I wanted to post this in the mind surgery topic in the projects sections but can't yet..anyway
I had a privileged experience or so I was told... It happened after a second attempt with changa after the first didn't get my off the ground, It was as if I was placed in front of a god machine and it started to upload and download data (visually, almost like folders/files on a windows pc would fly into and out of me) into it's matrix, I had a recent break up and it knew I had important data to give to it. Before all the data transfer (which was happening with eyes open) while I still had my eyes closed (with what memory remains) I could see a sort of shibopo landscape which made up this matrix god and it was "Showing" me how everything is controlled/created by it, and from behind these patterns that make up the world/machine these black eyed faces would spring from and snarl at me but the machine would drag them back in and show me happy faces and say its all right but with a sort of mechanical/uncaring tone.

Coming out of it I was so awestruck like I just got to witness the source of it all.

This is all I can remember but the feeling remains.

Thanks for reading