PRE-CONDITIONS
(mind)Set: Calm, happy, loving.
(physical condition) Set: Healthy
Setting (location): My apartment.
time of day: 10:30 PM
recent drug use: 300 mcg LSD two weeks prior, three 20mg vaped DMT trips in one sitting five days prior.
last meal: 2:00 PM, light portion of rice and black beans.

PARTICIPANT
Gender: Male
body weight: 81.6 Kg
known sensitivities: None
history of use: Novice with regards to DMT, about ten sub-breakthrough experiences. Fairly experienced with LSD, probably about 30 trips one of which was 500 mcg.

BIOASSAY
Substance(s): Cielo Banisteriopsis Caapi; DMT Citrate; DMT Freebase.
Dose(s):Cielo Banisteriopsis Caapi: 80g; DMT Citrate: 50mg; DMT Freebase: (in succession, about fifteen minutes after OEV's/CEV's ceased) 15mg, 15mg, 18mg, 20mg, 20mg.
Method of administration: Caapi: Tea made from boiling 225g of vine four times in water made acidic with vinegar reduced to just under 500ml. DMT Citrate: 50mg DMT dissolved in warm orange juice. DMT Freebase: Vaporized in GVG.


EFFECTS
Administration time: T=0:00: Drank 170ml or about 80g of Caapi
T=0:30: Drank 50mg DMT dissolved in orange juice
T=1:00: 15mg DMT vaporized
T=1:20: 15mg DMT vaporized
T=1:35: 15mg DMT vaporized
T=1:50: 18mg DMT vaporized
T=2:10: 20mg DMT vaporized
T=2:25: 20mg DMT vaporized
Duration: 3 hours.
First effects: T=0:15 (from caapi, light buzz, clearheaded, calm)
Peak: T=1:00 - T=2:40 Once I began to vaporize DMT until fifteen minutes after my last dose.
Come down: twenty minutes until all visuals ceased after T=2:40 so T=3:00
Baseline: Hard to say, I felt pretty normal at T=3:00 but a sense of euphoria remained until I went to sleep two hours later and throughout the next day.

Intensity (overall): 3
Evaluation / notes: Most intense DMT experience to date.

OPTIONAL
Pleasantness: 4
Unplesantness: 1
Visual Intensity: 3
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AFTER-EFFECTS
Hangover: 0
Afterglow: 2, very happy, deep empathy with people I talked to.


REPORT

I was sitting in my apartment with my girlfriend who I have been with for a year now. I introduced her to psychedelics with LSD which she loves but doesn't feel ready for DMT. I turned my futon into a bed and lit a few candles and incense. She laid next to me reading on her phone while I was tripping and I would talk to her in between vaporizing DMT.

I drank the tea which as a side note was much easier to drink than the last tea I made. I did not purge and I had zero nausea from it despite even drinking sediment at the bottom. After I had been feeling the effects of the tea for about fifteen minutes I dissolved 50mg of DMT into orange juice and drank it, I was hoping to have some sort of pharmahuasca experience from it and did not originally intend to vaporize DMT. After thirty minutes with virtually no effects (I saw light tracers and felt happy but it was subtle), I decided I wasn't going to let this night be another failed attempt and loaded my GVG with 15mg of DMT.

Before this my largest vaporized dose with DMT alone was 24mg and I had a very pleasant trip and fairly intense but I wouldn't call it a breakthrough. I started low because I wasn't sure if I gave the DMT I ingested enough time to kick in and didn't want to vaporize a large amount and have the other DMT kick in and get too intense. Also, I had read that caapi makes you more sensitive to DMT and you don't need quite as high of a dose (which I found to be true, whether that was from the caapi alone or from having some extra DMT in my system already I don't know).

Being in a calm state of mind and eagerly wanting to have deeper experiences with DMT I vaporized the 15mg in one hit (I finally got that part down, other times I would split it into two or three hits because I wasn't vaporizing it correctly). Immediately I felt a tingling in my spine and I set the GVG down and laid down next to my girlfriend. The onset was slower than I was used to, I am guessing from the caapi. It took about a minute to a minute and a half to fully hit me and I kept my eyes open staring at the ceiling. Deep floral patterns started forming on the ceiling and would spin slowly for a few seconds and then stop and I would feel locked in a gaze at the pattern, once it began moving again I would move my eyes around but every time that it stopped my eyes were fixated on the biggest flower in the middle of the ceiling. This lasted for about 13 minutes before most of the visuals died, I didn't close my eyes at all.

After coming back I noticed I was much less nervous about going deeper with the DMT and almost felt a calling inside of me telling me to smoke again and this time to close my eyes and let go. I vaporized another 15mg, laid down, and shut my eyes. I saw very intricate patterns moving very quickly and this time I noticed that the patterns were much more colorful than anything I had experienced previously. My mind first began racing with frantic thoughts that were at first in English. Things like "Oh wow I didn't expect it to be this intense!" and things like that running through my head much quicker than usual. Very quickly these thoughts ceased to be real words or at least words that I recognized and sounded kind of like "she-bloypd?!?" and other nonsense similar. It felt very wacky and I started to notice a bunch of small eyes in the fractal patterns I was seeing and I got the feeling that the voices running through my head with that sort of nonsense sounds were coming from whoever's eyes I was seeing. Out of the patterns all sort of weird and random stuff emerged, things like a pacifier, drum sticks, a rattle for a baby, all in crazy colors that were constantly changing. This trip lasted for about fifteen minutes before I felt that I was completely 'back' and normal words were going through my head again.

When I came back I laughed and told my girlfriend a little about it. I got the feeling that the DMT was sort of playing with me and having fun. This eliminated any other sort of anxiety I had completely and I couldn't wait to smoke again. This time I was shooting for 20mg but I couldn't get it exactly to 20 so I settled with 18mg wondering if there would be a very big difference. There wasn't so much and this trip was almost identical to my last one, only the eyes were much bigger I still couldn't see any sort of body attached to them but the patterns the eyes were set in almost started to look something like faces of something not human at all and if I looked into the eyes they would wink at me or do some other subtle movement that somehow had a deep impact on me. One wink was sort of seductive looking and immediately I felt an intense sort of longing, another was a sort of amused type of wink that made me feel that whatever this was it knew exactly how to scare me to death or evoke almost any type of emotion more strongly than I have ever felt in my life. I felt like I was in the presence of something that knew me far better than I knew myself.

That trip being a little deeper than the last, although still very happy and playful I wanted to try to go even deeper but was being careful of my dose because I was sort of feeling a cumulative effect of smoking back to back and each trip was more intense even though the dose of the past three trips were similar if not identical. I loaded 20mg into the GVG and vaped it.

To really understand the full impact of what happened next a little background is necessary. About eight months ago now I had taken 500mcg of LSD that ended up being a very challenging and rough experience. Before things started to get way out of hand and I was reduced to writhing on the floor begging to be 'let go' by whatever I thought was holding me, I had a very intense, clear out of body experience where I was sitting in the middle of a circle surrounded by beings made of light that told me to calm down, explained that I was in the place where I was before I was born. They told me so much about myself and about past lives that I lived on Earth. I don't know how much of it was true or if it was all just some sort of delusion stemming from my beliefs in things like reincarnation but either way that experience effected me deeply and even now when I think back on it I start to tear up from the joy and beauty that I knew while I was there. As I came back into my body they kept telling me "Remember what you are!".

Now, back to the DMT trip. After vaporizing the 20mg and shutting my eyes immediately I knew this was going to be far more intense than anything I had ever experienced. I felt like I had fully 360 degree vision and could see in all directions simultaneously, I was in a sort of sphere of patterns moving rapidly and morphing. If I looked close enough at one particular point I could notice the same sort of eyes I had seen earlier and I strongly felt the presence of another being that knew and loved me more than I knew and loved myself.

Feeling that presence so strongly I started to panic, and things started to get crazier as my serenity was leaving me. I almost opened my eyes because it was so intense and I wasn't sure if I was ready, but just before I did what was once a pair of eyes emerged fully into the sphere with me and I knew that this was the presence I felt. It had a voice like a female and when she first appeared to me she looked sort of like a nurse and she had a needle in her hand. She said to me "Calm down, you're okay, you've been here before." and she put the shot into me and I felt calm again and overwhelmingly happy. After this she no longer looked like a nurse (even though that is a poor description) but now was an awe-inspiring being of pure light that I recognized as the same being I saw on my LSD trip. Once again, just like in my LSD trip she started telling me things about myself and in between each thing she would say sternly "REMEMBER EVERYTHING IM TELLING YOU, IT'S THE MOST IMPORTANT THING EVEN IF YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY RIGHT NOW"

Sadly I did not remember everything, most of the details just slipped out of my mind shortly after I came back from the trip. I was left with a feeling of awe and I started crying telling my girlfriend that the most beautiful thing in the world happened to me. Even though I don't remember all the particulars, I still feel like I know myself better and have been much more at peace with myself than I can ever remember being. I am more outgoing and accepting of other people whereas before I was extremely introverted and used sarcasm a lot to discourage people from trying to talk to me too much. Now when I talk to people I don't feel overwhelmingly self-conscious and feel like I am actually connecting with that person. It is amazing how much it changed me from such a short (in our time) experience.

By now my lungs were feeling a little tired from smoking DMT four times, but I wanted to go back and hopefully speak with her again. I loaded another 20mg and vaporized it. This time the trip was a little different and the presence I felt had a distinct masculine feel to it. I was in a sphere again like before with 360 degree vision but now the entire sphere I was inside was some sort of entity. I was inside him and he completely enveloped me. I could feel love from him, but also got the feeling that this wasn't going to be all fun and games. He started doing things that for some reason made me very happy and filled with love, then asked me "Why are you so scared to come here?" when I couldn't find the right words to reply he said "Is it because of this?" and the patterns he was making shifted and were somehow deeply disturbing and terrifying. I don't remember what these things were, it wasn't exactly images or anything but just certain movements that he made that could elicit these powerful feelings. Each time he started to do something that freaked me out he would glare at me telling me to pay attention and would continue to do it taking me to the edge of what I felt like was my sanity and then he would bring me back with calming and warm sensations.

This last trip was every bit as intense as my previous 20mg trip but definitely had some darker tones to it, which I didn't mind because coming out of it I felt much better for the experience. It also has made me feel much better about going back because I feel like I have at least gotten a taste of the darker side which has always been what frightens me so much about DMT. The LSD trip I described earlier was my most challenging experience and just knowing how dark and crazy LSD can be, I knew DMT being a much stronger experience has the potential to be far more terrifying than that trip. The main difference that is encouraging to me is with the LSD I felt like I was lost inside myself and that my mind was a prison and was also torturing me, to the point where I even had very strong physical sensations of things moving inside me and squeezing me. With DMT even though he took me to dark places, I somehow knew he had my best interest in mind even if I couldn't understand what it was.

Not being able to remember a lot of the particulars of what was shown to me has been frustrating. But like I mentioned before, I just feel better now than I ever have in my life. It feels like blockages were pulled out of me and that I am much more open now in every way. I used to not even be able to cry at watching sad movies or reading sad books. Now I can't go through my day without being overwhelmed with the beauty I see and starting to cry some. I guess that sounds a little weird, but maybe a better way to explain it is I am noticing all of the incredibly beautiful things around me, both real things like the way the leaves look blowing in the wind and less tangible things like the love my girlfriend has for me or deep empathy with other peoples experiences.


Thanks for reading
I love this community and love that there is a place where people with similar experiences can share them.


-Syzygy

very nice read and I can definitely relate to what you're experiencing. as I'm also dipping my toes with smaller doses and tend to re-vape and re-vape more DMT after I realize I didn't go as far as I would have wanted to.

even tho I'm probably one step behind you at that point, reading you is really reassuring.

thanks for the detailed report

It is scary first starting out, especially reading what some people on here have gone through. If you can get your hands on some caapi I highly recommend it before vaping spice. It puts you in the perfect place mentally to voyage not to mention the trips last a bit longer.

Now from my experiences I am just always going to try and have the mindset that the things on the other side genuinely have my best interest at heart and even if things seem too intense or scary there is a reason for it and a lesson to be learned. To me that is a huge encouragement