Hey guys,
I've been lurking around here for a couple months now. Haven't been posting really but hanging out in the chat just talking to random members about random stuff and asking some extraction based questions.
It's a great community here from what I've experienced so far, a variety of unique, knowledgeable and friendly people. Which are the type of people I love to talk to. I feel like I rarely am able to express myself fully to the people around me, my friends, my family... they just don't understand and where I live (NSW, Aus) I've found it hard to find truly open minded people to talk to, or people that share the same interests as I. It seems my friends and family cannot see outside of this consumerist, materialistic western culture. They do not understand the hermit lifestyle I wish to pursue and the philosophies which I live by. They're just not open minded.
So I feel like I fit in here.
Anyway, I'm Nibbana. I believe I'm quite younger than most of the members here. My interests are in eastern philosophy, taboo things, psychedelics and in helping people have a better party here on Earth.
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In my teenage years I was introduced to Zen Buddhism and soon after, psychedelics... my life changed completely forever. I realized the world we see... the world we think we know and the world that actually is, is completely different. Also society is playing a game. If I was to talk about what I mean by this I could go on for page after page... culture, religion, consumerism, the monetary system, education, greed, separation over unity, hate over love, ignorance, work, values which go against what it is to be human... just off the top of my head. I think a lot of people here feel the same way I do.
But yeah from one perspective I know this is a result of evolution and this is nature, were part of nature not separate from it. But I believe we could all just have a better party you know? Everyone could have a better time here on Earth, especially with the little time we have. So I try to help everybody I can.
I am a nihilist... so far. I don't really believe anything, I am willing to accept a hypothesis but I stay open minded. Maybe there is a true meaning to life, but we don't know it yet. I don't know if there is a god or not, I accept that really we don't know shit about life or this reality.
But saying that, I feel do know one thing, deep down in me whatever that is, the craziest thing of all.
We are all one.
Something which all of us are part of.. God? That doesn't sound right, some sort of energy which I don't know how to describe. I feel it on and off... sometimes I feel just ordinary, the normal egoist human consciousness and sometimes I feel this cosmic universal consciousness. We are all one my friends, really! I feel it right now. Maybe I'm just crazy, or something is wrong with my brain but we are all connected in some way guys, not only all of us, but everything in the universe, all matter and space...
It's weird though, sometimes I feel that way sometimes I don't, but still deep down I know that, or I'm delusional... LMAO. I felt it the first time a week or so after a mushroom trip I had which planted many fundamental questions in my brain and helped me see life in a different perspective, a universal, cosmic objective perspective per say. Am I crazy? Maybe the shrooms fucked up my brain, brought out the lost oceanic feeling in me. I don't know LOL.
So basically.. knowing this, I dedicate my life towards helping everyone I can and if I can, help people see this underlying unity of everything in the universe.
Although in the end, I know it's not important if people do see it, for I know we are all ONE anyway.
Hopefully you guys don't think I'm all whack and crazy! But that's me in a nutshell. Hope you enjoyed my intro and all the ramblings.
Love, Nibbana.