Today i did a 2.5g trip, i hadn't eaten for about 12hours and have been going through many issues around my external reality, having lost my girlfriend of 2 and a half years to another man (20 years older than her) as she is split between myself and him, she doesn't recognise this, believing he is just a friend, but the volition behind his actions seems to be directing towards a relationship with her.

During the trip, many issues of my reality came to surface, i began to feel an intense pain in my stomach, one would say my Solar Plexus is extremely depleted at this current moment. After a while of sitting with this pain, i began to talk to myself out loud. Soon, i was greeted by what we could call, GOD! I began to speak to god, telling him how i felt as i sat in my desk chair. It felt like i was talking to a psychiatrist, except, the psychiatrist was the ever grand, ever present, ever eternal being, which we will refer to as God. They sat there, listening to me, witnessing me, they had no form, and yet, they were the form of everything, they took shape into ways i could help identify and feel comfortable with them. And they sat there, always aware, so still, so present, listening to my every word, every thought, witnessing my every action. This eternal being is always with me, and funnily enough, I AM it. It is impossible to describe, but i recognised that whom i refer myself as "I" is ultimately manifesting my reality, and therefore, if i see myself as a puppet, then I AM a puppet, but if i see myself as the CREATOR, then i am the creator, and therefore, i create whatever it is i desire to be, which is ultimately God (Who I AM, Who You Are).

It seems, that although i might see myself as the puppet, i cannot deny the fact that there is still an ever present thing listening to "me" and yet, I'm that ever present thing listening to whatever it is "me" is in the moment.

But here is the ultimate thing I came to conclude:
Isn't it interesting the concept of perception! For example, when i walk, do i walk for the simplicity of walking, or do i walk to get to a destination. It seems to me, that if i walk to get to a destination, then I'm slowly numbing the experience of walking, for i then do not walk for the sake of walking, but rather, i walk for the sake of getting somewhere. IN the same way, life is "the walk of life", you can choose to walk it and embrace it for the simple fact that you're alive, or you can choose to go to a certain place, and once you get there, you get to another place, but which seems to be the most fulfilling? For when you get to that place, sooner or later you will realise that constantly going from one place to another, is numbing the sensation of the journey towards that place. So life is truly a journey to be experienced. To do the walk of life, totally in the here and NOW. So how do you change your perspective? The first thing one must do, is observe there perspective, that is, to watch themselves think and see their motivation, without judgement. Once you recognise your motivations behind life, and you start to create a space between those patterns of thought, you can begin to form a reality based around Who You ARE! This is simple, as you begin to witness your conscious activity, you begin to witness yourself witness your conscious activity, for then you realise, you were always the one listening to the voice rather than the voice itself.

Challenge my perspective, make me think, make me question, for I do not conclude my reality here, i shall continue to journey, continue to understand more deeply the aspects of reality in which i live, and continue to be taught by those whom have different ideas, thank you for reading, love and peace my brothers and sisters <3