I'm convinced that no matter what the dmt experience ultimately turns out to be it will be some kind of crack
in our understanding of our experience as humans in this reality.
There are distinct and noticeable differences in the kinds of things I experience.
at this point its a limited pallet with differences being in the intensity of each experience.
There are things that seems to be automated routines done quickly like an abduction or a tagging of an animal.
I had that yesterday all I can do is just lay there and let it run the routine. I'm convinced after experiencing this hundreds of times that its an automated routine and there is nothing actually present in real time.
At times it feels like a routine already contained within the self and is just triggered by the DMT molecule.
For what purpose I have yet to discern. It feels like a scanning or information gathering routine or some kind.
its difficult to interrupt it once its underway and I have tried. It will sometimes but rarely pause for a moment if I put up enough of a fuss but usually continues its job.
I have another version that is distinctly different. It feels more in real time as in entity like presence in the moment coming in to check me out. There is an interaction taking place. yesterday during the peak of this experience
I repeated the words very insistently over and over "what is this?" "what is this"? " What are you? ........ it felt as though my words were
somehow digested and received. Moments later it felt as though my words were sent back to me a garbled attempt to communicate them back to me as if this thing or things was actually trying to understand. One important thing I noticed was that the experience was definitely interrupted by my insistent words. It derailed the experience and changed it. There seemed to be an attempt to understand or at least receive my words and an attempt to spit my words back to me. Weird doesn't even come close to this but I'm actually starting to get used to it.
I don't know what to say and i don't believe any one thing. I am choosing to only report what my direct experience and feelings are in regards to this in the moment as it happened.
I think our instincts are all we have when dealing with this stuff. As I write this I also reserve the opinion that I could have all of this very wrong almost to a laughable degree.
Someday I would love to know what this is all about. I know there's a tangible answer out there.
The only way of discovering the limits of the possible is to venture a little way past them into the impossible.
Arthur C. Clarke
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