First off, a little background info. I'm 24 years old, i've been diagnosed with ADHD and OCD, but after really looking into it i believe i have Aspergers or am atleast on the Autistic Spectrum. And so i've wondered a few times before, if i may respond differently to Ayahuasca than others do, especially considering how Psychedelics affect everyone differently according to body/brain chemistry.
Ayahuasca acts like a stimulant on me. And especially considering the MAO-A inhibition, mixed with the DMT, the DMT seems to provide the "psychostimulant" effects, while the MAO-A inhibition contributes by allowing the buildup of neurotransmitters, like Serotonin, Dopamine and Norepinephrine.
From wikipedia - "Stimulants produce a variety of different kinds of effects by enhancing the activity of the central and peripheral nervous systems. Common effects, which vary depending on the substance and dosage in question, may include enhanced alertness, awareness, wakefulness, endurance, productivity, and motivation, increased arousal, locomotion, heart rate, and blood pressure, and the perception of a diminished requirement for food and sleep. Many stimulants are also capable of improving mood and relieving anxiety, and some can even induce feelings of euphoria."
It's almost like Ayahuasca enhances me, it boosts my confidence, changes my personality def for the better, lifts my mood, makes me feel more whole/in my body, i feel human, there's the beta-endorphins and oxytocin, it increases my dexterity (normally i have motor impairments and clumsiness but Aya seems to improve that), it gives me energy and motivation, i feel more manly, mature and i am capable of feeling love (probably the oxytocin), my OCD also kicks into gear and i start organizing things and cleaning, my use of language improves and becomes articulate, i also have rhythm and can actually dance. There's probably more i'm forgetting about right now but you get the gist of it. Edit: I knew there was something i was forgetting, i also sing incredibly better, something i could never do while sober, and in another language no less (when the only language i know is english).
When thinking about this from a purely/truly medicinal perspective (NOT recreational), i keep wondering what it is that i'm missing mentally/physically, that this stuff seems to provide me. It's like, normally/sober i'm me, but i don't like the sober me, the sober me has too many issues both physical and mental, that get's in the way of me living a productive day to day life. But while on Ayahuasca, i'm more human/whole than i've ever been in my life, i just feel so "normal".
I was born wired the way i am, when i was a kid things were fine even though i had some issues no doubt, but once i became a teenager, my quality of life started declining and declining and once i turned 22 and found Ayahuasca (or it found me), i was just blown away at what all i was missing from my life that Ayahuasca was able to provide me.
And it pisses me off that the medical community decries Psychedelics, because if i could take something on a daily basis that would enhance my life, i totally would. It would be way better being able to live my life to the fullest rather than being who i am when sober. Just to make it clear though, i'm not using or suggesting to use Ayahuasca as a daily medicine, it wouldn't work because of the variability and duration, but i'm thinking what if a medicine could be made, whether Psychedelic or non-Psychedelic, that could do for me similarly to what Ayahuasca does? kinda like a soma, in a way.
Edit: I also smoke Cannabis with my Ayahuasca, so idk if that would play into much but i feel the Cannabis does enhance the Ayahuasca for me.