Oh boy, where to start?

I have not smoalked a breakthrough dose of DMT since July of this year. That was the experience where I met my first entity. That was also the experience that really opened up a lot of questions, most of which are still unanswered...but hey that is the nature of the game, and I'm fine with it. Onwards and upwards!

Anyway, back to tonight. I decided that perhaps it was time to travel back into the craziness that is hyperspace:

At 8:40 pm I took my first generous inhale of recently made changa, 120mg with the intention of not needing to smoalk it all to get to where I was going. Here I sit looking at it and it looks like I smoalked most of it save 10-20mg. Silly me, I suppose...

I guess I must have inhaled the full dose in one toke because I don't remember lighting it for a second time. After the first inhale, I felt it immediately and with it came circular wavy fractals. This was while holding the first (and only...?) toke. Upon exhaling, something literally snapped into place and in a flash my surroundings were replaced with something that resembled my bedroom but not really...

*Forgive me as this was just a little bit ago and I wanted to get it all down while it was fresh on my brain!*

I was partially wrapped up in my blanket and had my pillows behind me to crash onto. Even though my room had been replaced with an alien replica of sorts, I found myself struggling to slide back 6 inches and lay down...but I did get there.

During all this, an unseen force was rapidly flinging images in my direction and from all directions, including the impossible hyperspace dimensional directions... all pretty nonsensical items that were moving too fast to make any sense of anyway. A looping thought came with it, not my own though, as if it were coming from...well, everywhere. The message was clear, "It does not matter what you do, we know it before you make it and we will make you see it..."

I was struggling to fully let go this time, like I was fighting myself and this force for control...it was futile of course and I knew it even while it was happening...they were basically telling me that while it was happening too.

Whoever "they" were in this journey kept showing me that all my senses/thoughts/ideas/personality/what-have-you were essentially unneeded in this realm and I needed to learn to rid myself of them if I ever wanted to go any further. I could even taste it and at one point it felt like something was crawling around in my mouth...strange, yes, but the sensation was occurring throughout every part of my being/soul.

It was quite intense.

Towards the end of it, I started to grasp what "they" were trying to tell me but I feel like it was too late. By the time I finally settled down and BREATHED, it was starting to fade away...I opened my eyes to see that my bedroom had been given back to me in its normal state albeit with everything still swirling and melting and moving quite a bit.

I stayed on my bed and pondered for a few minutes before sitting up to check the time: 9:01pm meaning the trip lasted about 10-15 minutes with my pondering at the end. All in all, I feel very uplifted even though I was struggling to let go. It is a learning curve, and I am doing my best to fall in line! I learned a lot from this and will continue to try and integrate the meaning in hopes of being able to fully let myself go next time...Thanks for reading!

Yours Truly,

-The Grateful One-

Olala, lessons from "there"
Thank you for sharing this all, and congrats with that handshake thingy

Lovely report.
I'm yet to have an experience this profound.
May you shake hands with more spirits.
And maybe they will give you an option to stay in that realm

Thanks guys!

The thing that was most interesting was the sudden take off. I guess I got a bit of changa that had a lesser saturation of harmalas...? It was explosively fast in comparison to other breakthroughs I've had. I was also much more lucid for this experience, whatever the reason may have been. I feel like I spent a good 30 seconds or more trying to figure out how to lie down when all I had to do was...lie down!

I think that part of it distracted me from a small portion of the trip.

All in all, I am glad to have jumped back in after a 3 month break. Today I felt renewed and revitalized. It was my first day back at work from my vacation and while it was a busy and stressful day, I was able to coast through with kindness in my heart and a smile on my face. I was floating through the day with no worries, and that is amazing.