I recently made a 10x salvia extract for the first time, it was so simple and easy that I started doubting if I'd done it right and thought that it probably hadn't worked well but boy was I wrong..
I recently had a bit of a difficult LSD experience which I'm trying to make sense of but I'm not really in a place in life where I have a lot of time to spend thinking deeply about things and I thought that salvia might give a headspace where I could maybe get a bit of insight and move forward with new energy to work on the things in my life that I need to be working on.
I only smoked 2 hits before realising that I can't be smoking this on my own and here's why:
The first hit I smoked around 40mg and the effect really creeped in, I felt as if my conciousness had teleported to another dimension briefly and the perception of my body formed into a sort of wheel which started turning through different dimensions until it turned into ours and into my body again (like the end position of the wheel was inside my body and I just kind of fell into place again) but as I came back to this reality I still felt the push of the wheel as if it wanted to continue pushing me through to another reality but it felt like this one would be lost and destroyed if I let it (and somehow I thought my friend that I had just been skyping with would die) so I desperately tried to make contact with him as the effects wore off.
The second time was truly profound and I don't really know how I feel about it..
this time I smoked 0.5 and as I lay back, rather seemlessly I was in another dimension or another existance but I had no thought in my mind that I'd taken something and it was very real. I was in some sort of warehouse and several other people were walking alongside me talking about various things that I don't remember and I walked over to this box which contained a bunch of slides and as I was flicking through them I noticed my room (the place where I was lying down) was in one of these slides and once again I felt like that dimension would be lost forever so I stepped into the slide, stepping back into my body and I was seriously confused by how certain I was that what I had just experienced was real.. I was kind of disturbed at the thought that there is another universe which I felt I belonged to but now I was here and what the hell is this existence that I'm in now actually is if that other world was real. I think I shouted out 'WHAT IS THIS?' and then became very afraid that someone outside had heard me and were on their way in to check up on me.
The experiences themselves weren't disturbing, hostile or uncomfortable in anyway but it's just how it relates to my life that truly has me stumped.
I feel fine now, better than I did before infact. They were 2 very short experiences but they crush most other psychedelic experiences I've had (bar dmt) in how profound it was. I've read a lot regarding Salvia but I feel like this was almost nothing like what I've read! I guess that's due to how difficult it is to describe the experiences we have.
I probably wont work with salvia more until I've gotten used to the effects with the presence of a sitter.
Thanks for reading