So I procured my first batch of dmt through a friend of a friend(chemists are awesome). Now that I actually have it I've been really hesitant to go for it. I know I should really get a mg scale but I eyeball ed my first dosage and it turned out pretty good. I need to improve my vamping technique but that's a trial and error/ learning curve. I vaped it on top of a pile of ash in my water pipe. My first few hits didn't produce much vapor or effect but on my third one I got a pretty good blast of vapor. I'm not going to guess at dosage with an eye balled amount. It was sub breakthrough though. I
In about 5-10 seconds I heard a ringing and felt a rapid head rush come on and I remembered to set my pipe down and I layed back on my bed. I remember crossing my legs as this sensation if extreme heaviness set on me and I started freaking out a little bit thinking to myself "Jesus what did I get myself into" as the effects came on stronger. I talked to myself a little bbit telling myself it's just the dmt it will be alright and that I did this for a reason. I calmed down and felt a pulling upward sensation like my consciousness was being lifted out of my body, all while my eyes were closed. I never got any strong visuals, even closed eye. It was mostly sensation. As I peaked with that pulling sensation I got a little bit of euphoria and I turned to my wife and told her there was nothing to be afraid of, it's peaceful once you come to terms with it. And thats pretty much it. It left me excited as to the possibilities but a little nervous at my ability to assuage my own fears during a future trip, as from what I've been reading my first trip was a relatively mild non breakthrough.

Just the shore of an entire infinte large ocean. Glad to hear you got your feet wet! I know that feeling too on the come up as well, i say to myself "You know what you did..." lol makes me feel better.

It only gets more intense, way more visuals (man, the visuals), and surrendering to the exp is key. Just let go, if you try to hold to this "reality" then you get some fear and anxiety imo.

Welcome to the nexus! Lots of good people here.

It's an amazing experience. The best chance I got was definitely checked by fear. Next time we'll be ready. Haha. Love and Peace are definitely critical!

Yeah I've been worried that with my lack of experience in other lesser hallucinogens it would be too much for me, I keep wondering if I'm truly ready for the journey between worlds. I just have this deep set fear that it's somehow going to break me, psychologically speaking. I am a bit of a control freak myself to an extent and I think that's where my fear originates, the loss of control. But I think I'm on the right track in managing my natural fears for an optimal experience. I wish my wife was more understanding. She smokes cannabis with me but doesn't "get" the desire to explore deeper, to find more meaning to life. I honestly think she could use a powerful molecule experience more than I, but she had a bit of a rough experience on a bit of salvia we tried once that I can't seem to convince her that dmt is in a completely different ballpark.

Nice. Most of my experiences were like that... Until my last one. Read my thread I created on it here https://www.dmt-nexus.me...aspx?g=posts&t=57399

My very last attempt showed me those small threshold doses ARE NOT what it's actually like. They prepared me for nothing.