wakeup wrote:
I've yet to breakthrough on DMT though I've had some intense and profound sessions that changed how I look at psychedelics capabilities as well as consciousness in general. Funny thing is I started my first two sessions with DMT with 50mg doses which were very pleasant. I then started trying lower doses around 25mg and even 15mg once. And they've all been difficult trips with a dark feeling. The fear from these lower dose sessions has me hesitant to up the dose back to where my trips were pleasant. Ive never used chanting though I've heard it suggested by McKenna as well as others. I will try this with my first changa session shortly if things get crazy.
I thank you for showing interest in my report, i am very grateful for you sharing your experience with the Entheogenic substances you've used, as well as your alteration in perspectives. If you were looking for any advice from someone who fears DMT and other Entheogen's like nothing else, i can say this, you may take it or leave it, if any resonates I'm glad to help. The other night i was researching mantras too reduce the fear before trips, i've been using two which have strongly resonated for me "Nothing to prove, nothing to fear, experience the bliss that resides here" as well as "Yes, I love you." Simple but they work
I will say, i have turned to a powerful Eastern philosophical view and it has had a powerful influence on my experiences. Alan Watts is a great philosophical genius who expresses Eastern Philosophy with a sophisticated twist, might be worth listening to his philosophy, although i don't recommend doing this whilst tripping on DMT hehe. Deva Premal - Gayatri Mantra, is beautiful, i also came by this when i was looking into mantras, learning what it means, as well as the way she communicates it was amazing, the experience you just read about, i had that song playing and i was singing and humming along as i tripped with white and gold light shining from within. I will say, ultimately bro, it is the focused mind that i've learnt everything expands from. The stillness which you are, that Eastern Philosophy teaches, is in you, it is connecting to that, which will enable you to be at peace within yourself. It is the easiest thing you'll ever do, but trying to do it is hard, because of the desire to attain something thats already there. But after a year and a half of meditating i've personally begun to experience the effects of a still mind… And bro, the trips i had without a still mind were painful, read my repetitive sexual experience trips, you can tell I'm in pain, constantly asking why me, why this, why's this happening - I note that a fellow Nexian said "You ask why me, i ask why not" - this helped me profoundly on my journey as i came to understand what he meant. And when the mind isn't still, for me, i become depressed, and that was a reflection of the repetitive trips. But with persistence, practice and a lot of mistakes, i've learnt how to be still and experience this moment, that which the meditation will help teach you, and i say i, and these experiences, to try and give an example of what i personally have done. Its finding your meditation bro, what works for you, if sitting and breathing isn't your think, cool, what is? Running, Drawing, being in nature? Whatever works for you, do it, you know who you are, deep within, you're simply playing the game you don't know, which is the whole point. Much love, i hope your journey may be beautiful and prosperous, pain is gain, love is light, you are beautiful and loved!