong presence. It was the very thing that I have been searching for. I closed my eyes and blasted through a tunnel of evolving geometry, vibrant colors, and glowing textures I have never experienced. In the mathematic epicenter of this tunnel was the presence. A bellowing voice rang in crystal clear amongst the passing thoughts and visions.
"Hello⦠finally." It said.
"You found me."It was everything. It was the whole universe talking in one familiar voice. I am trying to remember. Always trying to remember. This is the key to memory. Sound! To store memory in vibrations. We hear a song and subconsciously our mind downloads our current thoughts and emotions onto the memory of this music, these vibrations. When you later hear that music, you can recall those memories thoughts and emotions. You don't have to do it consciously, every sound you hear, even irregular waves that we interpret as "noise" all store memory.
I wanted to know how to get back!
"Wait! Don't leave! How do I find you again?""I am inseparable"From the epicenter of this tunnel, a hand grabbed the fabric of my closed-eye vision and ripped it wide open. My eyes opened and the room I was in was gone, and I was drifting through an endless dimension of life and love. This presence is always there. It is humming and buzzing and singing and dancing all around me. It is the voice that grabs me by the head and screams
"HEEEYY!" in my face when I lift off. It's always trying to get my attention and I have never understood why. It's like someone has been trying to tell me something important in another language, while I sit there nodding my head leaning away
"ok, ok, ya, yesβ¦"With deep meditation, caapi tea, and spice on mj, I spoke it's language. I made undeniable contact with and was guided by this force. Was it the spirit of caapi? Was it my connection to the unified source of all consciousness? Was it another journeying spirit? Was it just a thought in my headβ¦
Like a dream, I am grasping for it now while it slips away.
I am no one in particular