Hello all,
This is my second ever post here. My first was to the introduction essay thread, back when I first learned of DMT in 2012. I had a brief interest in it, but after realizing it was out of my reach, I quickly forgot about it. I first became interested after experiencing a dozen or so trips with mushrooms and LSD, and wanted to expand. Hallucinogens were always my favorite category of drug, and have only come around on occasion and with little preparation.
Anyways, I am back, 3 years later (after numerous password attempts) to tell you all that I recently broke through into hyperspace. I received a phone call from a close friend of mine telling me it was finally time and to come over. I'm not going to lie, I was scared. I even gave him a few BS excuses as to why I couldn't make it, but he demanded that I come over immediately. I did. When I arrived at his apartment, there were 6 people sitting around talking. 3 of which, I was friends with, the other 3, I had never met (ideal environment ay?).
I met the other 3 and quickly found comfort in the group. They were all good, down to earth people who were telling me all about the trips they experienced before I had arrived. 1 of them extracted it themselves and shared his proud work to the rest. The more we spoke about it, the more nervous I was becoming. All of THIS is about to happen to me?? "Idk guys". One guy hands me a bowl of marijuana and I graciously accept. Made anxiety worse.
So now I'm chain vaping, which probably also didn't help because my heart is racing. The guy that did the extract is experienced and insisted that he must administer the dose. He sits me down on a couch and tells me to close my eyes and just breathe. I sit there for about 20 minutes breathing and trying to slow my heart rate. It slowed some but not to the rate that I would have liked. Finally, I've had enough. I couldn't wait any longer, in my mind it was 'now or never'. I look at him and say "I'm ready". Suddenly, the whole atmosphere changes. Everyone in the room gets real calm. All conversation comes to a halt. The lights dim, and everyone sits down. The room is silent.
The administer slowly stands up and walks over to me, with a monk-like approach, holding what I later learn to be 'The Machine'. He tells me this is a 50 mg dose. He hands me a blanket to place over myself while seated. He instructs me to begin a mild form of hyperventilating or quick, deep breathing. After 5 breathes or so, he puts the machine to my lips and I inhale. First hit was very big, I held it in as long as I could. Then came one more. Also huge. This is about 15-20 seconds in and my heart is beating out of my chest. My body is overwhelmed at this point. rapidly losing muscle control. I exhale and it begins. My eyes were open and the visuals were exponentially increasing second by second. I'm not sure why but I felt as if a fog machine was blowing at full blast on my body and through my air ways. Anyone else experience the fog machine? Anyways, I was floating and the room no longer was around me. Everything had a hint of blue. Then my eyes shut themselves and I truly blasted off.
It was so intense, and I kept trying with all my might to just hold on, like a kid who is sliding out of the seat on a roller coaster, but I couldn't. Once I let go, I was there. Indescribable. I could sense movement all around me. Like little people or aliens or maybe just energies circling all around me and performing tasks. Something inside me assured me that they were there to help me, and without them all doing what they were doing, I would not be in this hyperspace. I'm not sure what they were doing but they were fast at work, and very close to me. The shamanic music that was playing in the room was engraved in my soul. The sounds were a part of me, and were equally as beautiful as the experience. At this point, I had forgotten I was in my body with my eyes closed. I was just an energy. I truly believe I was nothing but a spirit, surrounded by other spirits in bliss. It was beautiful. So powerful that words could not describe.
There were so many details that I would give anything to be able to remember, but sadly, I cannot. I began to pull away from hyperspace. I slowly entered back into my body and naturally opened my eyes. I was shocked when I realized that I was just sitting there with my eyes closed the whole time. I look around and the administer says "Welcome Back". This was beautiful to me. I found that tears were covering my face. Tears of excitement, joy, and thankfulness I suppose. I look around and it felt oddly similar to an acid trip. Everyone was looking at me and I could feel their positive energy all around me. They were so happy to know that I had now joined them in this experience. People I had just met. I sat down on the ground, wiping a tear off my face, and just touched the floor.
Truly a magnificent and eye opening night to say the least. I could have never imagined the possibilities of DMT until this night. A night I will never forget. After analyzing this night over and over, I have come to the conclusion that the energies surrounding me in hyperspace were the people in the room with me, and probably others. Their spirits were somehow there with me, assisting me in my most vulnerable state. This experience has forever opened my eyes to the possibilities in this life. It is more than what meets the eye.
Thanks for reading, if you did. I know its super long, and probably not much different then what everyone posts, but it really feels good to share it with a community that will listen. A small percentage of people can relate and are actually willing to take these experiences seriously.
Until next time.