PRE-CONDITIONS
(mind)Set:Good mood but had a dream hangover. Dreamt my sister died.
(physical condition) Set:Excellent
Setting (location):Hostel
time of day: 8:00 in the morning
recent drug use:None
last meal: 7:30 bacon and egg

PARTICIPANT
Gender: male
body weight: 70kg
known sensitivities:
history of use:experienced,First trip with moai and oral DMT

BIOASSAY
Substance(s): Harmala,Rue and DMT freebase
Dose(s): 00 capsule,3 grams,00 capsule ± 100mg
Method of administration:Capsules


EFFECTS
Administration time: T=0:00 For harmala.T=00:30 for rue seeds and 00:45 for DMT
Duration: 4 hours
First effects: T=01:00
Peak: T=01:30-03:30
Come down:T=03:45
Baseline:T=04:30

Intensity (overall): (use HRS-like scale i.e. 0-4: 0 = 3,Intense as can get
Evaluation / notes:Had a time of insanity again.Extreme vasoconstriction,Very dry mouth and throat.

OPTIONAL
Pleasantness: (2)
Implesantness: (4)
Visual Intensity: (4)
.Heavy visual distortion
.Auditory halucinations
.tactile halucinations


AFTER-EFFECTS
Hangover: Headache till next morning
Afterglow:Happiness, appreciated life more


REPORT 30 minutes after eating the gel cap of harmala, I decided rather have too much than too little and ate another 3 grams of Syrian rue seeds. At approximately 45 minutes after my first harmala dose I ate the 00 gel cap of DMT freebase.

I was chilling in my trip sitters room, his name is Abe. As the ‘tryptamine tremors’ and yawns began I started to become nauseous and a feeling of dread and oppression came over me(I made amistake in not telling him how I felt), so I went to my room and lay down. I wanted to experience the come up with my eyes closed and open my eyes to what I thought would be brilliant world alive with energy. The whole time I kept my eyes closed and slowly the visuals appeared they were first slow and colourless but soon +- 15 mins in I was seeing very vivid CEV’s at this point I wanted to throw up very badly but I hate throwing up more than anything in this world. I held it down and Abe brought me his bin just in case. I remained nauseous for the first half of the trip. As I lay in my bed feeling worse than death knowing I’m in for one hell of a ride, the familiar expansion and contraction of my room began. There was times when I was a giant in matchbox and sometimes a midget in a warehouse. Feeling like I’m getting overwhelmed I stand up and look out the window and I shorten to the point where I don’t have legs anymore and my chin hits the window frame ,out of the fractals a bout of nausea from Satan himself hits me but I hold it down again. In the back of my mind I knew this is my body saying I have had enough DMT but I vomiting was not an option.

I made my way to Abe’s room and he was watching Steins;Gate, the dread and horror in me had grown and I just wanted someone I knew to be around. I sat on his chair while he watched and I just stared blankly at objects, my mind was so filled with thoughts and images I could barely speak. He proposed we go for a nature walk and I said yes. To put on my shoes was the biggest mission of my life and I said to him I can’t go and then laid down again. Abe then said he is leaving me to take care of some business and if I need him I must just call on his phone.

After he left I felt happier and I thought I had reached the peak but NO this was the calm before the storm. As I closed my eyes I was enveloped into the hum of hyperspace and lost myself into thoughts of everything I had ever thought. I could feel my body drifting in and out of hyperspace as the sound waned in the distance .I felt like I had many brains at once each was working in a separate reality or dimension and as I thought something they would all give me different answers of extreme complexity, Eventually I got taken in so far I could not hear the heavy wind outside and was utterly terrified. I could not think a thought because there was no me just an entity in an ocean of ideas and imagery, I had memories of me doing things I’ve never done before, like being a bartender don’t even drink or been behind a bar in my life.

I needed to open my eyes to get some reality back.NO ways!!! When I did I realised my mouth and throat was so dry it felt like it was bleeding, my lips were basically cracking and I was deep underwater and had to focus on breathing. My blanket on top of me was a capsule filled with gel and my skin was slimy and foreign. The room was changing colours and the chair was breathing with life. As soon as I focused on something my eyes would wobble and I could no longer see ,I could not move or keep my eyes open for longer than a few seconds. I would close my eyes or they would roll back and I could feel my other dimension bodies eyes roll back in different directions to.

I thought I was going to die of dehydration since my mouth was so dry and legless me put every ounce of mental power in making it to the tap, my limbs were so stiff from vasoconstriction I could only shuffle and if I stopped focusing on moving my limbs I would be swallowed by the infinity and fall over.

I made it to the tap and to my horror when I opened the tap the water was yellow and sludgy ,but I knew I was on drugs so I drank it and it felt like drinking thick jelly. As I looked in the mirror my face curved inward and turned into a square, my skin was changing colour from brown to pink and out of nowhere I heard talking, a full on conversation ensued and the stunned body of me listened. The dripping tap changed it speed from a drip a minute to a stream of water.

I made it back to my room and I lay down again only to find out I had another hour and a half of this hell left. I knew I was on drugs but it was still so scary and there was nothing I could do to stop this. Even if I somehow managed to read the text on my phone Abe would and could do nothing to help.

I lay down on my bed again and focused on the “Ayam” mantra I use for meditation but as I thought it the infinity inside gobbled it up greedily and I was swept along on an ocean of everything. Here is a generic description form the psychonautwiki.org of what I experienced.The experience of level 8A can be described as the feeling feel of being exposed to an infinite mass of geometry comprised entirely of innately readable geometric representations which simultaneously convey every single internally stored concept, memory, and neurological structure stored within the subconscious mind all at once. This results in a profound and overwhelming sensation which is consistently interpreted by people who undergo it as experiencing the entirety of existence, everything, the universe, all that there ever was and all that there ever will be in a single instant.

This experience is not just perceived as visual data but also physically felt in an incomprehensible level of detail throughout every point across itself as complex and innately understandable tactile sensations which occur across the body. These convey an equal amount of identical information as that which is experienced through one's sense of vision and occurs simultaneously alongside of it.

At the lower side of level 8A, this effect is something that fluctuates wildly and remains neither constant nor consistent in its intensity. Instead it is temporarily triggered by the experience of a concept. For example, if somebody were to say the word “internet” to a person who is currently undergoing this state, they would see the mind's concept of the internet immediately manifested in a geometric form amidst the very centre of their visual field. This form quickly branches out from itself in a fashion similar to an ineffable spider diagram. It expands to envelop the concepts which one associates with the internet and then branches out again to include the concepts one associates with those before repeating the process of branching out further to represent the concepts associated with these ad infinitum. Within 2 - 3 seconds, this exponentially expands within a sudden perceptual flash to include every single internally stored concept within the subconscious memory banks of one's mind simultaneously.

Once this occurs, the sensory overload temporarily disconnects the tripper from their external environment and results in simultaneous ego death before re-stacking them back into the room, until something triggers the process again (usually immediately). The effect snaps trippers in and out of the room repeatedly and the process is triggered continuously. It's worth noting however that at this level it can to a certain extent be held at bay through continuous physical movement. This is because movement stops the process from branching out into everything by not giving the effect the time it needs to lock onto a concept.

Again I managed to come out and open my eyes but this time I got up relatively quickly so I didn’t slip back but my legs were on a mission of their own, they would twitch and fall out from under me. I would tell my leg to move and my arm would move and then my fingers would twitch. The signals were just not going where they needed to go. Again my mouth and throat were immensely dry and I made my way to the tap, but I first had the brainwave of getting water in a jug or container, so I missioned around my room looking for a container but I found none, although there was one jug on my table and a cup on my sidelocker.

After drinking the sludgy water again, I went into what I call dmt insanity, this same mind state happened to me last week. I literally go insane for about an hour then I come down to earth like a rocket. I ended up walking aimlessly into rooms and staring at nothing for long periods of time. My mind would jump in and out the infinity and i struggled to remember what reality I was in. I would walk into the bathroom and then out and then in, over and over. I have almost no control of my body and only if I try very hard can I speak or stop myself from punching windows and breaking things. I shortly returned to baseline and was fine.

However I have a few questions. Is the dry mouth and throat normal? The extreme nausea and the almost crippling vasoconstriction ,my hands looked purple it was so bad, but maybe I was just tripping.

I have decided to explore DMT further In hopes I can tame the infinity inside and use it for good. But next time I will take half a gel cap in lemon juice.