Set&Setting: In bed at night. Feeling depressed but determined in intent.
Dose: Filled pipe but feeling like I was not supposed to take more than a single hit.
Intro: I feel like my experiences are blown out of the water by most of yours here. Still, I hope someone can relate to a interesting story. Hope I don't bore you !
The experience came shortly after smoking while holding my breath. I did not feel like I could it was right to take any further so I exhaled clean air. I was greeted by a familiair vision of a woman/robotic woman in darkred tiled patterns. Details obscure me but I felt the familiairity and was suprised by the warm welcome. It made me uneasy, I was expecting a stern teaching.
I thought for a moment what to do next, and I figured I wanted a cleansing experience, a thorough vacuuming. Almost immediately the form changed just a little and I could not remember what I was just thinking. I felt my"self" or some aspect of me roll around left to right as I regained some of my thoughts and felt a warm embrace all over my body. I felt it as love. Then I thought, nevermind anything I Asked, since I coul not even remember. I just want this love. Then I thought that was weak and I could barely remember, I just rememberd something like; i want to do what I just thought i wanted to do. lol. and it changed on every thought. The initial confusion instilled fear in me.
Then this purple thing that looked similar to the woman came from down my backside anad below and I thought it looked fancy. And as it moved upwards I felt it take something. from the middle/front of me. And the warm embrace felt to be leaving. It didn't felt bad, I just was like; hey, he just took something from me. and then I saw a little bug-thing attach itself to the blue thing and keep just a little bit of the "energy" in sight. Then I failed to let the rest go and I just let it be for what it is. This took a few minutes before I left this scene of something hanging from above.
I felt considerately empty afterwards, and my mindstate was completely different from when I went in. Instead of being depressed I felt indifferent. After a few minutes I agreed that I really like what transpired. I was left with a few balls that is possibly tasting like the dmt in my thyroid. And a few presences that seemed very happy.
A thing that stood out was that as the visions morphed I noticed there was a little layer of layers that is reminscent of what I felt under the effects of salvia, except with salvia I was one layer and as I could breathe I would be attached to another layer of myself and this would change. IT felt during the time that these where actually other parallel versions of my that are attached to itself like a wheel. I guess this is why I could not memorize, I was changing to other versions of me.
Another note is that I felt my thyroid was involved in the cleansing. A little something stuck. The 'love' they took also seemed to involve a sickness, I felt very healthy..
My lighter ran out, but I look forward to furhter experimenting.
-- Turns out this is a messy outtype but I hope it stands okay for now. --