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Posts: 9 Joined: 04-Jan-2014 Last visit: 12-Feb-2015
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So far all of my breakthroughs have been goofy and extremely colorful, filled with curious elves and mysterious entities. This one however was completely different, and showed me just how powerful DMT really is.
I loaded up 60mg (my biggest dose yet) of DMT into my pipe took three deep long hits. As I took my third hit, my vision kept flashing and I felt as if my torso was disappearing and my head was simply sitting upon my legs. This freaked me out, and a laid back immediately. I fell out of my body, and hovered in empty space. Three blue shadow figures knelt around me like EMTs, examining me as if I were in an accident. I began to fall quickly away from them and into a blank white room filled with pillars. The blue figures walked around the room hiding behind the pillars, keeping a good distance away from me. They didn’t speak to me, but I knew they were asking me to come with them, to show me what they can do. I moved towards them, they laughed, and the room expanded infinitely.
I was now alone in the room; I was trapped. I started to become scared, and tried to calm down by reminding myself that I’m laying in my bed. I completely forgot who I was, and that I was even laying in my room. I knew it was somewhere in my brain, but I couldn’t grasp it. Who am I? I felt as if I was going to be gone forever. I was reborn, had no identity, and no sense of reality. I kept telling myself “I’ll be back soon”, but back to what? I couldn’t remember any aspect to my life no matter how hard I tried. This felt as if it went on forever, and I truly believed like I was stuck there for eternity. Bad thoughts, anger, and sadness began to manifest into me. I thought I had died, and the only thing left for me to do was to accept my fate. Stopped panicking, I said I was ready to leave, and the entities began to come out from behind the pillars and walk around me once again. They walked in a circle and the room began to move with them and spin. I began to fall through rooms, as if falling in an elevator in a building. Speeding up, I felt myself falling back into my body. With every passing second I began to remember who I was, and where I am. I shot my eyes open as soon as I felt my bed again. The room was very 2d, almost like it was made out of construction paper. I reached for my phone and turned on some music, walked over to the mirror and looked closely at myself. I have stared at myself in the mirror on DMT before (as well as LSD) and I always feel like I’m looking at someone completely different, or I could see the bad in myself. This time, I was looking at just me. I loved what I saw, and I felt the biggest appreciation for my life and loved ones.
I traveled into complete insanity, accepted my fate, and was given what I believe to be a second chance on life. This experience changed me forever, and I now see that life is a beautiful gift that I have to cherish.
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Posts: 4591 Joined: 29-Jan-2009 Last visit: 24-Jan-2024
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Rock on, friend. Great report.
Pass Go and collect $200. Enjoy the fruits of full membership!
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Posts: 39 Joined: 02-Jan-2014 Last visit: 31-Aug-2021
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Beautiful experience, hope to read more  “The urge to transcend self-conscious selfhood is, as I have said, a principal appetite of the soul.”
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Posts: 5 Joined: 19-Jan-2014 Last visit: 24-Jan-2014 Location: USA
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What a wonderful gift you have received. How powerful to be able to gaze at yourself with acceptance and love.
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oralow wrote:What a wonderful gift you have received. How powerful to be able to gaze at yourself with acceptance and love. It definitely was a very powerful experience. I'm still in awe over it, and extremely in shock at just how powerful DMT really is.
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 "Love is the medicine."
Posts: 252 Joined: 05-Sep-2011 Last visit: 19-Sep-2020 Location: somewhere in Central America!
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yes! (¯`'·.¸(♥)¸.·'´¯  But suddenly you're ripped into being alive. And life is pain, and life is suffering, and life is horror, but my god you are alive and it is spectacular!
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Posts: 31 Joined: 03-Jan-2014 Last visit: 27-Oct-2014 Location: Lost Angeles
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The loneliness is terrifying but there is beauty in being alone with the universe Once you open your eyes you can not go back to sleep... I see you, Namaste peace, love, light
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I really enjoyed this, thank you.  in your opinion, do you think the entities you encounterd were other intelgences or aspects of your self? (I apologize for my spelling errors) ~ “We have been to the moon, we have charted the depths of the ocean and the heart of the atom, but we have a fear of looking inward to ourselves because we sense that is where all the contradictions flow together.”~ ― Terence McKenna *Psychonaut*
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Psychelexium528Hz* wrote:I really enjoyed this, thank you.  in your opinion, do you think the entities you encounterd were other intelgences or aspects of your self? (I apologize for my spelling errors) In all of my trips the entities are there to comfort me. I begin most of my experiences with them looking over me, examining me, and making sure I'm okay to begin. When they left me, I became very uncomfortable and very lost. They are all very different/unique (when comparing them across all of my breakthroughs), so I would have to say they're of other intelligence, but at the same time I don't know if I believe that. I haven't had an experience were I feel like they represent an aspect of my life, so I'm not sure what to believe when it comes to hyperspace.
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Posts: 31 Joined: 03-Jan-2014 Last visit: 27-Oct-2014 Location: Lost Angeles
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Psychelexium528Hz* wrote:I really enjoyed this, thank you.  in your opinion, do you think the entities you encounterd were other intelgences or aspects of your self? (I apologize for my spelling errors) after careful contemplation.. I feel these beings...either peaceful or "evil" are manifested within us....just my thoughts there to haunt me or comfort me Just my point of view Once you open your eyes you can not go back to sleep... I see you, Namaste peace, love, light
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Posts: 32 Joined: 27-Mar-2013 Last visit: 03-Jul-2020 Location: On the launch pad
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Sounds like a full on breakthrough to me. I wonder if this qualifies as an ego-death experience?
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