Hey everyone, I am pretty excited to immerse myself in this community. I can see from reading the many posts on here that this forum is filled with some truly beautiful people.
I want to take a moment to discuss my first (almost) steps into hyperspace. But first I would like to give a little back story of today and how Ive felt as well as my previous drug experiences.
I am well versed in psychedelics having tripped on lsd and mushrooms many times and have done my fair share of sub threshold dmt experiences. I have also always been a firm believer in set and setting and how it can really change the dynamic of an experience.
I received 200mg of pure DMT today and invited a good friend of mine Zoe to come over and partake. The whole day I have been feeling a bit anxious and just off especially when I would think about the DMT, a feeling I have never had towards the substance. My friend zoe arrived and I loaded the pipe with around 30mg of dmt. I vaped it and unfortunately I'm still perfecting my smoking TEK so she had a sub threshold trip, but she still enjoyed it quite a bit. I then chose to pass on smoking anything other than a sub threshold amount and said I would wait another day. After my friend left I couldn't contain myself and decided to go for a breakthrough. It is very clear I should have listened to my gut feeling.
I loaded the pipe with 35mg or so of dmt and started to vape the material, at this point I think I def have the TEK down as I managed to get all of the DMT in one large thick toke. I took it in deeply and almost instantaneously I knew that I had successfully taken the dose. I could hear the classic noise in different intervals and I could feel another train of thought in my head, not my own and something completely out of this world. I could hear my voice in my head and this other; seemingly floating between our reality and the DMT reality. The sound continuously shifted up and down and I heard the foreign voice in my head say
"Yes yes yes, right there. No not there. Not quite. Right there. No not there yet. Almost. nope. Still no."
At this point it was clear that I was not ready. I even for a moment thought to myself, maybe DMT is bad maybe its too powerful, and its going to mess me up really bad. To which the other voice replied:
"Oh no not bad, not bad at all. Just not ready. Not today. Its not your day. Don't worry. Its not going to hurt you. Try again soon, just not now"
I felt as though my body was floating in between worlds and was dissolving into nothingness but then would snap back in to reality. The body high was unreal. Slowly I reconnected fully into our reality and I am utterly astonished. I haven't even broken through and I already know there is so much more to our reality than we could ever imagine. That voice in my head was not mine, I absolutely know that. It was something much greater, much more beautiful. I could tell it wanted so bad for me to be ready today but it just couldn't quite let me cross over. It didn't want me to have a bad experience.
Now I feel as though I am going to always have a breakthrough dose available because when the time is right I'll know. The feeling in my gut will tell me I am ready. The other side will give me a call and invite me to experience the infinite. I can tell you right now that I am more than excited to meet that other voice and let it show me one day when I am ready all there is to learn.
Thanks for taking the time to read my post, I hope this helps first timers a little bit. I would never say this experience was negative, I simply just wasn't ready today
Namaste my friends!