I recently had a experience with fresh DMT/NMT pulled from ACRB root bark.
I always Pray before going into it and this time I asked why I couldn't get rid of some of My 'Inhibitions'. Like, WHY did I have certain 'Dreams' that I just couldn't make into a Reality.
One example: Making Music. I want to DO it but Life gets in the Way.
Plus, My Inhibition, low self esteem, PTSD..all that comes into play. Thats why I am seeking 'Help' from a 'Higher Power' using what shamans have used since the beginning back in the Time of 'Who-Knows-When'.
So, I took some Syrian Rue Salts, dissolved them in water and drank it down, waited until I felt them really good, then got comfortable, loaded the pipe [ I use a stem...a layer of dried parsley, then DMT,parsley,DMT and on, until packed ]
I Prayed the Prayer, asked for Protection and then took three, or four, I don't remember, BIG HITS.
Well ... I was almost Immediately blown to pieces, expanding infinitely and it did not stop for the whole duration of this experience. I just felt as if every molecule of My Body, Mind, Spirit and Soul was scattered and going off in every direction, forever...
Meanwhile, during Expansion, I was shown the complexity of the whole Universe, how it all works together and how everything that happens is MEANT TO HAPPEN.
Then how all the planets move as if the Universe is a giant 'Machine', everything working together.
From Macrocosm to Microcosm.
I could not even utter a word, nor form an independent thought as all I can describe as 'The Fabric of Time' was shown to Me to be as an Illusion.
I cannot put into words any of what I saw, only that I felt as if I was being 'Downloaded' with information and way too fast for Me to Integrate.
I felt My Eye's fluttering as they rolled back so intensely that I could feel My Eyelashes somehow brushing the top of My sockets.
Words were being sung to Me but I could not understand them, though it was so beautiful that it made Me weep.
Someone then came behind me and I felt a 'Dial' in the Top, Right Side of My Head being turned. As the dial turned, I began to Smile. The Entity then slowly turned it up even more to where I Smiled so hard that it almost hurt. My Cheeks flexed into two big, hard balls. One on each side of My Face. I could feel My Face Muscles tightening.
When I got to this point of 'Smiling', the Entity let go of the dial and I could feel it departing.
I sat there with the biggest Cheesy Grin I ever had in My Life and this Smile stayed there for the rest of the Night. The next day MY Cheeks were sore from the strain.
I can only imagine what I looked like and what someone would have thought if they saw me like that. WHO CARES !
Meanwhile, I was told not to try and Understand certain things that are beyond Mankinds Understanding. That in the end, it will all turn out exactly as it's supposed to. Like when putting together the ingredients to a cake, what do you get? A Cake!
Then rapidly I began to come back to Earth.
I then opened My Eyes,Still Smiling but Mind Blown and GLAD to be back, I then took the Stem that was somehow still in My hand and I hugged it close to Me, began laying down while pulling My Knee's up to My chest like in a 'Fetal position' and slowly, in sync to coming down, layed down on the couch but before My head hit My pillow I whispered, " Okay, YOU control everything, you have it all under your command, I Believe You now, I won't ask those kinds of Questions again, I can't handle all of that,I Trust You now,You can have all of it, It's Yours, Not mine, I don't want the Responsibility, I'm just a Man ..." and similar acquiescing words of letting go and letting whomever it is, 'God', the 'Creator', the 'Highest Power'...whomever that was ... it was NOT evil nor scary, just very Challenging. I almost felt as if I was going to slip into Insanity. Beyond Words or Our Human ways of Expression using Our Limited Human Vocabulary, or, In Our Way of Formulating ways to describe Our Thoughts.
Astounding and Befuddling to the point of Me giving in and not WANTING to know the 'Big Answers' because it's all more complex than I ever could even ever again try to grasp.
I had gained a very profound, beyond words Newborn RESPECT for who I call 'The Creator' and His 'DMT' ....
Then I felt My head finally hit the fluffiest,softest, most comfortable Pillow I had ever known. I became as cozy as a 'Bug in a Rug' and I snuggled with Myself while I chuckled and felt as if I just returned Home from a Great Vacation of the Wildest Kind and now...
I just wanted to sleep.
The Experience drained Me completely and I fell asleep without a single thought left in MY Mind.
I then had a vivid Dream that I instantly lost the Memory upon awakening of but I Woke Up feeling at Peace and like a Child again.
That whole next day I felt like everything was 'New' and Wonderful. As if a 'Reset Button' [ Maybe it was the 'Dial' in My Head that the 'Entity' left cranked up before leaving ? ] had been pushed and I was 'Cleared' of all negativity and resentment or thoughts of My Past.
I go on DMT 'Binges' but I have a high respect for it. It's just that I don't like doing it unless things are going Good at the time because I don't want to go into it with any Negativity.
Well, I went into it THIS time as I stated: With no negativity. But whatever 'Negativity' that was rooted in Me, was as if it was ripped out and dissolved. It was so Intense that I have not done it again since, though I do not plan on stopping.
I just don't know WHEN I'll do it again.
I haven't felt the need nor desire for it but it's still 'On The Plate' so I can't say I won't ever do it again.
I tend to let My Heart and Spirit Guide Me. DMT is THE [ In My Experience and I've done ALL Psychedelics, every single one, even PCP which I'll never do again ] BEST Spiritual Tool there EVER was/is and I can Understand, or at least try or attempt to try, why 'Shamans' value this Sacred Medicine and give it the UTMOST respect !
It's NOT just a game or for 'Recreational Purposes' to them, and now, I feel even more the same way as they do than I ever did before'
I've had experiences with this Miraculous Tryptamine many times. Some that brought tears of Happiness to My Eyes, not wanting to let it go when it was beginning to wear off. Not wanting the 'Entity' to leave and to stop 'Loving' Me while showing Me intricate things and not wanting the Happy, Dancing caterpillars with little flags in there hands, waving them back and forth, to go back wherever they came from while at the same time Saying 'Goodbye' and 'I'll see you later,okay? I'll return, Bye Bye !' which was/is ALWAYS the hardest part.
But..I'm thankful.
I'm Thankful for the Opportunity to have had Experienced this Greatest Spirit Molecule and when 'The Calling' comes, when I feel and hear it?
I shall return or go back, once again.
Peace,Love and many Blessings to You All.
Everything I say here happened in My own Imagination. The more fantastic it sounds, the more you can count on it being in the realm of Dreams,