First off this is not my first steps into Hyperspace. I've traveled this terrain many times. I've had many different experiences. All of them have been positive but different in intensity. I've put myself through the paces of dose ranges. (It is good solid practice to become familiar with low doses and work your way up.) I've experienced a full break through which was more real than reality where I encountered a healing team of despicable me's
http://www.rollingstone.com/mov...despicable-me-2-20130708I have been witness to the magic that is behind the curtain. I've seen the shapes, the geometry, the cosmos, our (my) creator, I've traveled through my mind and became the thought, where pure awareness comes out of the big wave and becomes a ripple. On most of my experiences I've learned more from the messages that I hear (it's more of a vision than sound but I "hear" it, it's like forgotten memories that return under a certain smell). The messages are all about love, connections and people.
With all my experiences being positive I still have a ton of pre-flight anxiety. It can be so overwhelming I've come up with a few tricks to help. One obvious way is to predose with just a small amount (10 - 15 mgs) and as I feel the effects I tell myself how silly I am for becoming so anxious, I laugh at myself and once I'm calm I can jump right in to a 30 - 40 mg experience (sometimes it's a breakthrough, other times it's not). The despicable me's came to me after a night of cactus tea and an unknown amount of spice.
I am getting familiar with harmala's. My first experiences with harmala was smoking freebase, around 90 mgs (smoked out of a bong, in two seperate sessions, 45 mgs in split into two bowls) , and I really enjoyed the effects combined with cannabis.
Last night I made a tea out the syrian rue seeds. It was with 2.65 g of non-crushed seeds. This is just syrian rue alone. About an hour into it I felt great and very talkative.... a little too much. After drinking the tea, my room mate and I went to 4th street (that's where it all happens in my little town). I sipped on a jumbo Grimm Brothers beer and started to feel intoxicated right away. I slowed way down on the beer, just a sip here and there, we stayed there for about 2 hours soaking up some sunlight and terrific weather.
On the way home my room mate said "I would like to smoke tonight, there's something about a few beers that always makes me want to smoke" Now before you chuck your spears, we were not drunk at all. I had sipped on one large beer for about 2 hours and we went and got some BBQ on the way home. By this time we are sober as a judge. Well not me exactly, that tea was really nice, I could feel a few different signatures of the syrian rue and the warm feeling from the beer, but I was pretty much back to baseline. It had been 5 hours since I drank the tea and at least 2 hours from the beer.
We hung out chatting a bit in the living room, then I took a shower, while he strummed a telecaster. We decided that a smoke session was would be a good idea and I went into my bag of goodies and brought out something that I wanted to try. A changa joint.
I came up with the idea after reading about changa and thought that a joint heavy in caapi leaves would be my best bet since I didn't have the vine and at the time no rue.
The joint consisted of caapi leaves that were enhanced with 110mgs of white and yellow spice. Not sure why I choose this amount, I think it's a little to strong. This joint was a bomber, kingsize papers and it looked like a torpedo. I explained to him what I had and that I didn't know what exactly to expect. But I assumed that each toke would be very manageable and we could ease into the experience slowly, set it down if it went to far or toke to your hearts desire if you want to take it farther. I wanted to lighten the heavy anxiety that I get before I smoke and thought that the joint would "trick" my mind and help me relax. And it did, my palms did not sweat, my heart did not beat a thousand times fast and I was calm. In a way I did "trick" myself, I would drift off in a thought and chief on the joint like I would normally if it had been cannabis. My room mate would do the same. We both liked the smoke and it was easy to take multiple rips and hold your breathe with no effort.
We are both cannabis smokers so the joint brought on a very light and playful mood. We did not turn the lights down, we played some zeppelin on pandora and kept a steady conversation going. Normally we take this very seriously. Lights are down to a dim, the perfect soothing music is chosen, we wait patiently and talk after the session about what went on and how to integrate the experience. We always feel very spiritual and blessed to gain the knowledge that we've learned. We wanted this experience to be different.
Half way through the changa joint my room mate hit a hot spot in the joint or took to big of a inhale and said "wow, that's a lot" and laughter erupted from my gut like I was possessed. He caught my laugh and we had the tryptamine giggles like I've never had. It reminded me of my shroom days as a 15 year old. Folded over, water streaming down the eyes, can't stop laughing. All the while the threshold effects are kicking in, carpet changes hues and swirls, walls look freshly painted....I check for CEV's but none were seen but why would I see them, that was not the goal. The goal was to lighten the mood, relax and have fun, something that helps reset the clock, it can be tough living with another person, and we need to keep our connection pure. We are trying to create a business as well as live together. We toked the joint down to nothing and sighed, we could no longer laugh, my face hurt and my room mate was exhausted. Laughing like that is a work out!
So fellow Nexians give this a shot. Let us know how it went. Please keep in mind that this is a different experience and may leave some wanting to go farther, but this method will repair and strengthen relationships....
Just a side note: I don't feel like it's a good ROA for a beginner, because one can forget that it is not a regular joint and things can get intense before you know it!