So, the my relationship with this alien molecule continues. And as I expected, it is starting to get weirder and weirder.

Pre trip:

So, it was around 11 PM. I was watching TV, and after some time, the sleepiness threatened to defeat me. It was clearly time to sleep, and I knew it would be a good idea to take a shower and go the bed to take a break from very long working week.

But, the plans have changed. After the bath, something, or more exactly my inner voice told me that it would be probably a good idea to test some of the spice that I've extracted from mimosa hostilis. And so I did.

I've loaded a very small amount ( around 20 mg, but I don't trust my scale too much) into the machine, and sat down in lotus position. As usually, I try to slowly breathe and relax, so that my journey begin smoothly and nicely. As I calmed down, I stated my intentions, as why am I doing this, and why I want to get there. This time I told: "OK, I want to see what have you got."

And so it goes...

Initial launch:

Look, it seems that I'm getting better and better with my old trusty Machine. Which is a good sign, most certainly.

As I take my Bic lighter, and pre heat the mesh a little, I proceeded to take my hits. And I really took the biggest hits in my entire experiences so far. First heat was very heavy head rush. Almost immediately. I knew that this is gonna be something different. By the moment I proceeded to take a second hit, my room started to wave and swirl. As I took the second hit, it became more and more intense. By the end of second hit, my room was almost unrecognizable. I proceeded to take a third hit. But I couldn't. It was too much, I couldn't control my hands anymore. The reality, as I perceive it most of the time is waving me: "goodbye".

The experience:

It was so interesting watching my room melt into something unrecognizable, it was beautiful and mesmerizing to see those crystal doors folding in themselves and shuffling like a deck of playing cards, but I had to close my eyes. Because I knew that is where they are waiting for me.

Almost immediately, I found myself in a bright, very vivid colored room, with small very detailed geometric shapes embedded evenly in the wall across the whole room. The predominant color in the room was red and shades of red, with some yellow and light green details.

I must say that just upon entering this room, I was stripped of my self-identity. I didn't even know who am I or what am I. I didn't know or remember that I was in the room. I didn't know that spice is responsible for what is happening to me, I didn't remember that I even took it. Nothing. Absolutely nothing.

What further was happening is that in that room was something which appeared to be a table. Table, round table just like those found in pubs and bars. And sitting at that table was the humanoid entity, which except it's humanoid shape didn't have much features. And texture of its "skin" or "clothes" whatever was exactly the same as texture of the walls of that room which I mentioned beforehand. And also, at that table were two liquor bottles. Yeah. The entity was drinking something.

What that entity was doing was inviting me to join him. And I did. We were discussing something, in...unrecognizable language. And keep addressing me with my name, my corporeal name. Which confused me. Every time he called me by my name, I was immensely confused. I was like "why are you calling me like that"?

I think that chat was about nothing important. At all. It almost felt like entity just wanted to chat with me, but it has waited for me so long. Yes, I felt like all he was doing before I "came there" was sitting at that table and waiting for me to show up. I would like to give you some details on what we were talking about, but as I said, it wasn't in earthly language.


After the conversation with that utterly weird entity has ended, I've opened my eyes. And, dear god/s...the messing with my mind has just continued. I remember before, when I opened my eyes, that was pretty much it, visuals after that were weak.

But not this time, and not with this spice.

The imagery which I had just before closing my eyes at the beginning of the experience was persistent even after opening my eyes. But it had new addition to it.

From the bunch of crystal-gemstone like revolving doors which were intersecting with each other came the humanoid beings, which I felt didn't have good intentions, as soon as I saw them.

And my premonitions were correct. As soon as they noticed me, they quickly approached me. They had very bad intentions indeed. They had daggers in their hands, and they showed me that I have to "stab something", like the way they showed me. I felt they wanted to manipulate me, to awake evil and violent character in myself (if I have one, and to which degree). They were so persistent in that. I clearly told them: No! There is really no need for that". But nope. They wanted me to do that.

I kept saying no, and suddenly they backed away, as the light from the light bulb in my room started to glow with golden and warm, loving light. I looked at it, and the sight was heavenly beautiful. Although that was a lightbulb, it looked nothing like that. It looked like a source of love, understanding, warmth, empathy, compassion...so much emotions. I enjoyed the sight as the rainbow like colors and beads circled around it. And I'll admit. I cried. I had to. It was overwhelming.

I slowly gained the confidence in my motor abilities. I was able to stand up and walk. This is where the other and final part of my experience has started.

It was a bright Moon outside, and I remembered how I couldn't stand watching at the Moon during my previous experienced, because something bad and evil was "coming from the Moon". But this time I wanted to face it.

I went to the balcony, and watched the Moon. You know how the Moon has that "face" when you look at it? Well, that face seemed more alive then ever. The Moon was happy, laughing, and dancing across the sky. On one moment, the images started descending from it, and coming towards me. The images of aliens. Some... undefined things. The whole sequence could be summed up in one word: mystery. I was asking myself: "wow, this is amazing, the Moon has so many waiting to be explored. Why are we not going there?"


And this was the final sequence of my experience. By the length of this experience, some might assume that I took some harmalas. I honestly didn't. Dunno why this experience lasted a little bit longer.


Concluding thoughts:

First, I want to say few words about the nature and origin of the spice. This spice from MHRB is so...violent, in the sense that it hits you so fast you don't even have time to prepare and ask yourself "what is going on". Before, I've only extracted from ACRB, and it was much more gentle, you had this comfortable feeling of it building up and coming up. But not with MHRB. It is like a catapult.

Regarding the experience, this is really one of the most intense, if not most intense experience I had so far. But I know and feel that I still have to experience what peeps call "true breakthrough". This time I was one not so strong hit from it. But nevermind, even if it wasn't full blown breakthrough, it was intense, and surely very profound and valuable to me.

Thank you the Molecule. Thanks you for existing, and letting us access those otherworldly realms. I love you.

(Sorry for the long read).

Peace an love, fellow Nexians.