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hardboiled wrote:Ooo man.  Awesome post Japansage.  I know exactly how that feels when you wanna be human again and how happy you are when you finally return after eons pass...and you come back into your human existence. Funny how as human i wanna know, i wanna feel, see what being ¨IT¨ is like, while still attached to this bipedal form. As soon as i wake up in to it i realize how boring, depressing, lonely it is to be ¨IT¨, to be everything and nothing. After this it's time to go back to sleep again and imagine my self back into existence again. Just an IDEA. I am just an idea of my self. Time goes by and i forget what i have experienced and i eat my own oath, not to do it any more or at least not any time soon. So i start to crave for a ride once again. Like Tattvamasi said curiosity killed the cat. In this case i wonder how many lives i have left in me  Haha man cheers, thats pretty much exactly it. You spend hours, years reading up on the possibilites of hyperspace, you want to experience it, become it, eventually it happens and when you open pandora's box part of you thinks 'fuck, ignorance is bliss man - do I even want to know this raw truth? Can i deal with it? I'm an idiot for thinking my brain could handle this knowledge, how naive i was..." etc etc Then Im sure in a couple weeks as the curiosity comes back I will also 'eat my oath' 
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It's great to see that you are taking a humble approach to the stuff! Curiosity is a tricky one,though. Taking some time to relax and digest after one of my heavier experiences did some good. It let me step back and sort through some of the weirdness. When the time is right you'll find that curious cat pawing at the dangling yarn. Sometimes it's good for a change. Other times it isn't.
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I bow for the brave person who is ready to step out heavily of the comfort zone to actually and factually deal with existence intensity. It makes for a new family feeling and a new form of love, to share "unspeakable". Students of friendship with madness and the embracing of the torn. Brave people, frontier shock-wave dodging soldiers. My utterly respect to you all. 
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Posts: 83 Joined: 31-May-2014 Last visit: 24-Aug-2014 Location: Scotland
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Nice words man! 
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