"Unless they become like a little child, no one can enter the Kingdom of Heaven"
Matt. 18:3
T-2hrs Syrian Rue. This was my first time drinking rue after taking over a week of break, and I hit the sweet spot between ultra buzzed and borderline nauseous.
DMT: approx 2.5 hits oily, chunky yellow spice thru my trusty small glass sprite bottle Machine, pre-melted and toked with the spice facing down.
This is gonna be a 10 bullet-point list of what happened, to try to limit myself to what's most important. This was very very powerful, utter, bizarre and amazing mind-blast, potentiated drastically by the rue.1. I had extremely precise control over the amount of vapor I inhaled/produced, by far the best of all times smoalked. Melted spice chunks into the top of the machine this time, gonna keep doing it that way from now on.
2. (almost immediately after insane come-up). The Hyperspace Entity appeared: a
MRS PIGGY silhouette just like a playing card, enshrined on a dazzlingly beautiful cone-shaped pillar structure, surrounded by her SLAVES, "The Elves!", which extended in every direction off into infinite space--endless copies, repeats, overwhelming. No comment. Utterly bizarre, beautiful, terrifying, etc. This place was the only reality that existed...all memory of anything human was gone. I got infinitely lost in it.
Also ~ Mrs. Piggy had a perceptible, strong SNUB attitude, as someone would who knows quite well that she is the center of all glory and attention. I was snubbed, scowled upon and cold-shouldered lol. But just the fact that I actually 'registered' to her was a substantial honor and privilege. She deserved every ounce of her snobbish attitude for being so amazing. I have nothing but love for her, really. I feel like she too feels love towards me, but was just play-acting on purpose to wow me.
3. I saw the Elves (innumerable mischief makers, formless slaves of Mrs. Piggy (!), that transformed and created the above-described fully enveloping, bizarre hallucination worlds into which I was flung.
4. I entered a space of "Infinite Chaos in every direction." The Elves showed me innumerable deep space, impossible scenes into which my conscious mind (utterly gone) roamed for endless eons. There was nothing I could do except accept it. Thank God for that ability to accept....
Resistance? I pray for the person who would try to resist.
5. The sounds on this trip were deafening, roaring. Alien squeaks, tones, buzzes all-encompassing. That weird clicking, dripping robotic ribbit noise, that I can count on every time
6. Time was completely gone! After the Mrs. Piggy thing, for a brief and timeless moment, I was able to make sense that what I was witnessing could be nothing other than infinity. Needless to say, I resumed exploding after that. I felt like what God must feel all the time, being infinite and having no boundaries.
7. The elf-slaves (they looked nothing like elves to be honest) took me into a mind-blowing, interactive dance-rollercoaster canon blast. I was given only two choices: 'RIDE WITH US' OR 'PANIC AND DIE.'
8. I fought off the numerous opportunities to panic. They even started to "take me down the same path" at one point, reproducing the exact same geometric hallucination sequence. (at this point I was too horrified to go through the same infinite trip again, and I chose to kick the elves and turn my gaze elsewhere)
9. When I returned, I felt utterly, unbelievably
liberated. I was detached from myself and all concept of humanity 100% for a very long time, taking nothing with me into this trip besides the DMT-fragment of my mind, and my long-cultivated abilities to meditate and stay calm (paranoia/panic watchdog, inner voice of reason).
10. The comedown occurred in massive waves. The elves tricked me several times into thinking it was over, only to interject and say "LET ME SHOW YOU THIS" and "HERE TAKE THIS" "AND THIS" etc.. I was high for at least 1.5 hours during which I
very gradually descended into a place of buzzy, timeless warmth and awe.
The TLDR (printed in all caps, national newspaper headline!):
"Snubbed by Mrs. Piggy; Infinite hallucinogenic orgasm with her Slaves."Final thought - This session felt very good - a refreshing affirmation to progressively practice handling the insanity of real life (and ultimately come out ok!) and not to mention a fulfilling, amazing adventure.
Thanks for reading. This is my first big one since my horrifying hyperslap 9 days ago, so needless to say I am 100% grateful and satisfied.
Thanks, Mrs. Piggy!
P.S. and thank you for reading
P.S.S. About the title- it's referring to the ability of children to accept and believe in things with an unwavering trust and no cynicism or doubt. Without that kind of skill I would have been driven nuts
โYou, of all people, deserve your own love and affection.โ -Buddha
For God so loved the world...
God is Love