First off whoever is reading this, id like to say greetings, and if you would, please read on. I know my story is in its infancy but to me this was the moment everything else ive done in my life has led up to, and it was the most important thing ive ever experienced.
First let me give you a short background on me. Ive been working with psychedelics since i was about 14, at first they where just fun things that me and my friends would do when we could find them, but after more experimentation with other substances, i had lost my path. Eventually me and my group of young friends took a turn for the worst, many of us went down the wrong road, and a few of my closest brothers and sisters have passed from using the wrong substances. I was on this same journey until one day, i had a moment of clear thinking, and i decided to turn my life around. This was incredibly difficult due to a heroin addiction and very poor life choices up until that moment, but after a week on my couch, puking, screaming, and withdrawing cold turkey, i started to find my way back again. I started working, and doing jiu jitsu and muay thai, and eventually i started to explore the psychedelics that had showed me so much as a teenager. I was living in san diego at the time after i had moved away from my hometown in Pennsylvania, with my best friend from as long as i can remember. He was involved in the same behaviors that i was but unfortunetly he did not recieve the same guidance. After 7 years of living in california i decided enough was enough and i moved back home, and shortly after i recieved the call that my best friend, and my brother, had died during a fire, most likely from his inability to get himself to safety due to the amounts of opiates in his system. This was an event ill never forget.
Without going into to much detail, since then ive become a much better person, i keep my body strong and my mind clean. I practice martial arts and try my best to always spread positivity wherever i go. I believe completing this turnaround, and evolving as a human, encouraged life to grant me the greatest gift i could have ever hoped to recieve.
I had always read about dmt, and ive even had the chance to do it in the past, but i turned it down due to not feeling right about it at the time, This all changed last friday. Thursday night a good friend of mine stayed at my house and brought some dmt with him, he knew i was eager to try it as ive asked him about it before, and that night we loaded up the water pipe and i took my first journey, now at the time i wasnt sure what to expect, and the effects where incredible, i saw so many different colors and patterns that i could barely comprehend what had happened, but i also had stayed grounded and in my body the entire time, when i came back i knew that i would have to try it again. Luckily my friend had thought the same thing, so on to friday night
After work me and my friend had a couple beers with my boss (im the head brewer at a local brewery in the area) and after leaving we both walked to my house again to embark on our journey. I remember washing my hands before going to the couch to start, and thinking, tonight im going to blast off. This was a complete understatement.
My friend had loaded my bong with an unmeasured amount of leaf and dmt, pulled it, cleared it, and layed back on my couch, i took the bong from him, put some leaf back into the slide, and i put what i had thought looked like a big amount of very white, fluffy, dmt on top, I remember looking at it and thinking "wow, that looks like a lot" and then something came over me and i scooped some more and put it on. After completely milking my bong and pulling the slide, i hurried to get the bong on the table and as soon as i layed back on my couch i began to feel taken over, everything turned into geometric patterns, and i started to feel a huge smile grow on my face...then i exhaled
This is my first time trying to put this into written word so im sorry if im terrible at it, please let me know if theres anything i can improve on. After i had exhaled i heard the most beautiful laughter id ever heard in my life, and i remember flying backwards at what seemed to be a speed i had never felt before, i noticed a huge sphere was pushing me backwards through space and eventually i began to feel strength that i had no idea existed, i began to squeeze the sphere with every ounce of energy i had, and it got smaller, and smaller, to the point where i was squeezing with what felt like my legs and arms together in ways they wouldnt normally bend. Then i hit the point where the ball wouldnt condense any further, and i stopped applying pressure and let it go...there was an enormous explosion of light, and love, so big it wouldnt surprise me if the big bang was something similar, after that i went somewhere else, i couldnt comprehend where i was, what i was seeing, what i was hearing, but i did know one thing, this molecule was putting me through the ringer and i was recieving the most important knowledge i could imagine, when i came back i immediately started reciting lessons that i had picked up on, about staying on your path, and not reisting, flowing like a river so you could learn as much as possible while here in this form, and the most important of all, the universe loves us and not only does this thing we call life not end, it doesnt begin, it just is, and its the most magnificent thing possible, whatever created all of this is the most creative, intelligent, loving being/energy/thing that has ever or will ever exist, and we are all made of it. before i came back i had a vision almost like the end of a video game, lights and colors flashing and laughing in the background, and a voice that seemed to say to me, youve made it, this is winning life, and we are glad youve come back to us, now go play and have fun with the rest of your time here.
Its been about a week since this happened to me and im constantly finding myself feeling more connected, and intelligent about the decisions i make and how it affects this incredible thing we are all a part of. This is why ive come here, after reading all of the reports im noticing huge similarities to everyones stories, this is the most incredible thing ive ever been a part of. As part of my life story it is one of my goals to extract and store this amazing molecule, so if someone else is being called to it, i can help them. I will never accept currency for it, ill always let people come to me as opposed to going to others with it, and i hope that life brings me some fellow seekers so i can help them open there eyes as my friend has helped me.
Im sorry if this has been long and hard to read, this is actually the first forum ive been a part of in about 5 years so my story sharing online is definitely not as eloquent as the things ive read here, but please bare with me, im doing my first extract in a week or 2 from now and i look foreward to exploring further and sharing what ive learned with all of you.
whoever is on the other end of this message, know that i love you, and we are all part of the same thing, please allow me to grow as you yourself have grown, and hopefully ill meet you in another place, far far away from our planet...peace and love all
sincerely, humuluslupuluslove