The most common color I see while really soaring on truffels or spice - is white.

SO much white. And it's strange. The HARDER I squint my eyes, or the darker it is, the brighter the white is. Why is that? I can open my eyes to a lit room, and it CAN (sometimes) disappear completely.
Sometimes it stays if I open my eyes.

Sometimes I can have 2 trips at once. My apartment with round smooth corners and melty walls, or I can close my eyes and go back to extreme morphing white colors. Open and close to alternate my trips.

Tell me, is Ayauhasca just like 5-8 hours of that same morphing art you see while you smoke?

I'm trying to look at the smallest details more. But, the trips aren't long enough when smoked.

From my personal experience it's much a case of letting go, sometimes ways of thinking or observing are actually keeping you anchored to reality and aren't allowing you to fully experience what the dose has to offer. Also, have you broken through yet? I in the beginning felt like I was having very repeated experiences but that was down to the way I was handling myself while under the influence, letting go and breaking through the first time showed me more than I believed was possible in my case.

I can't fathom it getting any crazier than I've seen.

For example, I've seen the high priestess Tarot card. Blue room, pillars, her, etc.

Other times there will be white objects flowing and forming in my face, and the more I smoke the bigger the room I see them in gets. I'll see hands come into view and point at things while all this information is flowing around me...

I'd like to think I've broken through?

Hello topherfoster,

When you say that white is predominant in your Spice journeys, are you referring to a blinding white light? I frequently have what I call "whiteout experiences", while tripping on entheogens. I see a blinding white light from within, perceived by the lens of my third eye and if I move into this vortexial energy center, the light appears to be expanding exponentially within my crown center. And while the luminosity is a white light, it seems to contain prismatic effrcts, sort of like rainbowed refractions of all of the other colors (like lead-crystal retracts natural sunlight) . When I focus my attention to this, I merge my conscious-awareness within this immense brilliance,... then all brvomes the field of luminosity and all is perceived is sn undifferentiated spiritual state.

Or are you referring to predominantly white images and visuals? Whichever, I see this as a good sign.

Images of some sort. MOST of my trips I see big white things forming in front of me. Like big white pin cushions. Not so much a light, as it is something that is white itself. There IS light there though, it's just indirect...

Excellent. I woulden't say that white is better than black. But white is the purest counter to black and exceptionally beautiful.

I can concur with Rising Spirit as far that I have meditated on "Looshe (robert Monroe) or roughly translated. White Love" and noticed a laser light stuck to my third eye giving me a direct connection with the purest white i have ever seen. For me, there was a brilliant blue sort of gem/diamond as well in it.

When the trip becomes too intense and I pussy out i Always ask for White light to come and it Always comes. It takes some mental kung fu to really summon it, and sometimes it doesn't work because I have no idea what the hell I am doing, really.

White and black are my trip and i'm not happy about it. I feel like I need to make a choice somewhere in the future. I see a right hand door and a left hand door. Both lead to the same end-point I am sure but the roads are equally different. I think you already made this choice with your soul somewhere in the past and choosen left instead of right.

Sure, but there's Always deeper and deeper membranes to break on through. Letting go is completely letting go and I think what will happen for you is that you will fall into this vortex which Rising Spirit knows and loves.

I can't get deeper. I can't even take a hit sometimes. My lighter turns to glitter, then I can't even flicker the dang thing.

I seriously take hits until I can't see anything anymore.
LUCKILY, my machine is a vinegar jar thing, and where the flame touches my copper plug, it's covered. So nothing spills out, and nothing can catch fire.

... Because, I've come out of trips and found both my arms at my side and my machine on the ground.

I'm thinking about getting Syrian rue? Or something like that to make my trips more intense and last longer. Wondering if that'll help me go further...

I'd wager some harmalas and a GVG could take you deeper. That or some LSDMT. Sometimes less is more too - if you can get a huge singular hit, sometimes just digesting that one hit is the perfect thing you need whereas taking those extra couple hits might actually throw things off and set things back a bit.

I did end up breaking through tonight. Like for real. Completely lost consciousness. It was amazing. I made post about it. I guess I was pretty cocky before when I said I can't imagine it much stronger.

Though I am still interested in harmalas for duration purposes for sure.