Alright, i've done dmt quite a few times but never with any real guidance. Each time it is more and more extreme and each time i can remember less and less. My first time i took a large dose i had a vision of a giant snake wrapping my feet and pulling me upside down out of my body. I was then sent through this pure white space . . the purest white you could ever imagine. There were two snake statues, as i was moving through this space some sort of relic appeared in front of me, it looked like an urn of some sort with a snake slithering over it as if it were a handle. I am terrified of snakes so i tried to will myself away from it. (by that time i realized i "existed" ) From there i went to a black space that felt warm and there was a fetus ... there was a human baby(my girl is now pregnant, dunno seems weird). It bothered me because there was a sickness in the womb ...was it me? idk there was a sinister undertone to it. The whole thing had a sinister undertone. Can anyone explain what this could mean? Its been bothering me for almost a year.

Also, after that 1st time.EVERY TIME AFTER, and i mean everytime after, I would come into contact with these pure white beings. There were usually about 3 of them and i would feel as if i've met them before (even the 1st time i met them) though they have never spoken to me. Sometimes they would circle me and slap at my face (horrifying? or a message?). On one occasion (my biggest dose every) one of them grabbed me hand in hand and spun me like you would a child. I was face to face with this .... idk energy being? Sometimes i felt comfortable with them like they were happy i was there and other times there was that sinister undertone (glaring at me). To get to their "level" i would have to pass through that same white space. I also believe one of them had sex with me one time. I know it sounds stupid but it was the greatest pleasure i've ever felt in my life. I had a vision on that i was having sex. It was from a 1st person point of view. I opened my eyes expecting to have an erection but there was no physical reaction to the "mental orgasim"

Ive also had some very dark trips before but i'm not going into that. If anyone could help me place meaning to these occurrences i would be eternally grateful. I've never spoken with anyone who could relate to any of this. I've never seen the awesome visuals or any of the common things i wanted to see. I dont regret what i did see im just confused and i cant come up with the proper reasoning myself.

Also, after every trip when i'm coming back down and also before i smoke i start shaking and yawning like crazy. Is that normal?

Yawning and shaking is normal. Teary eyes also, in case you get that too.

It's hard to give meaning to a bunch of visions without understanding your life's circumstances. In the end only you can really put everything into perspective. Especially since with a lot of trips the main information lies in the emotional tones of what is happening, and that is something - as you will surely agree - that is very hard to communicate to others.

That being said you have some very interesting symbolism in your visions. Now symbols can be a way for our subconscious to speak with us, as in dreams. But what these symbols are associated with in our minds can be different from person to person, depending on culture and personality / personal experiences. So I can give you some general brain-storming like ideas that you can ponder upon and then discard once you realize they are irrelevant, or perhaps they can help you develope a way to decipher your visions for yourself. Who knows.

So you have:

The snake. The snake in christian culture represents forbidden knowledge, seduccion, lies, duality. In other cultures, such as south-american native indian, the snake can be a symbol of a portal between two worlds or even a symbol of fertility. In India there is the kundalini snake, coiled and waiting to be awakened, represnding desire and transformative energy. The kundalini energy or snake is supposed to move upward through the spine at awakening. Some famous symbols with snakes include the oroboros - a symbol of eternal cycles - and caduceus (the staff with the two serpents) - a symbol of the God Hermes, the messenger of the gods, guide of the dead and protector of merchants, shepherds, gamblers, liars, and thieves.

You, being pulled upside down. This reminds me of the Tarot card "the hanged man", which in turn reminds me of the story of Odin who hanged himself from a tree to learn the art of the runes. It's a transformative symbol from this perspective and a symbol of sacrifice - yourself onto yourself. Upside down means all your belongings fall from your pockets and you bring nothing with you.

The featus. Featus obviously symbolizes the beginning of life, or the beginning of something. Like a seedling. Something that will grow. There are people that believe that we all have some kind of a birth-trauma, that affects our lives negatively. Darkness and warmth are probably what you would experience being an unborn. The moment of birth must be a devastating event, having to leave that comfortable place and enter a world of bright lights and cold and hunger and needs.

Feeling of sickness. Something is not right or may not turn out the way you want it. Or if it's memories, something didn't go the way you wanted it. This is something very personal and impossible for me to give you anything to go on. You have to figure out what this sickness is, where does this feeling stem from, what does it lead to. Probe, be honest with yourself, be fearless in your search, be loving with whatever you find. Repressed emotions might appear as horrifying and repulsive and alien, but if we don't integrate them and bring them back into the light so to speak, they will weaken us and create resistances in our life and pursuit of happiness.

slap in the face: a wake up call?


These are just some possibilities of interpreting the symbols in a somewhat separate manner. And reading symbols is just one way of many how to deal with experiences. So whatever you make of it, don't let it be your only approach to figuring this out. The more ways you look at your experience, the more you can learn from it. Perhaps there's no, "oh-this-is-what-it-meant" kind of moment, but that doesn't mean that you can't benefit from practicing self-reflection using the visions as a basis.

Good luck.

Thank you i had no idea about the deeper meanings of the various things. I just always thought of snakes as evil. Plus i'm afraid of them. This may cloud my judgement in thinking they want to do nothing but trick/manipulate me for their own pleasure. Also, every time i'm catapulting through that white void on my way to the white beings i will get a glimpse of a pure white idk "naga" looking being but it will be just a fleeting glimpse. i definitely think there is something to this serpent thing i'll definitely have to do more research on the matter.

So could the white beings that i've been seeing actually be my own emotions or some other form of consciousness that feeds off of them?

And every time i would feel as if i didn't belong there and it wasn't right for me to be there. Maybe that stemmed from my own anger/insecurity problems that i face everyday.

Thank you i will give this more thought.

That radiant sky-woman you may have closely met with, we call them houris, but here on the nexus we/they/them/ have asigned other names to them. As each culture has their own set of names. We don't know what that encounter means for you.

That radiant sky-woman you may have closely met with, we call them houris, but here on the nexus we/they/them/ have assigned other names to them. As each culture has their own set of names.

This is definitely interesting i'm looking more into your explanations.