Hei

Something really really rare happened last night, lately I have been scared to go to sleep, I have felt that something has been watching me in the dark, when I close my eyes creepy thoughts arise in my head, everything around me feels like a unknown energy force. I get so afraid of the "feeling" that occurs that I can't close my eyes. I get to afraid to sleep.

I "feel" something is watching me, something evil/unknown. But last night I had the balls to almost surrender to the feeling that have been chasing me the last month's, it was a "spiritual" experience, well, more surreal/dreamy. I felt I got sucked into a circle of unknown material, darkness and evil embraced me. It was a insane rush, my heart was bumping, and the adrenaline was bursting in my veins. I was conscious when this happened, but it got more blurry as I let go of it.

I saw a dark field that looked like a black hole sucking me inside with arms saying " Come to me, come to me, we want you!" It was a kaleidoscope off unknown material that was dragging me into a deep circle, sucking me inside slowly.

I refused, I could not let it do this to me! So I used all my psychological/psychological health and burst out from it.

Then.. I opened my eyes in fear to see something, but nothing was in my room,,I was shocked and I turned on the light's to feel more safe and then go to sleep.

I have had many hard psilocybe experiences in my life, but this "sober" experience was to much to handle compared to the mushroom.

If this was a bad trip I'm glad It's over, you don't want to experience it.

I guess you will think this is some sort of dream paralysis, maybe this was some sort of it, but I have experienced many paralysis in my past and this was something different, maybe a next level paralysis ore something, it was just outstanding. literally insane. The feeling was inhuman for me. To much to handle. Like a turbo boosted psychedelic trip occupied by fair.

When I experience paralysis I can't move and I'm very conscious during the experience, this was something else..

The experience happened yesterday as I said, if the fair occurs tonight I will try to surrender to the feeling 100%, because I know that my mind is making this stuff up, maybe it's something I need to face. I don't know. I get the fair of dying when this happens, because it's unknown territory. It's really creepy..

Any tips on how to treat this?

Hello LL

I have also experienced an extreme episode sober recently. It seems maybe a little different from what you describe, but who knows?


One thing to consider is have you smoked marijuana recently?

You could also try passionflower before bed if you're having trouble sleeping plus it is also an anxiolytic.
Harmalas + melatonin is also highly recommended to get a good rest.


There is probably something to work with in yourself but make sure to wait for an optimal set and setting if you choose to use any psychedelics.

I haven't smoked since December last year and I've been sober since that date, but having a hard time getting used to the sober life.

Thank's for the advice, is the passionflower something I can make tea of?

What episodes have you experienced? Can you describe them?

Yes passionflower makes a good tea. And there is plenty of
Information on the nexus about passiflora


Marijuana can actually help if the dose is right.


Really Low doses (like 5-10 mg) are quite medicinal in general.


For me these episodes were like a feeling of my heart (emotional center) being totally empty
And I felt highly dissociated and I felt like i might be going brain-dead (whatever that means) I also had a fear that I was going to die.
For some time after the episodes some anxiety persisted but thankfully it has gone away and I just have typical irrationality and irritability that comes with being human.

I believe improving my diet was helpful in this situation. Protein deficiency may have had something to do with it.

I'll check it out, sounds legitimate, but I have to stay away from the Marijuana. *Sadly*

"Brain-dead" % "empty" explains it tho, I can relate to that. The feeling of dying is overwhelming.

Maybe it's something in our life that needs to be sorted out? I work out almost everyday and eat healthy, so the chemistry in my body should be fine. Buy our brain is very powerful I guess.