Right so im gonna try keep this as short as possible but still give you an idea ...



Basically it's like I broke up with my girlfriend (well she broke up with me)

And I was really emotional and taking lots of acid it felt like I was connected to her or she was a part of me or some shit .. Anyway
She likes graffiti so I went around to the park & did acid & painted a big mural while listening to eminems album the MMLP2 & I felt some sort of presence come into my body & start controlling me & next of all it was like I was in this transcendental perception of reality , it was like some really intelligent being came into my consciousness & became a part of me
It started off with the acid & doing the graffiti but for like the next month & a half it was like we had a symbiotic energetic relationship & I felt like I had all the visionary sight that that entity had or something like the all seeing eye or something .. It was like the universe became a holographic blueprint & I could scan & analyse other peoples personalities to the point that I could adopt their unique vibrational frequency until it integrated into my own , it was like any time I would listen to music the lyrics had some sort of higher meaning hidden in the underlying layers of perception & the people who said the words would become a part of me & I could start to feel them in my heart & mind like a magnetic vibrating pull , and then I could simulate an archetypal representation of that person pure spirit even dead people , whenever I had a question I would ask myself & this autonomous mental simulation would tell me things I didn't even know , I mostly lean towards Carl Jungs term of the collective unconsciousness best , but I also suspect some sort of supernatural influence that extends beyond the material universe ,
I also didn't know what to call it but I got the feeling I was the devil because this thing started making me write tons of rap music .. And come up with crazy theories about shit ,

Anyway , that all ended when I met this other girl , I did something wrong by resisting the flow of my life path I got the gut feeling I should just not continue to see this girl , but I did , and lots of bad shit happened anyway I ended up having sleep paralysis one night after I was with her like a week , some evil entity sat on my chest and held me down & whispered in my ear in a female voice with a foreign language , then something grabbed my spine from behind & pulled the energy out of my body then quickly reinserted something else , straight after I got up & it was like my whole personality completely changed & I felt like I had no energy whatsoever , when before it was like I was burning like the sun ... Lost all my vision , lost the actual "Me" instead It was like I had become solidified materialistic egoic personality that didn't belong to me ....

Soooo I'm going to Peru next summer to do ayahuasca & have a soul retrieval ceremony

Ye , sooooooo



Theres a hell of a lot more details , but basically .. some sort of supernatural being seems to have stolen my life essence & now drugs WONT WORK , tried dmt = mild body buzz + uncomfortable state of consciousness no hyperspace anymore ... tried acid & shrooms = strange clicking sensation in my head and at the back of my neck on the part of my spine i felt the energy being removed from :\ .. but i dont trip the way i used too its so depressing ... like it literally feels like im dead inside , like a vital part of me is missing .. I have a feeling its related to my kundalini but I dont know how to fix it , it feels like theres a parasite leaching from & constraining my soul , thats what it "feels like" but I dont know what it is 100% .. I read this article yesterday http://upliftconnect.com/are-you-a-shaman/


Sounds relative . Feels like ive been having different spirits taking turns controlling my body ever since I had my first REAL trip , like our bodies are vehicles & souls arent fixated in any one location & they swap bodies and stuff haha .. anyway id love to hear an outside perspective , but please take it easy with the "Psychosis Talk" ive heard it all before and I completely disagree altogether

Have you ever heard of the lesser banishing ritual of the pentagram? It's quite effective in ridding your life of parasitical entities real or imagined. That being said, I don't think you are possessed so don't let that be a growing anxiety in the back of your head. Generally individuals who report being possessed have no control over their actions. You seem to me to be an individual who is a heavy drug user, many of us have been there but you need to take a lot of time off. Use this time to truly asses what decisions you made that lead you down this path. Treat yourself to healthy doses of hard work/exercise and lots of sleep. Meditation works great as well.

I appreciate your input but im more in need of somebody whos had a similar experience & has come out the other side with a piece to the puzzle I need to figure this shit out haha ..
yeah meditation doesnt work anymore either man , its like im banned from psychonautics & spiritual awareness

I did lose control of my body for like a month & 2 weeks , it was like i was watching an interactive movie , I had some say in what was happening but really I was like water in a river .. I forgot to mention that before this happened when I was still with my girlfriend I done ketamine & some sort of angelic feminine energy started following me everywhere I went , It kept brushing up against me & i just got this overwhelming feeling of love constantly washing over me like it had blessed me for good deeds .. I get the feeling that when I got "possessed" I was in a very emotional vulnerable state & this was an opportunity for this being to enter my consciousness .. I trusted this being with my life .. then the sleep paralysis happened & another being came but this one seemed forceful & malevolent whereas the first one was gentle & loving & caring .. You dont see all the things I see so its understandable that you feel the way you do , but seriously this was like some high tech intelligence if that makes any sense to you

My original vibe is definitely dead or lost

Ive been off drugs for 11 months now , doctors orders .. planning on getting back into it though to try retrieve that part of myself

I dont see how the banishing ritual would work , I dont understand the mechanism ..

I strongly feel that I done something wrong & this is spiritual punishment by deprivation .. Im pretty sure I know what i done wrong too

It makes perfect sence to me actually. I'll never forget one of my most vivid experiences with my own entity. She came as a rolling fog that entered my bedroom via the cracks around my doorframe. She surrounded my being and I inhaled her essence. From that fog a woman emerged, half human/half cloud.... From her my artistic side emerged. I know more then I'm letting on, I just don't feel like opening up old wounds if you get my drift. To break off from that energy was a very painful experience for me and my suggestions I gave to you were what I did to overcome it. Your an artist right? There's an old saying.

“As above, so below, as within, so without, as the universe, so the soul…”

Visualising the lbrb has a very tangible effect on your reality. You're not the first one who has gone through something like this and lbrb was specifically developed to remove things like this.

Oh , Yeah she ignited my inner creativity too , but then it was taken away

I dont want to press you , but how do you feel now ? do you still trip ? do you still have realisations ? if so ... do you still achieve contact with entities or has that completely stopped ? I really want to feel like the old me again

visualizing ? ill check it out ..
any tips on how to accurately perform it so it works right ?

Was just thinking about what you said , I heard the owl "as above so below" saying before but not the soul part .. which made me think ..

Maybe the entity i first met was my inner goddess & it was reflected by the love I felt for my girlfriend ? and then when I met that other girl She was not an emotional person she just wanted sex I think , then I got all caught up in desire & the way she liked sex was pretty rough , so maybe the transformation of my perception of that entity was based on how I feel in general towards the divine feminine , and when i loved my girlfriend my inner god\godess was a manifestation of that love which was inspiring and helped me grow and then when the other girl came i got caught up in a dominating objectification of the divine feminine and so my inner godess became a reflection of that and instead of supporting me and helping me grow it began to control me and inflict upon me what i inflicted upon myself (aka her)

so now i feel no emotion whatsover so , maybe the ocassional chill from music but thats it

just speculating here dont be alarmed haha

Its still there but I think you've lost yourself. Perhaps it's depression caused by a bad break up. Perhaps what you are experiencing is a negative entity (the second entity you described). Maybe you have some anxiety issues. I'm no shrink so I can't give you a diagnoses all I can do is help you find the issue. If it is a neg they attach themselves through a weakness you have. Overcome the weakness and you overcome the neg.

It took a lot of inner strength and a lot of personal healing but I got over my experience and it made me a much stronger individual. I still trip every now and then but I did take a break for close to 2 years after all of that. And yes I still deal with entities but only because I am a seek them out.

Visualization is the ability to imagine images and seeing them through your eyes. Generally you start out with your eyes closed but with practice you can do it with your eyes open. Google candle visualization

When performing lbrp intention matters more then perfectly performing it. Do it to the best of your abilities and perfection will come in time. Anything that helps you get into a meditative state will naturally make the ritual more effective such ad incence/drums/relaxing music.

There's nothing wrong with speculating but I think you can go down this road when you get your shit back together. All it will do is cause more confusion. Lots of strong women like it kinky and rough btw, I don't got a problem with that

Yeah I definitely lost myself feels more like i was taken though ..

I dont think its depression from a bad break up , that break up was the worst\best thing that ever happened me in a long time .. really unclogged my emotional state and helped me realise who i am .. just didnt last long haha

And thanks you have helped me out just by letting me know you made it back to the light eventually ..


And yeah i think im a bit of a "seek them out" too haha Its just so beyond everything else that it seems silly to not be drawn to the occult at this stage .. im beyond belief at this point .

And yeah i get what visualizing means I just amnt very proficient at it in this current state of consciousness , my imagination feels weakkkk



I feel I may have my shit relatively back together , I just dont feel like "me" .. I feel like "normal people" right now
but yeah ill try all the stuff you said for a month or two more & see if it makes any changes

And yeah I dont have anything against that either but I feel like It has something to do with the woman definitely .. I only felt like i done something wrong because of what happened to me .. so i guess that would be false guilt anyway "only sorry cause ya got caught" kind of way .. but i dont belive i have anything to feel guilty about like . shes the one who wanted it after all

but yeah I think its also possible I absorbed her energy, transference of consciousness through empathic resonance between our electromagnetic field \ aura or some shit like that haha

I'm glad I could help. Visualization is a lot easier then most people think it is. Being an artist puts you at a good advantage in learning how to do it. You don't need to be very good at it for lbrp btw. Feel free to pm me on here if you continue having more issues with this in the future I may be able to help you out. For some interesting reading check out the ancient greek legend of a Muse.

Do you mean the the wikipedia page or is there a more comprehensive account to read ?