Hello Nexians,
I try to describe an experience I had a few nights ago that changed me completely. Two spice journeys triggered something which I would describe as the awakening of kundalini. These journey were so intense that the completely shattered my mind.

The first one was as follows:
I vaped 20mg and was gone instantly. There was a female voice who announced: "The world has come to an end. The riddle of life has been solved. All humans are going to be liberated now. We have to leave this planet and our lives now." All humans were standing in a row and got touched on their forehead and then they left their bodies.

The next day I vaped 10mg (!) and on exhaling the whole universe contracted to a tiny dot. I was the only thing that existed in the universe. Voices told me that I had solved life and thereby the world and all inhabitants dissolved. I was told to decide whether the world should continue or the dice would be played again. Of course I wanted the world to continue and for literally aeons I was thinking about the key word to say for the world to come into existence again. After a felt kalpa I said "AUUUUUUMMMMM". The universe expanded again and I woke up in my room. I was delighted that I found the key and had left brahmaloka. But there was this feeling that frightened me. Somehow I knew that if I hadn't found the key word I would still be in this vacuum.

The following day I woke up with extreme anxiety and had a vision of the world coming to an end and all people dying in extreme anguish. My body was full of energy and it felt like thousand of people were inside of me. The weltschmerz was horrible and I felt so agitated that I could do nothing but moving. I thought that I have been too far over the edge.
Days later and after plenty of sleep I feel reborn and the world looks like never before. All my chakras feel activated and my mind is extremely sharp. I have never felt this awesome before and I am thankful to experience this wonder called life. There is still so much energy inside of me. It feels like I became what is my true self. I feel like hugging all people on the streets and spreading love. I can't help but smile and laugh all the time. The universe is made of magic

Peace

BTW do you have any recollection of what your solution to life was?

In the trip with the voice announcing moksha the solution was something like this:
Mankind remembered their true self. They remembered that they are brothers and sisters. Somehow a global awakening had happened and the illusion was revealed. There was no identification with the ego any more. The individual emptied itself from all that it's not and infinity could penetrate the empty goblet it had become. Subject and object merged into one. There was no misunderstanding between cultures and no hatred between neighbours. Subjective language had been transcended and a superior kind of communication had been found. Having realized that they are one they worked together as a collective soul. They understood the infinite potential in the evolution of mind and therefore could heal and liberate all living beings. Finally suffering came to an end.

In the other trip the self wanted to recognize itself by becoming many. It was the deepest layer of reality where the potential of infinite possibilities was pulsating. Where there is absolute truth and one is the logos words. Where emptiness and form are one. But there was a deep longing for humankind. This longing was the first creative impulse which resulted in willing. Then lilas drama unfolds in the illusion of duality.


The experience has peaked by now and I got used to the blissful state. I learned a lot from it. It is like my mind solved the puzzle that my past experiences have been and thereby integrated many lessons. All fear left my mind and I feel like I escaped the prison that was my overthinking mind. My intuition is guiding me through life now. A metanoia happened and it's still unfolding. But I have to let go of the experience for what is yet to come. Doing vipassana and karma yoga feels good. Life is the ultimate trip!

Does anyone can recommend how to channel all this energy? Been doing yoga everyday but it's still so much energy flowing through me.

Have you tried practicing the bandhas? Powerful stuff, IME.

Never gave bandhas that much attention but they can be added nicely to my paranayama practice. Trying to be mindful all day long helps a lot but forgetting is on of the biggest obstacles along my path. Forgetting that I am deluded by duality and the ego.

Your trip reports are amazing, inspiring and insightful and your energy overwhelming just reading about it
I feel like they describe a closing of a loop rather than an end to things and thus create so much energy?
I feel like i would go dancing to connect with people through dance and love, make them happy, make people happy in general through generous gestures of attention or whatever you have to share. People need more happiness.
And working in the garden. Work with nature does feel the most rewarding to me and there is so much to be done on this planet, so every little thing we do for nature helps. Even if it is collecting dead plant material on a pile which can house life forms and convert to compost over time. Compost is magical and always a useful thing to create (and use to grow stuff later on).