Hello again friends
I also wanted to share a bit of insight or perhaps a revelation in my experiences!
On my 3rd trip, I was shown why confusion exists and why some of us become aware of what we are or where we come from or where we are going and what our purpose here is!.
While on a trip, I was taken to a place where I sat and observed a gigantic Mandala, which had a pulse... suddenly I had the understanding that what I was staring at, was LIFE!... and inside of such, there were many layers or dimensions! each of them more complex and beautiful than the one before it!...
So I sat there and observed this pattern and noticed smaller patterns within it, and these patterns started from the center of the mandale and in a very small form (looked like a dot) that unraveled and became bigger and bigger as they fed on lines that surrounded them... and the more they fed on the lines around them they bigger and more beautiful they would become, eventually reaching a level where they would change colors and become extremely complex!
But SOME of the smaller patterns wouldnt feed off the lines that surrounded them, instead they would clash, and sort of reject those lines and sort of BUMP them out of the way... which caused these patterns to sort of spin in place! and not grow!..
Then BOOM the realization of what I was looking at hit me so much that my physical body had no other option than to cry (was told by a friend because I do not remember), what I was looking at, was the human experience... we are at the lowest point of existence and we must feed from the lines (life lessons) that teach us certain principles and emotions that are necessary to exist (morph) in a higher dimension (more complex pattern) .. such as Love, Compassion, Humility, etc....
Life here isn't about money or collecting materials at all, the whole point of this is to learn (feed) the necessary principles, that will be present/active in a bigger way once you morph into a more complex form of yourself....
Each pattern that started from center and morphed, when looked at from a distance, gave the illusion that the Mandala had a PULSE! and it was alive, so in a way, we are the Universe experiencing itself over and over and over... and I had read that before, but never SEEN IT!
And while I was staring at this cycle of existence in amazement, I was TOLD, do you see those lines? that they feed on?? do you see it?... thats who YOU are!!!...
You are a line feeder!!!... the moment you became aware of who you were, you became a line feeder, and your purpose is to help and nurture the growth of "others" (not really others, because at this point I have realized that I am this ENTIRE pattern) therefore helping yourself continue...
Some of us have been here before, and are now here to help, nurture, or guide others to become aware of who we are!!! .. but not ALL will and SHOULD become aware of all of us being the same thing...
CONFUSION is necessary... The illusion of separation is necessary... because ONLY when you are completely unaware of a situation do you really get a true reaction and interaction, that will lead to you learning the lessons you need to morph into a complex pattern and exist in a higher dimension... otherwise you will keep repeating this stage over and over and over....(reincarnation)
Ever since, I have slowly but surely been telling my friends and family a little bit about what I saw, as to help them with their stressful lives and maybe make this experience a little easier....
And after a year of speaking.. I seem to have ignited a spark of curiousity in my brother and cousin, also in very close friends... to the point where they are watching documentaries, reading books about the spirit molecule, and some have even tried it (my brother which is the shyest, most reserved, closed minded person I knew) ... lol
And its extremely gratifying to see that I was able to help them calm down a little and pay attention to the things that really matter in this physical experience =)...
The purpose I was given, to help and to nurture is easy to do and extremely rewarding!!.. I am to simply help myself become aware of myself so that I can enjoy myself =) .... because I need Line feeders...
=) Love you all.. thank you for reading, this badly structured post.