I returned to dmt after finding old bark in the freezer, restarting my interest in this realm. The last couple years I've been experimenting with meditation, lucid dreaming, mushies but there's nothing like the feeling you get before exploring the dmt world. Legs shaking, heart pumping, feeling of being on the edge of a cliff about to jump into the abyss. Now hears a recent experience that kicked my ass. 😁 ps. This us my first post, I've used this board for years but first time I made an account.
I decided to meditate while listening to terence McKenna beforehand. It was his experience with dmt. I tried to open my third eye but could only manifest it as an energy within the mind, no clear opening. I put the hit together and meditated more. Using the recording as background I went into my tripping room, meditated. Deciding to take the hit, I pulled till I could feel the twitch in the back of the throat saying no more. Cleared it and held in the breath till no smoke was visible. It was tasty, I enjoy the taste of my product, never plasticky, almost like a lavender. I could feel the resonating ringing sound that always accompanies the experience begin immediately. Taking the second hit I was slipping away seeing the colors start to meld I blacked out a lil while pulling watching the colors run through my head the red, blue and green separating and melding like the primary's on a tv screen. I checked back into myself to realize I was still pulling, lungs unbelievably full yet feeling like a black hole, I decided to finish the hit to make sure I don't suffocate. a lil smoke escaped while coming to and clearing the bubbler easily. The smoke made me feel dragonic.
After the second huge hit i was able to set it down and blast off. Knowledge was hitting me from every direction telling me the secrets of reality. There were beings increasing the knowledge every second telling me over and over what's wrong, what's right, how they go together. When I say "they tell" It wasn't auditor I saw visual energy knowledge being forcibly injected into my minds eye. Of corse I can't remember all the juicy knowledge. However, I was able to extract that we are the powerful beings and there is another realm that we can experience, one would say a mystical, mathematical, mechanical, yet cartoony world of energy and knowledge. It's a place where your true inner self can be and is reflected on your outer self. The feeling of oneness yet everything is still individual, we are all one organism of smaller organisms. I separated from the matrix creating the illusion of our reality. There are beings, many seemingly troublesome effected our illusion in indirect ways, this made me think of the movie dark city. Was able to find benevolent beings that danced more knowledge into me. I eventually was offered to go deeper and to stay there with them, something that has been recently reoccurring in my trips. I learned the secrets so I can't go back. I need to join the creators and beings who have also made it there before, most from death from what I could see. I wasn't ready to let go, I really believed if I went with I could never return to reality. They pushed me out saying if you're not gunna stay we're going to take the secrets back. While being thrown I was losing the knowledge that I gained, like trying to keep water in my hands.
I flashed down into my body again somewhat bigger, like I couldn't fit. I had to stuff my self back in, all turned around and discombobulated. this was when the idea of time reemerged and here is the biggest feeling of time dilation and the looping pattern of reality. I kept seeing and feeling my feet above my head, almost in place of my hands yet not. my body felt very jumbled. I had an uncomfortable feeling while my limbs rematerialized however it was exciting and enjoyable. Through the resonating ringing sound of the other plane I was able to hear the recoding again and used this and terence's words to pull myself back together slowly. He was my anchor bringing me back to this world. I remember what joe said that everything seems a little slippery, that's exactly how I felt. The illusion had melted and has not totally reassembled. I felt a little paranoid while coming down. I thought that someone like government or the troublesome spirits were watching and would get me because of the things I learned. I eventually walked out of the room almost unsettled to open the door imagining something on the other side, or worse nothing. I pushed the door into the room where I, relived it was unchanged, had the usual afterglow of elation and power. I was down now but still feeling good and I went along my day.