Since I'm no longer a new member I feel like this report is better here than it is in welcome discussion. Enjoy
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I've been completely obsessing over DMT lately guys haha. It's not really a bad thing because it's made me a much better and happier person all around than I ever have been in my life. However, sometimes talking about it too much becomes a small issue with my girl She does understand and loves DMT too but it just simply hasn't hit her as deep as it's hit me... Especially last night. And I really NEED to share this with you all because I need to tell SOMEONE and I don't feel like possibly getting a weird answer from Eve....
Last night I had my first solo Changa session in over a month. I decided this was something I needed to do to straighten out some things in my life and I was to do so in silent complete darkness. To prepare, I tidied up my room, turned on some aboriginal music, smudged my room, and stated my intention to the changa blend. "please, please show me the direction. Show me what I need to do. Take me as far as possible" I sandwitched like 20mg of freebase DMT between two layers of 1:1 harmala extract from the caapi vine : NN-DMT.
I knew I wanted to have a breakthrough right off the bat this time. I took my first hit, held it, exhaled, and immediately dove in for a second. The first wave started coming and I knew I only had about five minutes before I was gone. I took the second hit, and exhaled and torched the rest of the bowl with the third and final massive toke. I got under my covers and closed my eyes as the most profound and incredible experience of my entire life unfolded.
The first thing that happened, was that in the center of my vision appeared a black panther head staring at me imprinting my soul with intention.The head began splitting like an amoeba and turned into a thousand petaled jaguar lotus spinning and morphing. These patterns completely took over me. Everywhere I looked, there were folding surfaces with the most perfect and smooth blends of shapes and colors. The motion was so smooth and sexy that it was almost like someone drying a bedsheet out on the line on a windy summer day. I started to feel like I was lifting up toward these patterns and all of the sudden they engulfed the back of me too. I noticed I couldn't percieve my heartbeat or breathing much anymore and I just surrendered to the beauty. I started to feel a strong surge of divine energy building in my heart. It rose to my mouth as a bubble and came out as chaotic ecstatic laughter and gasps for air and "OH MY GOD"s. It was at this time that I began to feel the presence of a beautiful, and I mean BEAUTIFUL, divine feminine being. The mother and the healer. The reason for my entire existence... Mother Ayahuasca.
From the patterns, I was able to percieve snakes starting to slither through them like it was a maze. These snakes were coated with a holographic language that not only sat on their skin but projected a few inches above. I don't know if they were shining down on the skin or vice versa but these things were just unbelievable. They made this crazy environment their home. These snakes then slowly turned into a womanly figure made out of different lines of light that were all moving and working in perfect harmony. I felt the entire rainforest inside me, and I could've sworn there were branches and leaves growing through my veins.(I'm in my bed, mind you)
I laid there in awe, as she did the most sexy, beautiful dance that I have ever seen in my life. She had almost seduced me and I felt like an 8 year old with his first crush. My heart was BEAMING at the sight of her. She then swept me right up, and took me through this environment into another, but different room. This room still had it's crawling geometric patterns everywhere and hyperspace language written on the walls, but it was like infinitely high, and full of holographic crystals and pyramids. I got the sensation that I was inside a star floating in the middle of the whole universe.
Once we were in here, she entered through my crown. Yes, she ENTERED MY BODY. What happened while she was possessing me was so personal and deep that It is hard for me to tell people. I felt her moving through my entire body like a warm, healing fluid and felt as if I was a child who got his boo-boo kissed by his mommy. This was my divine mommy. While inside me, I became the observer of a conversation between her and my soul. My actual soul. It was NOT "me" as in the sense of myself that I carry on a day to day basis, but moreso as if I had discovered something very, very ancient. That's actually something that kept coming into my awareness was the word "ancient."
She was telling me things like, "You're the most perfect son you can possibly be." "You're helping so many people and you're such a beautiful soul" When she was telling me these things, I felt my heart open up like a vortex and beam out and I cried and cried and cried and rolled around on my bed in pleasure. She moved her entire being down to my sacral area and I felt that also vortex and beam out. I shrieked and shivered as I had a female orgasm (Don't ask me how I know this, but I just do) After opening me up, she began running through my veins and caressing me with the most deep and passionate love that I have ever felt. There is no other love greater than this. Divine, unconditional love and total forgiveness was the message I was recieving. The opening of my sacral area made me so sensitive to her running through my entire being. I was MOANING in pleasure and rubbing my own thighs and rolling around on my bed. It literally felt like she went inside of me and had sex with my soul. It was absolutely amazing.
This all went on for about 15 minutes, and then I felt like my buttox got sucked into my bed and I felt her exit though my root into the earth, leaving me in utter shock and awe about what had just happened to me. This began a brainstorming session like no other. I literally thought about my entire lifespan and how every single thing makes sense all in five minutes. I then started thinking about the Nexus to be honest. I was just thinking about how this is really something else, a whole different level, and the users of it are all incredibly passionate and respectful of it. I felt a deep sense of connectivity and empathy toward every member on here for being such a great community. It's really helped me out so much and has given me an outlet to talk about my obsession for this precious gift that we have learned to make our eternal lover.