Since my last posts about multiple hits, I lost my torch lighter and was forced to use a normal lighter.

Wow! Now I'm able to finish a full load in one hit! Amazing difference! The flame get sucked in quite nice in the GVG and works 200% better for me than a torch lighter, anyway, this post is not about lighters.

This afternoon I took 40mg of my super fresh (just 2 hours new) crystal white spice, and inhaled almost everything of it.
It was the most intense trip ever! Not the best one in terms of quality.
The thing I remember is that several times I had a feeling my head would explode, literal. I felt so much pressure in my head that I imagined that anytime something would crack or snap inside...
So that started me wondering if that would be possible somehow, that maybe by an overdose something will be wired wrong after coming back haha.

Anyway, light was coming back in my eyes, and after crawling back through 4-5 other realities suddenly I found myself lying on the floor of the attic, the real one. At that time the 13 min. song which I started just before inhaling just finished.

Unfortunately no time for chilling and spacing out as the doorbell rang and I HAD to open it because somebody came earlier than planned.
I made some coffee for that guy and after half hour he was gone again.

I went back to the attic and dosed 30mg of my older light-brown/orange-colored spice.
Again an intense trip but with a totally different quality.
This time it felt somebody was guiding me through the experiences during the trip.
Although very intense too, I always sensed a kind of self-awareness and thus I was also able to experience better the quality or was able to better self-reflect. It felt much warmer, more loving, more feminine.

So that was my day off today

Is 40mg too much for me?
Is an exploding head feeling dangerous?
What is the definition of a 'breakthrough' experience?

EHS is not considered dangerous......(perhaps) it's just the blast of that trumpet..

I don't know if this relates, but on one of my first experiences with 5meo, i felt like, and was absolutely sure it was, my throat was expanding the way a frogs does as it croaks. I thought that yes, it was going to explode. There was a vocalization that went with it.

Funny thing, when i came down and spoke to my roommate, she amazed and noticed that the circumference of my neck was visibly more slender. I carry tension in my neck and shoulders and somehow had released it all at once. Dmt is awesome

I have had that same feeling when something "cracks" whilst flowing through the hyperspace. Felt like my neck somehow jointed itself in the right position? didn't give it too much attention though. Can only remember I truly was in awe of the visualization of the hyperspace at that moment. The dosage you will need to find yourself, start low, study the experiences what are you looking from them and find the right one. I think most travellers would say 40mg is more than enough to breakthrough for many. Mostlikely it was the experience itself making you see/feel/think your head was about to explode nothing to be afraid of.

Great to read again that it's not considered dangerous.
I only start to realize now that it maybe seems a bit silly to even think it was, but then again it must have been the profound experience of it that made it so real.

You may be having brain pain due to obtaining so much information/content from the trip. I find that come back a bit fuller from that world. Your hyperspace eye is like a muscle too you gotta stretch it out before you can stand more. That's the way I think about it anyway.

when directing energy without the influence of dmt in particular i have had it locked in my jaw/head area and i got really scared that my head would literally explode if i pushed it upwards. instead locking it into my jaw had it shaking like a parkinson's sufferer and that is really all that is. it was very scary at the time though, i just never expected it. I feel maybe it was quite dangerous and still do. Directing this energy is one of the scariest things that has ever happened to me.

I did at some point saw after blasting off felt like something 'snapped'. I saw like an organic looking sacket in my brain that I thought was full of either dmt or serotonin and that it was so packed that it snapped from pressure before reaching it's destination? and the hyperspace I was seeing quickly removed itself and reality in a whole was much more malleable i.e. light rays moving in unordinary ways, complete alterations of body structure. something you tend to expect with salvia but not with dmt.