A long time since the first and last time I tried DMT. I put some relaxing music on, dim the lights and relax. I prepare the pipe and sit down, a little nervous, just the smell of it makes my heart beat faster.
I took a hit and hold, I hold it until I need to breathe again. Vibrations appears on my hands and legs, also my hands start sweating. Visuals increasing, vibrant colours, sharp edges. I close my eyes and see water, a river it seems, flowing near a beautiful tree. A lot of lights, fire in the sky and a flying fairy. It's all so peaceful, I wish I could live there forever.
I take another hit. I feel the flow of energy in and out, through my hands and feet. I start melting with the environment. The objects now have a lot of copies, each one with a different colour. The wall has square patterns on different shades of green. I close my eyes again to find a face, a face that duplicates over and over. The amount of colours is unbelievable. From his face rivers start flowing, flowing everywhere. Now lights, a lot of light, it seems like it's sunny outside. A big waterwall just of pure light. Outstanding.
Last hit. I take the last hit as I ask for guidance and knowledge. I see everything vibrating, the high pitch sound in my ears. I close my eyes and find a tunnel. A water tunnel, with gold-covered edges. Birds are following me. At the end everything darkens. I can't feel my body anymore. Did I breakthrough? I don't think so, I'd have no doubts. There're two big walls, two big black walls that seem to have no end. In the middle of them there's a door, not actually a door, but the entrance of something, something important, but not for me, not yet.
"Do you really want to see?". It all fades away so I open my eyes. The effects start decreasing as the emotions flow. Truly a beautiful experience.
“The urge to transcend self-conscious selfhood is, as I have said, a principal appetite of the soul.”