I wake up everyday feeling the same. I feel an energy within me, burning and singing to me. It feels as though my soul has grown to large for my body, or maybe I've become aware that I had one to begin with. I know I cant be the only person experiencing thins awesome and beautiful feeling. I witnessed within in my own mind the inter-connectivity that is our reality and cosmos. I feel like everyday more and more minds are becoming aware to the fact that all life shares something. Something deep within in us all, its bright and primal. A link to a realm of energy and vibration.

Hopefully one day I wake up with a feeling resonating along the frequency of creation. a collective consciousness quietly contemplating the beauty of an endless spiral of self similarities and human emotion. Vibration from the begging extended all the way to the end. The soul unleashed, unshackled from a world of Gold and Iron. A conscious free from the narrow mindedness of greed and the illusion of time. Time and observation are the glues that solidify our material world. With out this, the physical plane dissolves and you see in a new light.

This light is unimaginable, consisting of all possible positions, and outcomes. every were you've been and every where you'll go. its simply juxtaposed across existence in one scene. This is the universe of light and energy that exist beside our universe of materials. Unfortunately though consciousness and observation can only happen in a finite space. so our conscious presence collapses a wave function of a quantum level, thus creating a finite space for itself(a conscious) to exist in. this segregation of Light and Material is the reason from human thought, and the reason we see the world in such a static manner.

In this separate universe, this is where our conscious is located. Its my belief that the collective consciousness of our living energy is aware that its shackled up and locked away. Meanwhile most of humanity and life is blind to this in a sense. We were born into the world. forced to survive or die. This brings me to the creation of Ego. Once consciousness collapse a wave function it represent its self in a physical body (life). Ego is a part of the material world rooted deep in the brain of life. it attaches value to your physical body, and a will to keep living and moving forward with time.

I would Like to believe now is the time to find our soul. life has survived for far to long. Life as a hole can transcend all this hate and death. I mean if its true energy can never been destroyed, intrinsically that means we can never truly die. Just change states of consciousness. Ego is weakness and judgment is poison for the soul. This the source of all oppression. if one part of the soul is not free, Then we are all rotting in that dark cell we call isolation.

LET US PLEASE LET GO.
BE FREE MY BEAUTIFUL SOUL.
A LIFE FORM OF COLOR AND VIBRATION.
GLISTENING THROUGHOUT ALL EXISTENCE.

I know all of this sounds crazy, but I remember just years ago. I was alone and isolated from the idea of being one with life. Not having trillions of brothers and sisters in life across the universe. It was lonely and truly dark. For I blamed no one but humanity and its blindness. It made sense for along time. As it turn out though there is not isolation just the illusion of it.

I saw my soul one night. A life form that was me but totally separate and so far from my physical body. Even with that distance I could here it singing with love and warmth. Showing brightly with colors impossible in a static universe. My mind rose up like a beacon and I suddenly saw past the illusion were are born into, and forced to believe or die. I learned a deep love and respect for this energy within me. Once I learned this about my self I saw this same energy fractal-ling out across all life. Not only did I learn self love, I learned to love all life like I love myself

In finding my soul. I found that realm of beautiful light. A power, that life as a whole is part of it. I see it in myself. the fore I see myself in the eyes and hearts of all life. how could I not help but crumble into nothing and just love.

I want to spread this message of love, I want to protest the old ways, I want to see the corporate world burn before me. If Life rose up as one entity and broke apart into a wave of pure potentials, I am sure we could surpass the oppression and enter and age of transcended intelligence, uninhibited love, and a universe were our intentions shape reality. This is only the begging, but I guess im just talking to myself, right?

little background.
this is not a trip report, ive been caught up in a lot of deep thought lately. so this morning I just quickly toke some note from my mind and well. I am thinking of adding characters somehow and righting a book or mini series because I literally have been going nuts lately.
I hear a voice of sorts in my head, quite a bit. its not mine at all, and its not like another person or someone evil telling me to do bad things voices. its like being in a classroom of some sorts. alot of information just be spurted out from someone in front of me. it can be hard to pay attention its very dry and vague.

It really makes me feel strange but at the same time, I have an incredible feeling, its almost tangible in the air. I don't know what it is, some input, im kinda of worried about my grip on reality.

I have some advice for you. When things start getting weird you need to take a step back and focus on the tangible reality around you. Like mundane every day life stuff. Maybe your mind is wandering because it needs to be applied to something else.

Believe nothing of which is going on in your head. Come back to it at a later point in time and let your beliefs erode like the sandstone on the shore. That which truly holds significance as truth will stand the test of time and evolve alongside of you if you look at yourself critically.

Being creative is a great outlet for these emotions and energy if you have the free time to do so. If you find it's getting overwhelming I highly suggest reaching out to a professional in your area. A lot of times they will offer sliding scales of payment if you think you can't afford it so don't let that hold you back.

Hey DMTbenderDMT....this sure can feel like really lonely road sometimes.
I can definitely relate to what your saying since it hasn't been that long when i had 2-3 months of really hard time of coping with reality and what i have been exposed to so far in my journeys. I find it very therapeutic when talking with certain people about what is going on with me and yes i know how hard it can be to find or have someone close in your life that is willing to listen and not judge or be afraid of what your going trough. I think all this is part of much needed integration and ego dampening that is bound to happen to each one who is willing to look deep inside of oneself. While this is happening it's hard to see it and understand it. It's only when you passed certain point that your able to look back and go aha! so this is what all that was about. You learn and move forward.

As to advice that was give to you by post above mine (don't know the name ...some funny little house for a nickname ) - that is one great advice. I would add my 2 cents. Don't know if your type of a guy that works out or does any sports but i personally find it most effective when i need to ground my self and clear my head of constant mind chatter.