I didn't mean to write an essay but some things just have to be said.

I joined DMT-NEXUS almost a year ago, it was relief from constant pain and suffering from chronic migraine that lead to my discovery of this site. Since that time I have seen a neurologist and been prescribed a medication that has given me relief that I have never thought possible. (Verapmil 120mg). I hope this will continue to be as effective as it is for me now.

DMT (in various forms) enabled me to endure the terrible pain and give me some relief. 4-ACO-DMT (which is far more subtle and easy to adjust to as opposed to vaporized DMT) also helped me learn that what I was feeling wasn't hurting "me" at all. By me I mean that which I am, which exists outside of this human shell...soul, spirit, energy, however you chose to label it. We are spiritual beings having a human experience and everything we experience is all as intended. This is all part of my journey.

Some words about safety - Please use a proper scale and do not attempt this. I have had numerous experiences with DMT and various substances for almost 30 years now and was prepared to accept the experience and all it entailed no matter what it involved.)

I'll get on with my experience now describing vaporized DMT. No other substances had been ingested. (Other than some hot coffee with sugar.)

I did not declare an intention, I was prepared to except the experience for what it was.

I loaded about .07 grams (70mgs is the least amount my scale will register) into the vaporizer and took one rather large, long and slow draw from the pipe. Seeing lots of vapor but not tasting much I had wondered if I did something wrong. There was still plenty of material in the pipe, there is no telling the exact dosage I consumed but it would be far more than what I would consume intentionally.)

Before I even finished inhaling I discovered that I did in fact do everything just right, maybe even a little too well (lol)! I barely had enough time to set the pipe down... by the time I did I was completely gone.

Immediately I see myself flying straight upward, I went from inside my body out of the top of my head into outer space and beyond this solar system in about half a second. I continued moving so fast the galaxies in the heavens were just streaks flying by me. I can feel myself moving so fast that I am literally being torn apart at this point. It wasn't a painful feeling, it wasn't scary, it felt like the most natural thing ever. Soon I had disintegrated completely, and where there was once flesh there were cells, and they broke into atoms, and then the atoms were torn apart into a formless pure energy. None of this was painful, it felt so good and natural I can't even describe it, it was pure love that was doing this. The only way for me to have this experience was by being purified and having everything that I am not stripped away. I was leaving it all behind, everything physical.

Soon I just "was" and there was no form, I was in a place I can only describe as outer space or a nameless infinite void. I was just energy still and then suddenly I was moving through this organic living tunnel that was spiraling and curving upward still at a speed that I cannot comprehend, there was loud sound like roaring but it wasn't scary or distracting, it was so loud everything was trembling. Everything was pouring into me, every thought, feeling, emotion, knowledge of everything that is and ever was and will be... information in a form I didn't understand but I was being bombarded with it and absorbing it. Somehow I knew all of it, and I was one with everything once again, in this lack of form... it was... comfortable and familiar to have this knowledge back and feel so complete being this formless energy that was nothing and yet everything.

This tunnel was a silver-ish, grey and gold-ish color that was almost mechanical looking but somehow I felt it was living...it was woven and intertwined within itself and I was traveling through its center. After a while I came into this other area at the end of this tunnel and it was silent, absolutely silent and there was no more movement.

From this point, whatever formless existence I am at this point, is watching this scene from above. I was in a place that was brilliant white and infinite, and there was nothing other than a huge "doorway / portal" before me. I saw myself in my human form curled up as a fetus laying on this "portal" as it was a floor. From this perspective the entire field changed from horizontal to vertical and it rotated and then the perspective was that I was standing before this "portal" as a grown man instead of laying on it in the fetal position. I knew that whatever was on the other side of that "door" I couldn't come back from. I wasn't scared because I remember being in a place like this before, this was familiar in a way. As comfortable and familiar as I was, I wasn't exactly sure what to do...

* Somehow I was able to experience the paragraph above through my human form that I was also watching from above... and experience watching me have this experience from whatever was watching me in human form. I know that is confusing... I was able to see and think from each perspective as the watcher and as the one being watched independently. Each unaware of the other and yet something aware of both. I hope you can follow that.)

The material that circled the "portal door" itself was a material I have never seen before, I don't recognize it... a stone or metal appearance almost like aluminum or granite. There were symbols etched into its circular form...and the center of it was pure white, the brightest white imaginable but it wasn't blinding white if that makes any sense.

I was immediately transported back into my body, I have no concept of time or how long I was gone but my coffee was room temperature when I got back.

The above experience was my last experience with vaped DMT, I have chosen not to continue exploring this substance in this form, not out of fear, not because this was "too much to handle" but because of the love I felt and the knowledge that was shared with me. There simply is no greater experience than I could hope to have from it and continue to remain part of this existence. I took it as far as I could go. I hear some of you saying "but there is always what is on the other side of that door, you can go even farther".

I'll cross that threshold again when I am ready to check out for good. There is no need to come back here from that place, the other side of that door far exceeds anything we can begin to comprehend from this level of consciousness. To attempt an explanation would be like trying to teach calculus to a frog, it is just beyond comprehension.

Anyone who has been where were will understand you just fine. Awesome report, sends shivers up my spine!

You stated a familiarity with that space. It is that feeling, that I also have had in trips that are so similar to what you described, that lets me know for certain that these places are very real.

The DMT space has an objective reality, as opposed to say, the dream space, which is more subjective, constructed by the dreamer. I have been through the tunnel you described and stood in front of that door, as all the selves I ever wasamwillbe. I think you know exactly where you were.

Now, the hard part... Learning how it all matters in the now... Wouldn't it be great if our culture hadn't hidden these states for centuries and we knew what to do with them.

Beautiful, voted you up!

I very much enjoyed reading that. You are a gifted story teller! I have had similar experience with freebase DMT. There is something very gratifying when I read someone's experience report and it rings out the same way. Like we are all receiving the same message. It makes me feel good and validates everything that I feel about my experiences with DMT.

This was like a reminder, a clue to something I had experienced before and forgotten about.

Since that experience I have had numerous "dreams" with that very perspective I describe in this DMT experience. I can see myself and I am aware that I am watching myself and yet I am aware of something that is watching me watch myself.

There have to be others out there that know what I am speaking of, this third perspective for lack of a better description. It is almost like another level within our consciousness that I can't really describe. I think it, that state of awareness, is the vehicle which we use when we have these experiences so to speak. I think that is what we use when we have out of body experiences or astral travel, soul travel, inter-dimensional travels and what is used to travel to other planes of existence.

It is my hope someone out there can help me understand this... if so I am all ears.

The observer and the observed. The controller and the controlled. The observer observing the observer. This all sounds like Jiddu Krishnamurti. He explains these concepts very well and may just give you a new insight. Hope this is helpful.

I am grateful indeed, thank you.

We will never stop learning.

Do you think the portal was just a doorway to other far away areas of "hyperspace" or the actual doorway to the afterlife?? I'm really interested in reaching that point of no return after reading so many reports of this space existing. Can you possibly launch past hyperspace?

I defensively understand this and here is why. I've had many out of body experiences and some of them I had no of barely control over the astral body, it's like something else was sailing it. One night, I was awake and trying to fall asleep, laying on my belly and after a couple of minutes the sleep paralysis kicked in, got out of my body and for some strange reason my astral body was walking on the floor in the same position I was laying in bed, on my belly with my arms across my head, so the astral body was walking on its elbows. I could not do anything to stop it and keep in mind that I was 100% awake, not in delta state...nothing.

Many times I have to shout very loud and hard: Stop! Go left/right! It's very strange.

Great experience you've had cruetmixer, I enjoy reading and it encouraged me to go deeper Thank you.