very shortly i shall attempt my first steps into hyperspace. ive been as far as a sub breakthrough before and have been keen as anything to breakthrough and have worked my way to this point where i feel im ready to take the leap...

ive been ready all day but the more ive thought about it the more anxious ive become, and now feel anxiety is holding me back! my girlfriend isnt the biggest psychedelic fan though has dipped her toes in things before but with all my talk about it recently she is worried for me which in turn is making me more anxious.

regardless, im still going for it and will shortly report back, however things go.

Wish me luck !!

so as the story goes....

i have this wicked mango tree which i sat infront of and just looked up at it for while calming my nerves, trying to shut out any thoughts before hand. after a short time i with out a second thought i had a toke and held it in then as soon as i exhaled it began to come over me... i took another toke straight away and held it as long as i could which brought on a major visual and body rush... the discoloured mango tree bark began to move as if it was water circulating around the branches, the staghorn plants veins were pulsating what looked like fluid going into each branch of the mango tree... all while having this pattern moving outward from one inner point infront, almost like it was flat and 2D.

everything started to vibrate, faster and faster. so fast that in began to be difficult to focus my eyes.
then the vibration hit a point where everything came back into focus, back to how it was previous to the vibrating. minutes later it was all over.

i feel as though if i had taken one more toke or maybe held larger hits i would have broken through???
i loaded about 20mg, i didnt do it all, only maybe a little over half which i know isnt exactly breakthrough material.

is the vibrating a sign of a breakthrough coming on or is it just apart of a sub trip? ive had slight vibrating before but not to this extent.

any thoughts much appreciated. im keen to give it another crack... nerves have settled quite alot.

The vibration sensations are normal on low doses. If you had taken that 20 mg all in one hit and held it in, more than likely you wouldn't of had time to feel them.

The lower dose sensations for me are uncomfortable, I like to make the transition quickly.

Go on! Kick in the door to God's office and throw your feet up on the desk.
Then come back and tell us about it.

Yes. Everything ^he said!

I am also sometimes uncomfortable with the lower doses, but I've found that with the GVG I never have problems with them. There's a time and a place for big ones and there's a time and a place for dipping toes in. With an efficient pipe like the GVG, this titration is a bit easier.

I wanted to add to the conversation though, that there's nothing wrong with waiting. I waited a very long time, and even after I first *tried* to break through, I found that it takes a lot of practice and proper method. It is a skill, not just a button that you push, then it's gone. I highly encourage you (as I was encouraged) to purchase a GVG.

When I was reading your post, I really connected. I deal with a lot of anxiety (before trips or just in general in life), so I know 100% what you're talking about. One thing that has helped me is to remember that in about 90% of my journeys, after I take the hit(s), I am calmed. I describe it as a blanket being thrown over me, and all of my concerns are gone. But still, sometimes I just don't feel like I can take the leap. Today for example, I sat down at my shrine, meditated for about an hour (the tibetan bell "music" is still playing in the background right now), but at the end, it just didn't feel "right" so I hopped on my computer and did some other things instead.

It sometimes gets a bit crazy/weird/intense on the "other side," but one thing that I think a lot during trips is that if I do fear something, it's not what I was fearing or anxious about before or going into the trip. So I try to have faith in what I'm doing. I try to trust the medicine. And I try to feel when is the right time. For awhile I was dosing less than once a month (primarily because of that fear and anxiety) but recently I've been doing healthy doses almost daily, or at least every two-three days. This has made me more familiar with the medicine and eased my fears. When I'm doing it often, it's easier to remember why I want to do this and what I get from it.

But with all that said, it's pretty rare that I go for the balls-to-the-wall big doses. I often "break through" on 25-30 mg, but normally I need something closer to 50mg (I think I have a pretty high tolerance to DMT, because those who have used the same crystal and pipe along side me have broken through with 25mg consistently).

So if you really want to break through, and this DMT thing is something that you want to put energy/time into, I highly recommend buying a GVG. I was hesitant to do it with the steep price tag, but I'm telling you man--it's worth it's weight in diamond!!! One of my favorite comments about the GVG is that it would be worth the price as a 1-time disposable pipe. I couldn't agree with that more.

Happy travels, my friend, and I wish you a wonderful day whether it involves DMT or not.

thanks for the replies guys.

Mz.Gypzy, i dont exactly feel uncomfortable, still enjoyed what was going on but i do see how enough to throw me straight into it would have definitely solved the anticipation i was experiencing.

Door#6, yes kicking the door in and slapping my feet up on the desk would be quite some entrance haha!

ScientificMethod, i have been looking at the GVG. i keep telling myself that if my first breakthrough is something i want to return to then im definitely purchasing one for sure. i have a home made vapour machine at the moment which i would have to say is making things more difficult i think.

last night i decided to watch a bit of tv and head to bed, and now today im keen as ever to try again.
i think after i type this message im going to head out to find some herbs to smoke it with and use my bong to see how that goes... who knows i may even come across a vaporizer, i havent been to this place for a while.

i shall report back a little later with hopefully a final chapter to this thread, and perhaps a new thread all together! exciting stuff haha

thanks guys!

i now have some passion flower to smoke with the spice. i had a little test sample just before and found smoking alot easier for myself

im gonna load her up again, this time with a hopefully breakthroughing dose and see what happens.
i feel alot more calm about everything now... i dont know if the passion flower is helping that or if im just feeling more ready then previous times but either way im gonna get into it before my mind begins to wonder any other way !

talk soon...

well the passion flower and the bong definitely made administration alot easier. i didnt breakthough though i did have a geometric tunnel that i began to head down very fast but then i would think "oh here we go!" and then the tunnel would just expand outward into the room. the tunnel came back in as soon as i stop trying to make it do it but then grew outwards again and the trip continued on like normal.

the passion flower prolonged everything for sure. where it had been around 4-5 minutes has now turned into 10 minutes, this may be to do with the fact i smoked more aswell i guess. it seems when i blank my thoughts and not concentrate things become more intense.

thats me done for tonight but i shall have another go tomorrow. ah the beauty of been on annual leave haha lovin it!