Aug 9, 2014, 2:30 PM
Outside - warn, sunny, pleasant - heading into a supermoon
195# male 45 yo
Last Meal: Some oatmeal and blueberries about 10:30am
Dose: 688mg Mescaline HCl (7.7mg/kg) taken in three capsules 20 minutes apart. ⅓ 2:30 - ⅓ 2:50 - ⅓ 3:10
T+ :30 We could definitely feel the comeup starting.
T+1:30 The trip was really starting to take off
At this point along with feeling pretty warm and spacey I experienced issues with the regulation of my body temperature (up down up down, etc). I also experienced a lot of twitching and just felt like writhing so I laid down for a bit and did both.
Tried to smoke a little cannabis (not thinking correctly that it might help with the physical issues)… leading to…
T+3.5 PURGE! - about 2-3 times. I felt a little better and holy mackerel… it really kicked stuff into overdrive. It didn't take long for the discomfort to return and I was back to laying down a lot - trying to ignore it.
T+4 - 5 I'm pretty sure I'm Peaking? I was so high and so uncomfortable that I couldn't tell what the hell was going on… but I was smiling.
Mentally, there was beauty, both in OEVs, CEVs and just the overall demeanor of the experience. OEVs are geometric but not-equal sided shapes. They're very organic - very incalculably geometric. They are super-soft, and super-saturated. Everything looks like a photo from 1974 only WAY trippier.
When I could physically relax/be still - good depth was achieved. As is the case for many of my journeys, I found myself involved in many conversations with my "infinite other selves" for lack of a better descriptor. Common themes of love and connectedness were discussed. My understanding of human motivation was challenged and adjusted. My appreciation for the trials and tribulations of all humans' endeavors was elevated and I found myself feeling ashamed for recent bouts of impatience and being over-judgemental.
T+9 I took 2 IBUPROFIN - headache was coming on
T+9-10.5 - laid in tent - lasers & smoke machine - another shitty idea...
T+9.5-10.5 More PURGING, sweating, shivering. I tried to take sips of water - no luck - came right back up.
T+10.5 (1am-ish) My buddy's wife took him home and I hobbled up to bed. I was scared to do anything but lay still for fear of more purging - which had exhausted me. I thought it'd take a while, but within 5 min I was fast asleep and stayed that way until 7:30am
Overall, I had a beautiful but rough experience. (probably a lot of it my own fault) It was just really difficult to let go a lot of the time because of the physical discomfort. I learned the very hard way. Pre-hydrate and fast like a zealot… no eating, drinking, no cannabis - at all on these high doses. Although I don't know… I think I would have purged anyway eventually, but not nearly as badly or for as long. Medicine… at this level that's exactly what it is. I went in with a respectful intent and felt that it was a rewarding experience, but not fun, cool, or necessarily enjoyable per se.
This occurred with one of my best friends. We both experience similar physical discomfort. We switched between lying down in a tent and sitting around the fire for almost all of the experience. It was a nice blend of social and very individual experience.
Overall - I'm glad I went this far. That being said, I can't EVER see doing this dose again…. I think I would go ⅔ as far for my next try at a visionary dose.
I'm also finding that I enjoy smaller doses as "helper" doses with other substances. It seems to improve/insure disposition to some degree like MDMA. For instance, I find combining with L seems pretty similar to a candy flip IMHO.
A large thanks to all my cacti brothers and sisters here. Without the shared knowledge and experience from all of you this wouldn't have been possible.
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