Hey Nexus,

Had my first dose of spice last night extracted through Cybs' Hybrid ATB 'Salt" Tek (Thanks Cyb)

A little background for context:

Dose: 10mg (measured on a scale that can measure to the thousandth)
Method: Vapor Genie with the dose placed on top of a light bed of mint leaves (have a domeless quartz nail that I will try when I have the right place)
Breakthrough: No, but definitely wasn't aware for a couple minutes.
Total time of visuals: 3:30 (min:sec & measured by the sitter)
Mental State Pre-Trip: Ready to try it, but a little pre-trip anxiety.
Mental State Post-Trip: A little blown back, but from what I understand light trips tend to be uncomfortable.

I decided to use my VG for my first trip and do it in my room on my bed. I turned all my lights off except for a candle to cover up whatever smell the spice may put off as well as my rock salt lamp as the light is gentle. I played a video of waves on a beach for the sound and turned the screen off so it wouldn't interfere.

I started my first hit, long and slowly inhaling letting the heat build (held it as long as I could and exhaled). I started my second pull and felt the spice vapor start to flow (very rich). I kept inhaling until I noticed the continents on a map mounted to my wall slowly begin to shake.

I handed my sitter the VG, lighter, and my glasses before the trip really took hold. I looked back to the map and it was as if everything in my field of vision took a snapshot and then that image became 8-bit (imagine minecraft) and very colorful. Then the squares of the image individually divided to four and each of those divided into four (on and on).

That's when it gets fuzzy because there was this ringing and static that started when the snapshot happened. Here's my theory. The image becomes distorted into pixels. I think of this like sound waves on a synthesizer. You can change the wave to be longer or shorter, smooth or edgy. Now relate what happened with the snapshot to the sound from the video I was playing. When the image became 8-bit so did the sound from the video. It became edgy like what one could do with a sound wave on a synth. It's hard to explain, but I'm hoping one of you guys can understand what I'm saying.

The peak was short-lived and I slowly started to come back, but I remember at that peak that it felt like wheels in my mind or cognition were turning. Things were making sense, but they were flowing into each other. It was as if I had been there before and that moment was the end of another trip and I was remembering it right at that moment. That scared the hell out of me because I felt like reality was shattered or the reality that I'm in isn't the reality. It's weird because I have some extensive experience with psychedelics (chemical and plant/fungus based), stimulants, etc. and I've thought about that idea before. Like what if when we're dreaming that's when we're actually awake and when we're awake that's when we're actually dreaming.

Just thinking about that moment is stretching my mind a little bit, but damn!

Sorry for the long post, but I hope you enjoyed it

-djsnexus

Hi djsnexus,

Thanks so much for sharing!

Don't often visit here but happened to read your post and was surprised how similar this was to my first DMT trip.

I can relate when you mention the pixellation and that edgy synth sound. I heard something like that in my trip though I wasn't playing music. The progression then to having a moment of fear and feeling everything flow together was also something I experienced.

It's been 2 years since I last smoked mostly because I haven't felt the time was right or I had really integrated the trip. Just the other day I had a realisation and I feel it makes sense now.

Your words "I felt like reality was shattered or the reality that I'm in isn't the reality. Like what if when we're dreaming that's when we're actually awake and when we're awake that's when we're actually dreaming." really resonated with me.

Here's my theory on it - hopefully it makes some sense.

I feel like hyperspace is an analogy for or rather is - the formless dimension.

What I mean by that is we live in a world of form, objects, even thoughts are forms. For these forms to exist there needs to be a space. This is the formless dimension. It's the space that allows everything else to be and it is part of everything at once. It can be sensed and felt as a feeling of connectedness and peace. However it cannot be known by the mind because it is not a thing.

When you say your reality was shattered and what you're in isn't the reality I think that means you were shown the formless dimension and realised on a deep level it is just as much part of true reality. Thus the previous concept which only considered the world of form was shattered.

When we're dreaming (or rather in dreamless sleep) we return to the formless dimension - it makes up more of who we really are than the forms. Thus when you are dreaming you are awake to that reality. When we are awake most people are dreaming because they are not conscious of the formless within themselves and the world.

The way to wake up when you are awake is to become conscious of the present moment. Consciousness is formless and when you can connect to that you can feel that deep peace and connectedness - it is who you are. It is also important to be aware of your ego and not get trapped in it.

Sorry for the long post, I hope it was of some value. Peace!

8 bit sounds (emitted by hyperspace - not from a physical audio source) are quite common for me to hear. It can often sound like a MIDI sequencer, revolving through a sequence of typically high frequency blocky pitches.

Thanks for the response, Lexicon!

Something in my head clicked when you wrote "the formless dimension." The whole idea of it made sense to me as soon as I read that. The unknown makes us uneasy sometimes and when I was put into that formless space that quickly I believe that's what happened.

I totally agree with you on being conscious in the present moment.

Thanks again, Lexicon.

-djsnexus

What's up, Global!

Yeap, that's essentially what I was trying to explain in my post, but I think you explained it a little better than I did.

I tend to find those sounds rather pleasant. They seem to have a connection with the visuals as if they are creating visual motion or development. I've encountered some sinister entities that make sequences of pitches much like those that you would find in the castles of the original Mario Brothers game.

Totally, I thought it was great how it started when the visuals started. Damn, back to Mario!