Last night I ventured out again using my Health Stone Vaporizer. I bonded with about 40 mg worth of high quality spice. It was late, around 2 AM, and I was completely alone and in the dark.

I have been having some difficulty using this new vaporizer, so today I bought a bong to use my health stone + bong method in the future. But last night, it took a while for the spice to properly vaporize and be able to be inhaled through the stone. After about 2 inhalations reality had started melting, so I took a third and laid back.

Before, I was thinking a lot about breaking through, but then I read ۩'s quote:

from another thread. This has changed the way I look at my experiences.

Since the whole concept of a breakthrough is exaggerated in importance, I'll simply say that 'my way of assessing that I have reached a deep level of hyperspace' is when the "walls" fall from around my body and consciousness, and I am left floating in space. I cease to feel my Earthly body, and I am then at the mercy of whatever is behind this grand experience.

So this happened last night; the walls fell from around me, and I lost contact with Earth as I know it. I was met by a lot of entities in suits, and they were giving some kind of presentations on wild boards. Little entities in suits were flying everywhere, and even though I had lost contact with Earth, I had this feeling that they were making fun of what I'm going to have to do for my career.

See, I've spent a lot of energy on applying to business school lately, so it's definitely been something that's on my mind. While my intentions for business are good (I want to use it to help the world and improve people's standards of living), I see a lot of it as goofy, egotistical, and simply fake.

A lot of times during this trip I was smiling and thinking/saying, "What.. IS this??" It was a very weird trip. One of those trips that straight-up confuses you. On a lot of my other "breakthrough" level trips, when I returned to Earth, I jumped up like a madman and had to write all sorts of sacred and holy messages on many sheets of paper. I looked crazy doing that, but it's all so fleeting...

But this time, I was confined to my bed, staring at the ceiling. I had my noise silencing headphones on, so I could still hear the carrier wave as the trip ended. Strassman organizes DMT trips into three possibly overlapping categories: Personal, Transpersonal, and Invisible Worlds. While I was definitely in another world, it was still very transpersonal, as it was based on building blocks of my existence on Earth (like business school and the idea of giving presentations).

I continued to think about my life, all the people I know, all the people I don't know, and how weird everything is. It reminded my of my LSD journeys where I would question and analyze everything in life, and the meaninglessness would really get me down. Pondering my life is necessary for self-improvement in my opinion, but it sure hurts. I ended up vaporizing a little leftover DMT oil to continue to think about this stuff on that level, and I had a minor personal type trip.

I kept getting down on myself for the things I do, and I really didn't feel very good. But then a miracle happened! I remembered something that I wrote down long ago after a DMT trip that has changed my life forever!



Remembering this quote, I shed all of these feelings. I had taken control of my life and happiness once again. These feelings do nothing except get a person down. They are unnecessary, and generally just used by society/cultural engineers to manipulate people into doing their bidding (this may be an extreme view - but bad feelings are very manipulative).

I wanted to pass these on to my dear friends at the Nexus. I am usually hesitant to put trips into words, but DMT makes that almost impossible sometimes by its very nature.

It felt very good to release these feelings. I stopped worrying about business school, my life, my duties and obligations; I stopped having anxiety about my commitment to help the world, and I stopped having fear about what comes next. This is very liberating and has allowed me to continue going on, even in the face of existential terror.

Now that my personal and transpersonal issues are covered for now, I have a feeling that I need to explore some more Invisible Worlds...

I'm glad you put that into words man.
It's very helpful, especially when potentially life fixing decisions are on the horizon (business school).

To fight the man you must know the man, become him and see the world through his eyes. Then you will know his weakness.

Thanks for sharing man!


You know in your heart if the path your on has heart and if it's where you want to be. You can always change paths!


So DMT really is still the "business mans LSD" huh?

Thanks for this quote. It reminds me of one of my favorites: "And then you change things. But it’s gotta be from the inside." - Alonzo from Training Day

One of my big realizations is that criticism won't do much; actually invading the system and manually helping will.

And spractral, DMT is quite the business man's LSD!! I haven't really had time nor desire for full day trips recently. DMT puts me where I need to be, takes down the boundaries, and shows me the light - all in under 15 minutes! Of course the lessons and magic of the spice flows through me all the time anymore, but I wouldn't want it any other way.