(Not my first exp, but my first aya exp)

Finally tea, after a reasonable break from any changa use whatsoever.


PRE-CONDITIONS
(mind)Set: Very nervous, a little excited
(physical condition) Set: Good
Setting (location): Sanctified space / ritualised, home temple.
time of day: (12 or 24 hour system, daylight? starlight? overcast?) 21:00, overcast
recent drug use: (list also any kind of medication) None.
last meal: (Time and type) Light veggies, 14:00

PARTICIPANT
Gender: (m / f) M
body weight: (in kg pls) 70ish
known sensitivities: Unsure
history of use: (experienced, novice, first timer - in general and for this specific substance/form) Novice in general: A year with changa, 6 months of harmala extr + changa, 1st time with aya tea

BIOASSAY
Substance(s): (list all taken substances) Yellow Caapi, MHRB
Dose(s): (in the same order as Substances pls, use metric system i.e. g/ mg/ �g) 60 - 65g / 4.5g
Method of administration: (dissolved in water, capsuls, insufflated, vaporized...)
Brewed separate teas.

EFFECTS
Administration time: T=0:00 (expand this if you used delayed administration for multiple substances or the same substance with multiple doses. Use indices.)
T=0:00 - 50g caapi
T=0:20 - 3g mhrb
T=1:15 - 10 - 15g caapi + 1.5g mhrb
Duration: (x hours) 6hrs
First effects: Slow onset at 0:15
Peak: (estimate a time range and note as e.g. T=2:00-4:00 for a range of 2 hours beginning 2 hours after administration)
T=3:00-4:00 (I think)
Come down: T=4:00 - 5:00
Baseline: T=6:00

Intensity (overall): (use HRS-like scale i.e. 0-4: 0 = "Not at all;" 1 = "Slightly;" 2 = "Moderately;" 3 = "Quite a bit;" 4 = "Extremely."
Evaluation / notes: 2

OPTIONAL
Pleasantness: (0-4) 3
Implesantness: (0-4) 1
Visual Intensity: (0-4) 2 (close to 3 at peak)
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AFTER-EFFECTS
Hangover: (0-4 ; what type of impleasantness ; duration) 1
Afterglow: (0-4 ; what type of positive effects ; duration) 3


REPORT



I can best describe the evening as a long, slow conversation with Aya. The dose was mild (I can only compare intensity to changa experiences), but profound nonetheless. I absolutely loved the feeling of the caapi, and the persona it had. There was the constant sense of being in the presence of a being of great comfort, and a lot of communication both ways. Colours predominantly greens and pale ochres. I experience quite a few energetic purges through the evening, but although there is a lot of nausea and discomfort, I don't physically vomit or need to use the bathroom once.

The overwhelming lesson was that my entire perception of reality is a construct. That I live inside a box of my own devising, and that I'm the only one who can 'open the box', and let the light in. That I need to tear down the walls that myself and society have built. I was also given a glimpse of the nature of 'evil', and of its origins.

From there I was led to open the box inside myself. I was reluctant, given that I knew there were many horrors in there, but the entities communicating with me were persistent. Sitting cross legged, I saw it unfold in my centre, golden light and fire escaping from it, a mixture of good and bad emanating from within. What happened next is hard to describe in words. A huge sharp beam of white light, shot down from high above, like some divine laser. It speared straight into my core, below my solar plexus, in short controlled bursts. My body was forced backwards, even my face felt like it was pulling back off my skull with the force of some mighty wind, and strange demonic shapes blew off of me, ripped away from my being. It gave me the strange dualistic feeling of wanting it to stop and wanting it to happen again all at once.

The last, and perhaps weirdest, but also most sensational experience happened shortly after – still sitting cross legged, tiny beings surrounded me, helpers to the entities present ('elves' I guess some would call them), and started tweaking my very being, like I was made of small technological blocks which they were turning, twisting, and reprogramming. I could feel my body hunched and forced over into the strangest position, amazed and confounded all at once – it really felt like the very fibre of my being was being reconfigured.

My awareness shifted to a third person perspective, and I saw my body from outside, reformed into a shining green, almost crystalline shape – a familiar shape, like some kind of strange techno-amphibian. My brain doesn't even manage to get to the F part of wtf before I'm hurled into an intense energetic purge – and it dawns, they've built a human frog cannon (!), firing the dark energies straight out of me. A human frog cannon. Hilarious and ingenious all at once. The purge leaves me feeling amazing, a feeling that I take straight through the following day, and also gives me a good laugh, and a great appreciation for the artistry of these hyperspace entities. I'm also left wondering if they have a good feeling after achieving one of their feats, and really hoping that they do get joy out of it.

The couple of hours after that is a gentle glide down, a lot of chatting with my friend, and just an overwhelming feeling of wellbeing.

All in all, a fantastic experience, especially given that my last harmala + changa experience was very dark and hellish, and I went into the night extremely nervous. Going to take some time to integrate and absorb, but I'll definitely be revisiting her

Amazing account.
Even before aya/dmt I have had the distinct feeling that while the world/universe seems so vast and open, and it some ways it is. But it actually isn't.
I often get the uncanny feeling that life/reality is like a video game, from a distance it appears endless physically and with endless possibilities (and at some more grand level, it probably is), but somehow ones life always seems to play around certain themes, people and places. And the rest feels like you bump into the invisible wall of the level (or box as you put it), as if the people and places are just projections on the wall. They seem to be there, but play no actual real role in your life/experience.
And yes, that it is also a game level or box of your own making somehow.

What a great account of what you experienced! I love the template. I may need to steal that idea from you. I enjoyed your story very much! Thanks for sharing it!