Ok Nexians,

I have to confess that I am borderline obsessed about spice. I haven't even experienced a breakthrough dose yet but I think about it all the time. I think it's because I know that sometime in the future I am going to have an experience like no other and that excites me more than anything ever has since I was a child!

I am of course saying this in semi jest, it in no way negatively interferes with my day to day life and I'm still waiting for that "right" moment before I sit down and take the real plunge. More it's a constant little flurry of nervous excitement which wells up in various strength throughout the day but is never far from my thoughts

I also love the build up to this adventure, I've been researching for years, getting serious for about one year and now I'm ready!

Is this something people can relate to?!

Every single time I load up my device for a hyperspace adventure I feel a sort of nervous excitement, because no matter what you do in preparation, you can never be sure where it will take you. That's just one thing I love about it.

All day, every day the experiences linger in the depths of my mind. Questioning, contemplating, integrating. Though my conscious mind may be otherwise occupied, the spice is always lurking just beneath the surface.

I absolutely love it. There's no other way to describe it, just pure, unadulterated, unconditional love. Sure we have bad experiences together, but we always make up and find that love stronger than ever. The spirit of the spice is my soulmate, and if you treat it with love and respect, it could be yours to.

DMT, by virtue of itself, demands obsession in a way. The average person who has a passing interest in it isn't going to do hours of research on the internet, spend $100's purchasing the necessary materials for it, actually perform the extraction, & continue to try different ways of smoking/vaping until they get their technique right.

I'm not sure your obsession will stop after a breakthrough...

Its easy to become obsessed with plants.
Over the past few years I've become a part Shaman/Chemist/Botanist/Sexual Tyrannosaurus.
OK maybe not the last one

I don`t honestly say there's a day I don't think about dmt in some way at least once or twice since I started working with it.
I find it hard not to research in my free time & often daydream about extraction, recrystallization, & smoking spice while i`m at work (daydreaming at work not daydreaming about smoking spice at work )