Hey Hypernoid, my account is newly registered so unfortunately... I don't possess magickal messaging powers yet! *shakes fist*... That being said, I did recieve your message, I'm just unable to send you one back.. yet! Just wanted to make sure that you know I'm not ignoring you.

This thread, these comments, have helped me so much in the last few days. Thank you all <3

I was poured through a field of symbols, vibrantly illuminated by an energetic bliss, like electrified syrup. I melted through the grid of unconsciousness in millions of pieces, aqueous fractiles of Me dripped like polarized honey, fusing back to whole on the other side. I had woke up in surreality, only to discover that not only was I more than I could possibly dream, but I was electric life, liquified energy, hovering gentley in the rumbling silence of a cool cosmic breeze...
I noticed something different on this journey... The entities that normally approach me, or simply just notice me, did nothing of the sort... They were present, as per always, but this time, they did not approach. They left me to ride softly in place on the absence of gravity as the sudden awareness of my surrounding profoundly stretched my jaws wide open in awe. The gift had suddenly emerged in ecstatic bewilderment..
I was welcome.
I was permitted. I had been granted a view of what impossibly could not be misconstrued.
It was their home.
And I had never felt so welcome, so un-alone.
This was from where I always yearned. They let me feel the knowledge of how souls gently burn, as they soared out of prisms, and left me to learn.
They allowed me to watch as they soared on crystallized beams, to crystallized cities, reflecting more fractiles of Me.
Here I floated softly on thin sheets of translucent time as they moved from shard to shard on a separate plane of existence . I felt light years slower, as they raced in light speed lines , but generously they permitted my eyes to still see... The one simple truth, and how complex it could be.
I was a simple observer to the most complex reality, a spiritual transendance into spirituality.
I un-learned my existence,
I re-discovered my life,
I searched for the question,
And neglected the answers,
Then discovered the genius that's born from the loss of naive assumptions that arrogance once bore.
I soared threw a miasma of sparkling, tingling, thick as molasses, energy fields, blanketed by such an emotional bliss that I thanked God out loud that they had let me tour this world hassle free.
They did not come up close and personal as per always. I was left to myself, a simple and simultaneously complex observer, but they were also carefully observing me from afar. I saw them from a distance, as they did me. From miles away, as energy, soaring from one crystalline structure to the next, as I remained hovering, entranced in awe. Each structure crackled the full spectrum of all color imaginable, and had spikes of energy in perfect symmetry that shot out from domes of liquid light.... Each dome was a world, full of us, everyone, all together, me and you, and WE collectively united as part of the entire universe.
Every single person, every single smile, face, pain, misery, laughter, sneeze, cough, everything we are, came together as one thing- exploding like a slow motion bomb of sticky warm electric tingles... throu my entire existence, permitting me to see us all how we truly are.
One.
The knowledge and comfort from this discovery built up inside me as bliss, causing breathlessness, spawning a sigh of relief that blew from my lips like the first, and only galactic breeze... It exhaled from me, as I exhaled - and it rippled the fabric of time..
Before my eyes it looked as if I had tossed a small stone into a vertically positioned pool of translucent, silver mercury...
The circular ripples raced outward and washed over the entire universe before my eyes, surpassing the ever-expanding galaxy...
A gentle demolition of the dream that I intuitively knew was more real than I believed, and I became aware that there was a purpose, a prophetic reason that I was there....
...Then all of the crystalline domes, shattered into what looked like diamond shards with wings of pure magnetic fields. These wing-ed beings, then all flew, symmetrically outward in every direction possible- like an extreme, slow-motion energy bomb of light.
I wasn't there for just simple celestial swoon- I was the tool they needed to use, my awe-stricken emotions had unhinged the cocoon. A symbiotic metamorphosis, evolutionarily in tune- My destiny revealed as the hyper intelligent flew. I was brought here to realize what before I couldn't dream. Im so much more than what I once thought of me. I am like you, and everything that needs, I am also needed, a necessary thing. Exactly myself, created in need and perfectly designed for what the universe needs...
And silence was taken by the sound of a song rarely heard... The perfect pitch notes that resonate the knowledge of finding one's self and one's reason for being.
It gave off the most soothing, warm, deep, from-the-beginning-of-everything hum. A sigh, a moan radiating throughout my body so intensely I became soaked in sweat, my temperature soaring to a degree that I've never felt before. I was so hot I broke out into a rash of cold chills, but it was so comfortable I could feel icy tears pour down my face- as the most genuine, peaceful smile I have ever stretched across my skull was finally born... a smile of blissful contentment, for I finally knew exactly who is Me for the very first time.
I felt like crackling primordial ooze, and I resonated an energy that gave off a sound, that vibrated my soul.
I heard the sound of myself being found... And the finally begun, I had awoke from the numbing, slumber of being numb.
Then, everything was released from my view in the most peaceful cosmic burp. Everything burst apart like sparks, and then swirled around like light speed lightning bugs caught in a galactic whirl pool, finally forming an exact replica of what I had been previously learned to believe to be a black hole. The image slowly traveled further away from me until I felt as if I was trying to look through a pinhole of light.
It felt like I had traveled through eternity and gazed upon the other side, and it felt familiar. The infinite burn for comfort, the infinite search for a place unknown, but perfectly imagined. Like it's a place from where we all go, or come from, either way, it felt like home.
I had been permitted a glimpse of what I believe is our true final destination. A view of a well kept secret whispered softly in genuine truth from the fleeting sound of ego and pride scurrying away in fear..
I swear on my agnostic soul, there is something more to this life than what we think we are living. There is a whole plane of existence that is only available to those brave enough to un-learn science, un-learn religion, un-learn everything that has ever been taught as a definite answer. To acknowledge all previous learned facts are nothing more than fictitious comfort to quell the fear of the un-answerable, just to have an answer- even if the answer is based on naive assumptions.
The freedom in finding the worth that we seek through all our lives is more peaceful than peace defined as the non-existence of pain.
I have found my soul, I know why I remain.
I am here to be free from the chains of knowing true pain, I am not here to endure, but to conquer what hurts, and to set free my mind to discover the truth- We are only free if we can truly be exactly what was intended for us to be.
Exactly what the Universe needs.
And that could be just a simple thing, or a profound evolution only found in dreams..
It's whatever we wish, if we set ourselves free from the chains that bind us down to simplicity. The definition of Us, that is definitely not WE, the prison we've defined in sordid history, as a being that slaves and collects coins out of greed, and breaks it's back for more stuff we believe to be necessity. Re-define yourself, and everything that you once believed. Unchain your soul from the definition of WE, because what we have learned to be humanity, is just an infectious, learned, crippling disease.
Humanity is more than most of us percieve...
It's a complex universe of which we all are infinitely together-
-as one.
We are as atoms bound together forming a massive system of cooperative life....
We are all part of something that is more spectacular than any ideal that has ever been conjured up in the minds of those over zealous and fanatical for answers...
We are all cells in a vast organism that existed before time.
Something that wasn't created, it just simply existed, long before we entered the scene.
We are cosmic dust particles collaberating together to form the universe.
We are stars.
We are whole planets.
We are comets.
We are definitely one.
Without US, there is no them.
Without them, there is no US.
Without you, there is no me.
Because we are literally everything, simultaneously, crystalline, beautiful electric soup, churning in space, in time, rippling dimensions, exploding into stars, planets, and all things that we previously thought were unreachable.
There is a tool that allows us temporary access. With the right amount of patience, and the right amount of concern, we can tour the heavens easier than a space shuttle, UFO, or satellite...
We can crash through the gate, enter hyper space, travel beyond the reaches of any vessle, and know with absolute certainty that there is life in other realms of existence, in the folds of the nether, somewhere on the aether's grid, they are there, and they are also part of the collective known as One.
Be kind to yourself, and re-define this world back to it's true form.
Magical.
Un-learn what's been assumed.
Un-learn what's presumed as fact.
Un-learn the answers and re-learn the questions.
Un-learn the truth, and re-discover genius.
I have awoke to the best of my ability, in the well rested, present tense of me.
Before the answers were so simple, they were a collective agreement, simply settled on by those too tired to continue the journey of wondering why.
But what an honest miracle to wake up and know nothing.
To be awake during a dream.
To dream, wide awake, enduring the absence of absolute truth.
Thank God I have been given this gift.
Thank God I am not alone.
There is no one alone.
We are never alone.
I cannot be alone when we are one in the same.
Because I am not just me. I am you, and we are everything. Everywhere, all the time. Soaring in a slow motion, crystalline explosion, of perfectly crackling energy.
I feel free, for the first time ever.
And I know what it's like to breathe....
Celebrate what we are.
EVERYTHING.

It has been 2 years since my last DMT voyage, your post brought me back to that same exact headspace I was in after realizing "oh wow... its all true...". Thank you so much brother.