Hi all!

As the title suggests I'm a new member here but not that new to Hyperspace.
I've been doing this for 2-3 years now and have had some great success in breaking through and sometimes it just doesn't happen for whatever reason.

Last night it happened, it happened in a way I've never experienced and not sure I want to experience again!

First of all, I want to apologise in advance if this report seems to be a bit rambling.
I wanted to report this as soon as i was back but I just couldn't find the words to do it.
Shocked is an understatement.

I wasn't planning on even doing this last night, I was planning on doing other things as it was my day off today so I decided to have a little fun.

First of all I was drinking a few beers with my dinner and then decided to take some dried magic mushrooms, not a lot, only a gram or so,just enough for a light buzz.
Once I had done those I decided I wanted to take this night a little further and got out my MDMA and Ketamine.
I always have keep a bit of a few things I like, just in case.

As you can imagine, by this time I had a real nice buzz going which obviously made me feel pretty brave (or stupid). So i decided to get out my pipe and my spice.

I know a lot of you guys use home made pipes for this, personally I've always got the best results from using what you might call a crack pipe (glass pipe with round bowl with tiny little hole in the top for air to get in).

I was watching some TV so decided to put on a David Attenborough nature show as I find when coming back from Hyperspace it a really nice relaxing thing to look at.

As always I did a very small amount, not enough to break through but just enough to make everything look amazing and to get me ready for the actual ride!

Once I had my confidence up, I decided to go for it. Again I didn't even put that much in at all, in fact it was a lot less then I normally would.

As I began, I could instantly feel this was going to be a strong experience. I think what must have happened is a bit of spice from the last few times I did it didn't actually get vapourised and all got used up in this hit.

Anyway, before i could even exhale i was instantly in another world and barely has time to put down my lighter and pipe.
Before i could close my eyes, i caught a glimpse of my floor and among the swirling colours and light, it looked like something has smashed on my floor.

As I lay back on my bed and closed my eyes, I saw my parents and partner run into my room crying and asking what was happening. Then all around me, my room collapsed and fell away and I was strapped to a stretcher in a helicopter being flown to hospital while a doctor performed CPR on me.
As I looked up passed the oxygen mask I could see my partner and parents and they were all crying and begging me not to die.

At this point I hear the pilot of the helicopter saying that we were going to crash and among the sounds of the helicopter i could hear everyone was screaming.
Then we crashed. I honestly thought that I and the people I loved has all just died in a helicopter crash and it was all my fault.

All of this was so vivid and real, it was nothing like I have experienced before.
Only at the start and what happened next was it like what I've experienced before, with all the beautiful colours and lights etc...

Then like i say, it got back to what I normally experience on a breakthrough, though this time I wasn't aware I had even done DMT or anything. I actually thought I was dead and I was in the after life, everything was bright, beautiful and after the chaos of the helicopter crash it seemed incredibly calm.

As I lay there trying to take it all in trying to process the fact that I was dead, there were these beings I had seen before telling me to relax and that everything would be OK (as always can't remember what they looked like now as it's all starting to fade in my mind).

As I began to accept the fact that this was it, I began to hear this familiar voice saying "he isn't sure if he's dead or not, he can't make up his mind" and his voice kept rewinding like tape and saying that over and over (I've never audio hallucinations before, not like that anyway).

At this point I must have opened my eyes, looked at my TV and i could see David Attenborough on the show that I had put on. But instead of narrating the nature show, he was narrating my death.
As I was listening to this and watching him look down on me I began to realise that I couldn't be dead and that I must have just experienced the most vivid and complete breakthrough that I have has ever happend to me.

I stared to feel myself calm down and looked around my room, which was still there and hadn't collapsed, looked at my floor and there was nothing smashed at all.
As i was coming back to earth (nothing looked normal stil, everything was still looking totally out of this world and beautiful) a wave of total euphoria came over me as i realised that in fact I would get to see my loved ones again and I would have another chance at life.

When I finally felt like I was almost back, I moved for the first time in what must have been 20 mins, I was so incredibly stiff as if I'd been exercising for hours on end. I began to shake uncontrollably for a further 10-15 mins, it's as if I was in shock, i've had this once before too so it didn't worry me too much.

Finally I was back and I tried to make sense of what had happened, why did this happen, what did it mean? Nearly 24 hours later, I'm still no closer to finding the answers to those questions and I don't think I ever will.

I know it was stupid doing this after consuming everything I had done and I certainly wont be trying that combination again.
But as scary and as real as it was, I can't say it was a bad experience at all as while what was happening was bad, the way it happened and where I was afterwards was anything but bad, If that makes sense?

Anyway I apologise again if this was all a bit rambling but I really needed to share this experience.
I've not told anyone else and I don't think I will just yet, normally I share these experiences with my partner as we normally do this together, but this time was alone and don't feel ready to share it with anyone that I know, especially her as I think the content of what happened will upset her.

Thanks for taking the time to read this though and I'm sure I'll back soon to share more and read about everyone else's experiences.

Wow this was pretty awesome, thanks for sharing I really enjoyed reading it. Have you had any experience similar to the helicopter crash or a near death experience?

Thanks for taking the time to read it, after I posted it I thought it might be a bit long.
I tried to keep it short but it was really difficult.

You mean in real life right? If that is what you mean, then no I haven't.
Which is why I'm struggling to understand it, if i had experienced anything like before then I could understand being taken back to it for one reason or another, but as it is I have no idea why I was shown what I was.

I don't know if it was meant to scare me, or if it was some kind of warning or sign?

It was one of the most vivid experiences of my life and like I said, the first part of it wasn't anything like DMT experiences I've had before, it was a real as waking up in the morning, the people, the sounds, the smells. It was all REAL.

It's all I've been able to think about since and I'm sure I'll be thinking about it for some time to come.

I'm intrigued what will happen next time and I'll be sure to come back and share it with you guys once I find out.

Again, thanks for reading.

It really seems like those movies where someone has a vision seeing a future accident (not trying to scare you ) and starts to tell everyone and nobody gives a fuck until it's too late.

It also reminded me of the book I just finished (The Chronicles of Siala) where the main character entered into a dream and lived another person's life.

Hope you come to any conclusion

Haha, yeah that thought did cross my mind to be honest.

Hopefully the next time I might come to some sort of conclusion...Either way it was an experience I won't forget in a hurry!

That sounds like an interesting book too, I'll have to look it up.

Very interesting read sir. I may have lost it, good on ya.

Hello and thanks for sharing

Its sounds like you had a very profound experience.

Here is my thoughts on your experience.

I think you were being shown that your life is not just about you but its about the people around you too, your loved ones. You dying wouldn't just be about you loosing your life but it would mean loosing the ones around you too and thats why you all died together.
Hopefully that makes sense

I dont think its is a vision of things to come like a movie, but its showing you that your life goes beyond you, I think it should be been seen as a good experience or a good reminder how important your loved ones are.

Hi

Thanks for taking the time to read about my experience.

What you are saying makes a lot of sense actually and looking at it like that really fits.

I am looking upon it as a positive experience despite the seemingly negative content of the first part. As like I said, the way things happened and where I was afterwards was nothing but good.

I've broken through many times before but never have I seen what people consider to be "reality" while doing so. It's always been beautiful colours, lights, shapes and patterns with the feeling of someone or something being there talking to me and guiding me on a journey.

As I have already said, this was nothing but real, everyone and everything looked as they would in everyday life. Then when we crashed, it was all a little more like what I would come to expect from breaking through.

Thanks.